#secretsofblackthornhall

Jace—

I don’t know why I’m writing, I don’t know why I’m writing to you, I’m just sitting here trying to stay calm but all these thoughts are in my head repeating over and over and I need to put them down and send them somewhere. You said you would always be there if I needed to talk so hi, yes, hello, I need to talk. I can’t go to Jem and Tessa, they’re just as traumatized as I am, maybe more. And Emma and Julian were there and they were having such a good time, enjoying their house that was finally safe and pleasant and comfortable and then suddenly a baby is kidnapped right out of that safe and pleasant house without anybody noticing anything.

The truth is—I haven’t wanted to admit it, but the truth is Mina’s always been in danger. Because of me. Because I have some long-past faerie ancestors, so everyone close to me is in danger. Nothing I can do about it, nothing I did to deserve it. And it means Jem and Tessa, because they adopted me, because they love me, got their daughter kidnapped for their troubles.  

By the way, since you are someone I care about, you’re a member of the group of people I’ve put in danger. Sorry about that. But you’re Jace Herondale! You eat danger for breakfast. You eat danger flakes topped with perilberries. You’ll be fine. But Mina…she’s so little. And she’s never been away from her family before.

I keep telling myself they won’t hurt her. It’s not her they want. It’s something else.

Every indication is that she was grabbed by faeries. Most of Round Tom’s workers have left and we don’t know if one of them maybe did it, or helped whoever did it. Round Tom himself says he doesn’t know anything and is as confused as everyone else—never concerns himself with politics. Everyone is suspicious of him anyway, but, well, he can’t lie, and the sentence, “I had no knowledge of anything to do with your daughter’s kidnapping,” is hard to interpret any other way.

But it may not matter. If Mina was kidnapped by faeries…especially faeries under direct orders by one of the Courts…that’s a violation of the Accords. And that means war with Faerie. Another war with Faerie.

How do you live like this, man? How do you get through the day knowing that you endanger everyone, just by existing?

I guess I can answer that myself. You are who you are because of everything you’ve been through. You handle stuff because you’ve had to handle stuff. Jem and Tessa adopted me thinking they could keep me safe, but maybe nothing can keep me safe. I’ve been drifting along, playing happy families, but the truth is I have to change. Be harder. Stronger. More powerful. Be someone the bad guys should be afraid of. Not a kid who has to be protected. That has to end.

I’m not a kid anymore.

Anyway. I just realized that you know the whole situation already, because I’m sure Alec has filled you in. But it helps to write it down myself, like I said. I don’t think there’s anything you can do, and I’m not asking for help. I just thought of all people, you’d get it. That you could be someone for me to talk to about this. Hope it’s okay for you to be that for me.

If you want to read SOBH, but don't really know where to start, this post is for you. Cassandra Clare never really added an index to the official SOBH tumblr page, so reading it is a bit messy because you have to go to the archive page and go all the way down. That's a waste of time, so here you have a list of all the chapters of this short novel in publishing order. You just have to click on each link to read it.

Introduction- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/648643292320448512

Chapter 1- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/656254352236986368/dear-cristina-from-emma

Chapter 2- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/659689393496424448/dearest-magnus

Chapter 3- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/660328098120777728/julian-to-mark

Chapter 4- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/660958384974151680/emma-to-dru

Chapter 5- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/661593025962721280/from-the-diary-of-tatiana-lightwood-december-27

Chapter 6- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/662227098031800320/emma-to-diary

Graphic content [Chapter 6.5]: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/662861361780555776

Chapter 7- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/663506480591405056/kieran-to-general-winter

Chapter 8- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/664129561068453888/mark-to-ty

Chapter 9- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/664763679067324416/ty-to-julian-and-emma

Chapter 10- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/665397726655217665/the-very-secret-diary-of-miss-tatiana-lightwood

Chapter 11- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/666031883258413056/dru-texts-kit

Bonus content [Chapter 12 teaser released for Halloween]: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/666575964536553472

Chapter 12- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/666666065263296512/emma-to-diary

Chapter 13- https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/667304014500839424/julian-to-magnus

Chapter 14: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/667938417871634432/dear-alec-before-anything-else-i-just-want-to

Chapter 15: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/668572250353680384/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 16: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/669206811642052608/emma-to-jem

Chapter 17: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/669838995566510080/tessa-to-maryse

Chapter 18: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/670476065741881344/jem-to-emma

Chapter 19: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/671110225954324480/emma-to-bruce

Bonus content: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/671560367406743552

Chapter 20: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/674279860072595456/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 21: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/674913667738927104/julian-to-mark

Chapter 22: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/675094607592357888/mark-to-julian

Chapter 23: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/675547836032729089/julian-to-kieran

Chapter 24: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/676181777256153088/emma-to-bruce

Bonus chapter [Chapter 24.5 (this one is not on Tumblr; it was sent via newsletter)]: https://mailchi.mp/cassandraclare/20211217-7907875

Chapter 25: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/676816198443352064/julian-to-magnus

Chapter 26: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/677450122405232640/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 27: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/678081530229293056/hypatias-translation-of-the-diary

Chapter 28: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/678714961764204544/julian-to-helen-and-aline

Chapter 29: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/678896588234653696/julian-to-helen-and-aline

Chapter 30: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/679349523695435776/tessa-to-sophie

Chapter 31: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/679983692049006592/dru-to-kit

Chapter 32: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/680163317054046208/helen-to-julian

Chapter 33: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/680617253190991872/emma-to-bruce-partly-tatianas-diary

Chapter 34: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/681252171490131968/julian-to-magnus

Chapter 35: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/682067915844075520/cristina-to-emma

Chapter 36: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/682519835606958080/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 37: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/683154000468705280/ty-to-julian

Chapter 38: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/683787176902868992/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 39: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/684422588778332160/julian-to-alec

Chapter 40: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/684603261448273920/cristina-to-emma

Chapter 41: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/685056514324660224/emma-to-cristina

Chapter 42: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/685689719933353984/julian-to-mark

Chapter 43: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/686325109820211200/ty-to-dru

Chapter 44: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/686958914380660736/letter-from-kieran

Chapter 45: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/687592592210313216/invitation-to-faerie

Chapter 46: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/688227415184588800/julian-to-kieran

Chapter 47: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/688593026565750784/ash-to-janus

Chapter 48: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/690130561075986432/emma-to-jem

Chapter 49: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/690762997183987712/kit-to-dru

Chapter 50: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/691398026631217153/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 51: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/691668923393916928/ty-to-emma

Chapter 52: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/692032675967614976/kit-to-ty

Chapter 53: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/693299956246790144/livvy-to-julian

Chapter 54: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/693937002091053056/magnus-to-alec

Chapter 55: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/694568297733177344/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 56: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/695203276064505856/kit-to-jace

Chapter 57: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/695837806397898752/emma-to-bruce

Chapter 58 [Exclusive bonus chapter from the Kickstarter print edition]: https://www.tumblr.com/tallertysupremacy/754822771789479936/spoilers-for-sobhseasons-of-shadowhunters

Another source https://x.com/fayrchilds/status/1808192914520170652

Chapter 59: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/696471730738397184/emma-to-cristina

Chapter 60: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/697286698428694528/jem-and-tessa-to-alec

Chapter 61: https://secretsofblackthornhall.tumblr.com/post/697740081442832384/emma-to-bruce