#sd-l

I am in a very bad position. My parents and family are fine, I am not. I am in a mentally unstable and abusive household where everyone is more important than me. Just in the past week alone, food has been named struggle for me to get. I am trying to get my commissions out so I can survive. It is very rough here as I was actually thrown out over cookies. I was welcomed back in when the police shown, but that's just because authorities were involved. Ignored for half the night, blamed the other half. Accused and cut off when I defended myself righteously. I only said "I didn't even know we had those" because I'm not told what or when or how stuff us gotten. Only knowing it when there's no more. I am trying to survive. I have walking as my only means of transportation and everything is often times a 30 minute drive from where I live. I am not able to find a job as all 50+ places I've applied to have turned me down. Walking in or digital application. Or some needed an id and form of SSN. I do not have either of those. I need to get a job before anything and I need to pay for everything myself. I am really trying my best to stay strong, but the mental, verbal, and emotional abuse is getting to be too much. I really am trying. I stay positive because I don't want anyone to be having a bad day and worry abt this when they read it either... So please. I hate sounding like this but i rlly need the help. I have some sort of functionality rn. I am getting some but it's a heavy thing to ask. I also don't want to ask to much of the people helping me, God bless their hearts.