I think im slowly starting to realise that im actually terrible at asking for help especially when it comes to things im supposed to be good at.
Like if ik im bad at smth and thats really clear, then i have no problem acknowledging that and asking for help. heck, ill prolly laugh at myself along the way coz hey, its fine we cant be good at everything right?
but the second im struggling with something that i have a reputation for being good at? something that people expect me to do well in because of a stereotype/label that was placed on me? welllllll shit. you better believe im shutting out my loved ones and trying and failing on my own, insisting that im fine the entire time when im really probably not but plot twist im gaslighting everyone including myself