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What about Wally Clark with a reader whoâs kind of the opposite of him. Like heâs very outgoing and friendly but sheâs very reserved and quiet. She doesnât like socializing much and kind of stays to herself, so when she dies at Split River no one really noticed, which did upset her but she also doesnât talk about it. Then one day after a session with mr martin, Wally overhears him talking to Janet about how he feels like she really wont open up and that its a little concerning. So Wally decides to build a friendship with her, which proves to be really difficult at first since she doesnât like to socialize at all. But after a bit he starts to kind of naturally gravitate toward you, and gets you to actually open up to him which makes him very happy.
In the Silence
Synopsis: In which Wally Clark doesnât give up on you, and his hard work pays off.
The thing about Wally Clark was that he never gave up.
It was something everyone in Split River knew about him, something that stuck even after death. He was persistent, always moving forward, always finding a way to make people laugh, to bring people together.
And then there was her.
She was quiet. Kept to herself. The kind of person people didnât really notice, even when she was alive. And after she died? It was like she had never existed at all.
She didnât talk about it, but Wally knew. He heard things. Overheard things. Like today, after Mr. Martinâs session, when he lingered near the door just long enough to catch his voice drifting through the walls.
âShe wonât open up,â Mr. Martin said. âItâs concerning.â
âSome people are just like that,â Janet replied, but there was something in her toneâlike even she wasnât sure.
Wally frowned.
He had never spoken to her much. Not because he didnât want to, but because she made it clear she didnât want anyone to. She was like a shadow, always on the edges, always looking like she had more to say but never saying it.
But Wally liked a challenge.
So the next day, he found her sitting alone near the bleachers, staring out at nothing in particular.
âHey, stranger,â he said, grinning.
She barely acknowledged him. Just a slow blink, a flicker of surprise before she turned back to whatever she was thinking about.
He sat down next to her anyway.
âYou come here often?â he teased, nudging her lightly.
Silence.
Wally was used to people talking back, laughing, meeting his energy. She didnât. She just sat there, arms wrapped around herself, making it very clear that this was her space, and he was intruding.
But Wally Clark didnât scare easy.
So he kept trying.
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It wasnât easy.
She didnât talk much, and when she did, it was short answers. Simple. To the point. If she had her way, she probably wouldâve ignored him forever.
But Wally had patience.
He started sitting with her whenever he could, whether she liked it or not. He talked, and she listened. Told her stories about his life, about football games, about dumb things he and the guys used to do. He didnât know if she actually cared, but she never told him to stop.
And somewhere along the way, it became natural.
She never talked about herself, but she listened. Really listened. And for someone like Wally, who was always loud, always laughing, always the center of attentionâit was kind of nice.
So he kept talking.
Kept filling the silence.
And then, one day, everything changed.
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They were sitting on the bleachers again. Wally had been talking for a whileâabout practice, about parties, about the way death hadnât really hit him until he realized heâd never actually get to grow up.
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. âYou ever think about that? Like⊠what you wouldâve done if you had more time?â
She didnât answer.
Didnât even look at him.
Her hands were clenched in her lap, fingers digging into the fabric of her sweater. Her shoulders were stiff, like she was holding something back.
Wally hesitated.
âYou okay?â he asked, voice softer.
That was all it took.
She broke.
It wasnât just a few tears. It was everything. A flood of emotions that had been buried for too long, crashing down all at once. Her shoulders shook, and before Wally even knew what he was doing, he moved closer, pulling her into a hug.
âItâs okay,â he murmured, holding her as she sobbed. âYouâre okay.â
She didnât say anything. Didnât have to. She just held on, gripping his shirt like he was the only thing keeping her from falling apart completely.
And for once, Wally Clark didnât try to fill the silence.
He just stayed.
Freaky Ahhhh Headcanons
Wally Clark x AFAB!Reader
Warings: This is just pure smut. Oral (both giving and receiving) Overstimulation. Face sitting. Public Exhibition. Slight Dacryphilia. Kinda Rough. I think that's it.
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This man is a Freak with a capital F. Jaw dropping, eyes rolling back, sheet grabbing, pantie dropping, pussy dripping freak.Â
Munch Munch Munch, idc if it's an outdated term itâs the only way i can describe him. Heâd have you on your back or stomach for hours while he lays between your legs. He won't stop until youâre begging and crying for mercy. (I need a lobotomy)
With that being said he would beg you to sit on his face. He doesn't care how light or heavy you are, he needs your full weight pressed against him while he eats you out from below. Heâd make a complete mess of you. Have you doubled over, body limp as you try to pull your hips away only for him to pull you back down begging to make you cum just one more time.Â
Heâs a romantic but the poor guys been dead for 40 years and there aren't a lot of options in the school so forgive him if he's a little selfish at first. Heâd absolutely destroy you, a rough brutal pace while he whispers sweet nothings in your ear.Â
On that note he's very vocal. Loves telling you how beautiful you are especially when youâre on your knees for him. âFuck baby, you look so beautiful taking me down your throat like that.â Said as he wipes away the tears gently running down your face. (Again SOMEBODY SEDATE ME)Â Â
After your first time together he wouldn't know how to keep his hands off you. The memory of you beneath him constantly playing on repeat in his mind.Â
He loves the idea of showing you off and since the living cant see either of you he uses it to his advantage. He will fuck you anywhere and everywhere. Over a desk in the middle of an active class? Why the hell not? In the pool while the swim teams practicing? He's diving right in. Teachers lounge while the sad sacks sit around drinking coffee? Absolutely.Â
Lets not forget about the resets. The body never changes aka infinite energy. Round after round after round.Â
(Okay Iâm done. I wrote this at work so sorry if it's shitty. Honestly I think I'm losing my mind. Like actually clinically insane. I think itâs time I call my therapist. Happy valentines day đ đ)
If I Open the Door to Heaven or Hell [Wally/Reader]
Summary: You're there for Wally after he confronts his scar. Word Count: 1.8k Author's Note: Just a little thing I wrote after I watched the new episode this morning. Because what do you mean he went through all that alone and no one was there for him? He deserved better. If you liked this, letting me know would make my day! Read On AO3 // Fic Masterlist
When you noticed Wally grab his football, you knew that he was going to investigate his scar to see if Mr. Martin was there. He didn't tell anyone. Not even Maddie. But you saw it happen, so you followed him. Â
He was so focused that he didn't even seem to realize you were following him. It shouldn't have hurt. You had spent your life treated like an outsider, so going unnoticed wasnât a new feeling. You just hated that your death wasnât shaping up to be any different. Â
Even though you had been half in love with Wally for years, he never seemed to get the hint. He joked around with you and threw his arm around your shoulders to reel you in close to his side and gave you these ridiculous smiles that sent your stomach flipping over itself. He was so bright and thoughtful and beautiful. All you wanted was more time with him. You would take an eternity with him, even, but once Maddie showed up, everything changed. Â
You were all dragged into the mystery of Maddie's death. But it turned out Maddie wasn't dead. Not really. Janet had been the one to steal her body and Mr. Martin, the guy you had all trusted with your deepest, darkest secrets had been using you all along. Â
The betrayal hurt and now everyone was hiding something. But not Wally. He was the rock of the group, lending support and care to anyone who needed it.Â
But now, you all had the items that linked you to your deaths and they opened up your own personal hells. Rhonda had been completely shaken by what she saw in hers and you weren't quite ready to face whatever waited for you once you stepped into the girl's bathroom on the second floor near the pre-cal classroom.Â
The fact that Wally was skulking away to be tormented by his death just didnât sit right with you. Â
You wanted to stop Wally. But he was so determined to help Maddie that you knew you wouldn't be able to sway him. Â
He got to the football field before you did and once he stepped onto the grass, football tucked securely under his arm, he disappeared. Â
"Wally!" You called, glancing around for him, but realizing that he wouldn't be able to hear you. He had stepped through a door and you wouldn't be able to follow. All you could do was wait for him and hope that he made it out unscathed. Â
You sat down on the bleachers, keeping your focus on the field. You waited for him to reappear, but when he didn't show, you just started talking to fill the empty space in front of you. Â
"Wally, I hope you're doing okay in there. I don't know what's happening, but I want you to know you're not alone." You started tracing your fingers along the grooves in the bench beneath you. "You're really the best out of all of us, you know that? You're so kind. You take care of all of us. You have our backs. And I know you'd do anything for us. I guess that's why you're facing your own personal hell just to help out Maddie. But sometimes I wonder whoâs there for you. Whoâs going to hold you up when you need it?" Â
You felt nervous. You trusted Wally and you loved him, but you had never revealed to him just how deep your feelings ran for him. Sometimes, you thought Charley or Rhonda might have an idea, but they never brought it up. Whether it was to save you dignity or they just didn't care all that much, you couldn't really tell. Â
It was hard not to be stupid over Wally, though. He drew you in and you were helpless against the pull of him. Â
"Sometimes, I get really scared," you admitted, digging your fingernails into the metal just to ground you. "I get scared that you'll leave. I don't think I can do this without you, Wally. Not anymore. You're too important to me. I need you."Â
Wally still hadn't appeared, so you kept rambling. It felt freeing, in a way, finally confessing when Wally couldn't catch you. Â
"I think the first time I knew that I was gone on you was when you found me in the library. I was upset because it was the anniversary of my death. And for three years, my friends and family showed up to hold some kind of vigil. They would meet on the front lawn and share stories and talk about how much they missed me. That first year, seeing my mom and dad there nearly broke me. My best friend and my little brother and all of them. They showed up for me. But then my friends graduated. And my parents moved. And then no one showed up." Â
You felt tears gathering in your eyes and hastily swiped them away. If Wally managed to leave his scar now, you didn't want him seeing you so upset. Â
"They always left flowers at the flagpole, because they didnât want to go anywhere near where they found my body. And my friend wrote a letter about how much she missed me and my brother left his favorite stuffed animal. Itâs that orange squid I have stashed away in my old locker. But by that fourth year, I didn't have anyone left around to care about me and I felt so alone. You found me in the library and you dragged me out to the flagpole and showed me the flowers you stole from the groundskeeper and you wrote a letter about how I still mattered even in death. I didn't tell you then, but I think that's when I finally started believing that I would be okay. Because I had you," you added with a shaky smile. Â
"I don't know what's going to happen to us. But I just want you to know, Wally, that as long as you're around, I know I'll be okay. And I would do anything for you too. I want to be there for you like youâre there for me. For all of us. Because you're the best person Iâve ever met. And I...I lo--" you were cut off from declaring your feelings for Wally by the sight of him suddenly reappearing at the side of the field. Â
He collapsed to the ground, clutching the football to his chest. He was breathing heavy and he flung the ball away, leaving him curled up on the grass. He put a hand to his chest and his breaths were coming fast and uncontrolled. Â
"Wally!" You shouted, racing down the bleachers to reach him. You hesitated at his side before seeing the agony in his expression. You dropped down to your knees and wrapped your arms around him, fearing that he was drowning in his own fear. Â
You weren't expecting the way he practically latched on to you. His arms wrapped tight around your waist and he hid his face in the crook of your neck. Â
"Wally?" You tried, realizing that he was shaking. "Are you okay?"Â
Wally didn't respond. He simply shook his head, and you held on tighter. Â
"I'm here for you," you assured him. Wally was always so strong. So ready to fight and defend. But whatever he had witnessed in his scar had left him speechless and traumatized. "I'm right here. Iâm not going anywhere."Â
Wally held you close, his breaths eventually evening out from panicked to steady. Â
"I heard you, you know," he muttered into your neck after what felt like forever. He still hadn't lifted his head and you got the idea he was trying to hide. Â
You tried not to shiver at the feeling of his lips brushing against your skin. Â
"Heard what?" You asked, worried that you knew where this was heading. Â
"I couldn't get myself out of there on my own. My coach and my mom and everyone was just so disappointed in me. I didn't want to be there but I couldn't make myself move. When I died, I didn't know it happened. It was over in a second. Just boom. Instant lights out. But I saw it happen and it hurt so much," he got out on a shaky breath. "I was about to lose it, but then I heard you. And you were talking to me about how much I meant to you and all I could think was that you're not disappointed in me." He finally lifted his head, his eyes locking with yours and leaving you transfixed. "I followed your voice out of there. You saved me."Â
"Wally, you saved yourself," you said, bringing up a hand to smooth it down over his shoulder in an effort to comfort him. "You're the strongest person I've ever met. You've never been a disappointment. That coach and your mom? They were wrong. Youâre amazing."Â
Wally watched you for one moment into the next, leaving you with the urge to fidget under his attention. Finally, you noticed a small smile pull at his mouth, his eyes glinting with a hint of life. "Don't hate me," he murmured before he leaned forward, his lips brushing against yours. Â
You felt yourself tense, unsure that this was actually happening, before you felt Wally begin to pull away. Â
"Wait," you whispered before grabbing a fistful of his shirt and reeling him back in. Â
This time, the kiss was less hesitant and more searching. You never thought for one second you would get this opportunity and you didn't want to waste it. Â
Wally had pulled you closer, practically putting you in his lap, so when you broke the kiss, you leaned your forehead against his and smiled at him. Â
"You really think I would hate you for that? Wally, it's what I've been wanting for years," you admitted, knowing that Wally had likely heard your aborted love confession. You might as well go for broke. "I've wanted you for years," you confessed. Â
Wally's lips stretched into another smile. This one was radiant and relieved. He brought his hands up, framing your face in his palms, and held you close. "I think this is the first time I've been on this field since I died and felt anything good." He bit his lip, his eyes searching yours, before he nodded his head as if he had decided something. He moved to stand up, gripping your hand tight in his so you followed after him. He started leading you away from the field towards the bleachers, taking a moment to scoop up his football, before leading you away. Â
"Where are we going?" You wondered, trusting Wally and knowing you would follow him anywhere. Â
"I think I've earned something good," he told you, his gaze lingering on you letting you know that you were the something good he was talking about. The idea sent a little pleased thrill through you. "Want to go make out under the bleachers?"Â
"God, yes," you agreed, delighted and exhilarated. Â
You knew that the time would come to find the others. Wally would have to talk about his scar and you would eventually have to confront yours. But for now, you would push all the pain and fear aside and finally let yourself have something good with Wally.Â
Panic
Wally Clark x reader
WC: 1.5K
Summary: You can see the ghosts of Split River High and never let them know, until you slip up in the dumbest way possible. (Un)lucky for you, a certain spectral football player notices.
Warnings: proofread, but still has grammar and spelling mistakes, a probable overuse of em dashes (sorry!), maybe a few swear words. Pre Maddie, since I mentioned he's been dead for only 38 years. No indents because it keeps deleting them (??). A bad title that came from the request (I hope you like it if you read it anon!) An ending that leaves it open for more parts, if that's wanted, let me know!
Part 2 here!
The halls of Split River High School were haunted.
No, literally. Split River High School was haunted. By ghosts. Several of them.
Thereâs the kid in all denim, a striped shirt under his jean jacket, wire-framed glasses, highlights in his hair. That one, youâve gathered, is named Charley. Sweet, a bit awkward and unsure of himself, who stares longingly at Mr. Figueroa when he thinks no one is watching. Which, he thought, was pretty much alwaysâheâs a ghost, after all. No one could see him. But you could.
Thereâs the beatnik with dark curly hair, a newsie's cap, and a sour look forever imprinted on her face. She walks through the halls in blue pinstripe pants and a sucker in her mouth, judging the students that pass between the walls of the place that she was trapped in. Her name is Rhonda, and from the few offhand comments youâve heard from her over the years, it seems her dry, sarcastic humor matches her looks perfectly. How fitting.
Thereâs the girl that hangs out on top of the lockers in the art wing, obviously from the 70sâpin straight ginger hair, a brightly colored paisley bandana wrapped around her head, a red fringe vest over a white long sleeve, and bright orange pants. You always see her up there when you cut through that wing on the way to pre-calc (or when you aimlessly wander while trying to wait out the time in government), though youâve never seen any of the other ghosts talk to her. You canât blame them, she does seem a bitâŠout of it.
Youâve seen the guy at the pottery wheel, sometimes smoking a joint. Youâve seen the man with glasses and a suit, the girl that seemingly follows him around and whispers with him over a notebook. The football player who seems to wear his variety jacket 24/7, even when it was hot. Could ghosts feel temperature?
Regardless, since you stepped foot in this school, you have seen them. And it seems like only you have seen them. Because of this, youâve always done your absolute best to not acknowledge themâpartially because the idea that these people were ghosts freaked you out a bit and you didnât want to acknowledge it, but partially because you knew you would look crazy to everyone else if you did acknowledge them. You wanted to avoid that.
Going with the flow of dozens of other students heading to their lockers and their next classes, you were set out to exchange your books and get to physics. You werenât expecting to walk past the familiar spectral football playerâhonestly, the ghosts kind of blend in with the students at this point, even with the clothes of their time periodânor were you expecting to slip up in front of said football player, but you did.
All because of a damned sneeze.
Walking the opposite direction, facing you, Wally walked past right as you sneezed. Now, raised with manners by his mama, (and it still being a habit of hisâeven to all the people who could not see or hear him), he offered you a quick âbless youâ, not caring that it would go unheard. It was still the nice thing to do. And you, not thinking, thanked him. It took a second for it to register in Wallyâs brainâno one else had said bless you, not paying attention to a random sneeze, but no one but the other ghosts could see or hear him. The realization that you had just spoken to him stopped him in his tracks for a few seconds before he turned and headed back in your direction.
And at the same time, it registered in your brain that you had just acknowledged a ghostâa supernatural figure that wasnât supposed to exist. Youâve seen these peopleâyou can call them that still, right?âfor the last two and a half years and managed not to tip them off to the fact that you could see and hear them. And now, you messed up.
You widened your eyes for a second, still walking after it registered in your head, hoping that he hadnât heard or just assumed that you said it to someone else. But, that hope was diminished when a ghostly football player leaned against the locker on your left, his head slightly jutted outward in disbelief.
âYou can hear me.â It was a statement made by him, his neck titled downwards just a tad to look at you better. You didnât acknowledge him, opting to open your locker door, the blue metal effectively acting as a partition between the two of you. He, however, was not deterred, rounding you and the door to lean on the locker to your right.Â
âYou can hear me.â He stated again, his arms crossed over his chest, motioning with his hand âYou can hear me, so Iâm sure you can see me. It would be kind of weird that you just hear our voices.â
You kept your gaze ahead, staring into your locker as you exchanged your notebooks and textbooks for classes that have already passed, grabbing your ones for physics. It was difficult not to acknowledge the ghostsâtheyâd sometimes pop into your classroom or make comments or jokes in the halls, both to themselves and others. Throw an insult out here or there. Sometimes it's hard for you not to look in their direction as they speak or laugh at a comment. But, youâve always managed. For two and a half years.
And now, a fucking sneeze did you in.
You angle your head down, trying to avoid his gaze and pretend like you couldnât see the 6â3 (dead) football player who had leaned against the lockers and spoke to you, making your way to physics. Wally huffed, turning with you and walking through the halls, the sleeves of his letterman almost brushing against your arms. Well, you know, if they could brush your arms.
âLook, Iâm sure youâre freaked out since you can see me and youâre totally not just ignoring me, but an eventual acknowledgment would be nice.â Wally spoke, his hands moving slightly from his sides as he did. Still, you didnât budge, your eyes straight ahead and mouth shut. But he saw the slight clench in your jaw as you continued to ignore him. And look, Wally could wait, wear you down and get you to admit that you could see himâhe will get you to admit it, to actually speak to him. Forgive him, no one but the other ghosts have been able to see him since 1983. Heâs excited! And confused because no one has ever been able to see any of them.
Except you, apparently.
He followed you into your physics class, sitting next to you in the currently empty seat. Placing your books on the desk, you turn to your left to place your bag on the ground (definitely not so you could ignore him easier).
âAlright, maybe youâre just stunned into silence since youâre kinda in the presence of a Split River celebrity.â He motioned to himself slightly with one hand, as if that meant something. Then, he stuck his hand out to you, opening his body to yours a bit.Â
âWally Clark, class of â84. I was laid out during my homecoming game, snapped my neck. Never made it off the field.â
Ah, yes. Thereâs a photo of him in the athletic wing next to his retired football jerseyânumber 57, the same number that was on the left sleeve of his jacket. The field was named after him too, morbidly so, you thought. Itâs weird, concretely knowing that the boy sitting next to you was dead. Thereâs no running away from that once youâve faced it.
He drops his hand with a small nod once he realizes that wonât make you budge, pursing his lips slightly. He sighs. Heâs never, not once in 38 years, interacted with a living person. He canât blow this. Selfishly, heâs excited he has the opportunity to talk to a new person who isnât dead (because while itâs nice to have new people in the afterlife, he does acknowledge that means their life has ended, just as his had. Itâs all a bit morbid and sad).
He was about to try again, but when he looked over, you were putting headphones in. Little buds with no wiresâheâs seen kids use those things more and more in recent years. And even he knew that when the headphones went in, that meant you donât try to talk to that person. Your desk partner finally came into the class anyway, and Wally moved to vacate her seat before she sat down, even though it didnât actually matter.
He stood off to the side, arms crossed and jaw clenched, watching you for a few moments. He huffed, dropping his arms to the side as he left the physics class. Heâd figure out how to get you to acknowledge him and actually hold a conversation with him.
He was not letting this opportunity slip away. No way in hell.

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his cheerleader
wally clark x reader
words: 500+
warnings: semi graphic death
itâs 1983 and your cheering for your boyfriend and your team of course
the crowd yells over the announcer and you can barely think with all the bright lights
your captain tells everyone that they need to get into formation for the next cheer and as one of the flyers you had to do a stand in the air to do the cheer then when it was over they threw you up in the air to do a flip so you all got into positions
5, 6, 5, 6, 7, 8
the girls lifted you up as you did the cheer you could see your boyfriend on the field better heâs about to shoot but then he gets tackled and a loud SNAP rings throughout the field
your to lost in your concerns and gasps though-out the crowd you hadnât realized it was time for you to do your flip as your legs are pushed in-front of you
you realize your mistake and try to grab your legs to do the tuck but it was already too late and you could feel yourself falling back towards the bleachers
in the end all you can see is black as the back of your head smashes into the cool metal of the bleachers
your eyes open to a familiar face looking down at you
âwally?â you mutter as you go to sit up feeling the back of your head for an injury but you seem untouched
wally takes both of your hands to help you pulling you up to him
âyeahâ he says his voice just above a whisper you look around to try to figure out whatâs going on and to your horror there is paramedics around the fallen football player on the feild and behind you paramedics are surrounded a fallen cheerleader
wally moves your head so you look back at him âhey just look at me ok?â as he scans for can he sees the terror in you eyes and though your tears welling up you see wallyâs cheeks are tear stained
âwally.. is that.. us?â you choked out in a whisper he bites his lip and pulls you close âiâm so sorry babyâ you look up at him tears fully running down your face now
âhow- how are we still here?â he looks down at you and you realize heâs just as scared as you he puts his hand on your face and wipes your tears
âiâm not sure.. but weâll figure it out ok? together.â he tells you in his classic wally confidence though can hear the cracks in his voice and you know deep down heâs just putting on the facade to confront you so you donât see the little leaks of his true unsureness
you simply nod into his chest âhow about we get away from all the chaos yeah?â he says still trying to keep both of you from looking at where you both lay unconscious
you nod again and with that he takes your hand and walks you into the school to go somewhere more quiet
lmk if you want a part 2! i already have ideas!
I'm with you | ghost!wally clark x human!male!reader
a/n â I started writing this before season 3 so I do apologize if any of this is inaccurate to information that comes out within the next couple weeks
summary â The reader wants to hone their skills for an upcoming lacrosse game, but gets distracted by the resident ghost jock.
warnings â The Author Has Never Played Lacrosse, fingering, rimming, anal sex, unprotected anal sex (wrap it gang), public sex (fucking on the football field), breeding, bad analogies between sex and lacrosse, build-up to sex, plot-into-smut, smut, 18+! not beta'd
words â 12,750
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Trying to find a good place to exist peacefully at Split River was harder than it looked; every room in the building felt crowded. Both mentally and physicallyâsome rooms felt like you were shoulder-to-shoulder with other students sitting at their desks, even if that person sat approximately two feet away, in their own world, and some rooms felt like you couldnât focus mentally with all of their noise. A few of the rooms just had this certain air about them, like the cafeteria and the green house, which lacked any sort of emptiness even when you were the only one in the room. It wasnât anything specific about them that was distracting, but the palpable shift when you passed through the door and entered each room was enough to remind you that something was there, and that thought alone was enough to distract you.
The only thing that could take your mind off of it was lacrosse, a sport you could get effortlessly lost in. Even during practice, when it was just yourself, the presence of that ineffable feeling seemed to slip away and you were left to focus on only throwing balls and catching them in your net. The last bell of the school day had rung about three hours ago, and it wasnât quite near daylight savings time yet, so the sun was setting as you finished up practice. You were already exasperated, but the thought of not being good enough rang through just when you were about to call it a day, so you needed to make sure you were scholarship-ready for any scouts that would come to your games. Such as the big one tomorrow. You needed to be exceptionalâno, better than that. But that could only happen if you found a place to lose yourself, which you couldnât do when it never really felt like you were the only person in a room. Playing helped, but it was never the perfect distraction. Practicing drills at the end of the soccer field would bring that noise back, and it would only go away when you moved closer in to the center.Â
An official lacrosse team didnât form until a few years back, when the school finally had funding to add it to their repertoire, another flashy thing to show year-round next to the football and cheerleading teams. While it wasnât the biggest sport to hit the school, as it still had considerably less funding than the aforementioned sports teams, it was the safest of them all, if only because it had been around for the shortest amount of time. There was that guy who died back in the eightiesâthe name slipping your mind until you passed the mausolea scattered around the campusâand some girl who died after being flung into the air at a cheer rally, cracking her head on the pavement where her cohorts failed to catch her. That one happened during your freshman year, and you can still remember the macabre gossip being spread around about how she died in the ambulance, exactly twenty-three minutes after she hit the floor.Â
In your mind, the basketball court was no place to practiceânot when that image came to your head during every perpetual assembly as it was. Plus, you were still in your workout gear: a blue tank-top and matching shorts with the Bandits logo sewn into them, which seemed regrettable in the cold if you hadnât been giving it your all, working overtime to make sure you were the best, and a pair of cleats that wouldnât do you much favors against linoleum flooring and probably get you suspended for being so reckless to use the wrong shoes on the wrong surface. Even if it wasnât that severe of a punishment, the janitor would loathe you for undoing his hard work. Your regular shoes were all the way back in the trunk of your car, and you might have wanted to keep practicing, but walking all the way over there to get a pair of shoes to go into a room that you certainly didnât want to be in sounded like a waste of time.
You could have just stayed on the field that you were practicing on now, but a few stragglers from the team had already claimed corners of the field to practice, leaving you in the clamoring sector. You could just join them, they were your teammates after all. A few of them worked together, but you wanted to be able to focus on specifically the areas that you were performing poorly in. Plus, it would have been too competitive, too many of your teammates were known to prioritize a way of playing the game that made them look good rather than actually doing their part within the team. Besides, playing with others while trying to fix what youâre bad at while they could be good in that area could lead to a few unfavorable scenarios where they think youâre not as good as you are, so playing the sport with you and only yourself felt like the right idea for the sake of your own confidence. There were a few rebounders standing tall on the outskirts of the field, so you planned to take one, but you still needed a place to polish your skills. You picked up your stuff from the few bags remaining on the sidelines of the field and walked in a straight line down to the practice equipment laid out, thinking about a place where you could practice without distractions.
Then, you got a good idea: practice down on the football field. Not only was the sport made for it out of season, so the chance of a crowd being there to bother you would be slim to none, but it would also foster an easy environment to practice in. The turf was smoother than the soccer-turned-lacrosse field, which had way too many holes in the dirt from the many cleats trampling it almost every day. And your sport didnât rely as much as needed the perfect ground to run on like soccer would, so the football field, empty and devoid of anyone else, was the perfect place to practice. It had a nice, reanimating quality to it where the ground would sink with the press of a spike from a cleat into it, then rise back up in a moments notice. If it could handle big, sweaty footballers planting their feet into it to run the course of the whole field, it could handle your fast, light movements in one small area of it. Your only concern was that the noise was there, too. All over the field. But it was warmer, like the empty rows of seating would be filled with commendations for you. And you only tonight. Maybe, for once, you wouldnât have to play to tune the noise out. They could exist, together.
Then, your concerns doubled.Â
There was only one guyâbut it was still one too manyâin the stadium when you got there with your equipment in hand. Only one, unless you counted the long shadow he cast on the field. He had a varsity jacket on and was dressed more appropriately for the colder weather, better than the cold biting your exposed legs and arms. It stung more as the sun set but it wasnât anything close to making you feel lethargicâjust more hyped up to move around and get your blood pumping. The guy on the field had the right idea, as he was playing with a football, tossing it around and playing an embezzled version of fetch with himself. The ball would be thrown in a direction and he would follow, and when he caught it, he slammed it to the ground like he scored a touchdown. The way he ran was careless and free, like he had nothing to lose, no embarrassment to operate on in the same way you questioned how you looked while running with a stick in your hands and a ball to cradle, let alone how your body looked while running without those things forcing you into a specific pose. At least he was making his own fun, and you were honing your skills, which gave you a reason to care about those kinds of things. Performance, you needed to perform well and play even better.
It was a bit of a hike to carry down one of the netted rebounders to practice with; it was collapsible enough to hold with two hands but was still a bit too clunky to comfortably carry down the steps leading to the football field without having a few near-death trips on the cement steps. You almost considered calling out to the jock on the field, but it would be rude of you to expect the help. Thankfully, you made it down safe with the rebounder intact.
You didnât speak to the guy as you looked in his direction, and he looked too lost in his own world to give the impression that he would care much whether you did or didnât strike up a conversation. You didnât mind an observer watching you practice in your element, especially one you couldnât recognize from the silhouette and indiscernible features. The sun going down prompted the lights to come on, but it was only the ones from the concession stand and bleachers that lit up, not the stadium lights. They must have been on an automatic timer, and the stadium lights must have been manually controlled in the announcerâs box. So, you went to the other end of the field and set up the rebounder there where the light illuminated enough to see. Just as you expected, the turf had a little bounce to it. Not as hard as the real ground you would be playing on, but still solid enough to not lull you into a false sense of security, to give you an advantage that wouldnât make your training futile. Maybe the stadium lights being off was a good thingâthey distracted you and the warmer lighting emanating from twenty yards away makes you feel comforted. Not like the operating-room lighting being cast down from above, where you felt under scrutiny. Without shadows, it would highlight all your mistakes, and you were too deep into your own head to pile any more doubts on. The lacrosse-aka-soccer field doesnât have huge fancy lights shining down to highlight your big, game-winning moments, so this was perfect to pretend like you were actually on the right field.
Quickly, you got to work using the rebounder to practice a few different throws from different angles. When that seemed too easy, you practiced a few other drills, like marching on your tippy-toes to give your calves the appropriate burn and pairing knee-highs with it for some quad-tensing strength, dropping the ball to the ground and scooping it up with your lacrosse stick, and several other drills you did with the rest of the team to try and pick up some of your slack. Some of them werenât as effective with one person, but the main struggle you found yourself having was your aim while moving.Â
You had gone back to practicing with the rebounder, swinging your stick in a way that sent the ball in its grasp out and over to one of the pockets in the rebounder. You were aiming for the top left cornerâmost goalies overlook their own shoulderâand you rushed towards the net as it hit the markings on it and bounced back in your direction. You were just about to catch it when you heard a thud, then another thud, and suddenly, a ball was rolling between your line of action. You stopped, letting it block your way and your own lacrosse ball hit the ground with another unceremonious thud, looking more sad than the football next to it.Â
With only one other person on the field, you knew exactly who it belonged to. You turned around to see the guy jogging over in your direction, a look of dejection spreading over his face. It looked to be that he was running over to intercept his own throw, but the ball got to you before he could, and he must have slowed down since he wasnât in a rush to stop it from nearly causing you to trip over it. He muttered something to himself that only he was meant to hear as he got close, something along the lines of, âAw, man.âÂ
You looked back over to your setup, bending down to pick up his rudely misplaced football. He was standing behind you by the time you retrieved his football and turned back around to face him, holding it out to him with one hand. You spoke, out of breath, but you only needed a quick draw in to release a singular word, âHere.â
He took it from your hands. His face quickly shifted, showing a look of confusion before a big dopey smile cracked his lips open. He looked way too happy for a guy who almost made you twist your ankle before your big game. Then, he seemed to correct himself and returned back to a confusive state.
You had to be the one to break the ice, to shatter whatever delusion he was feeding himself. You assumed that he was trying to find a way to spin it into somehow being your fault, like most jocks chose to do. âWow, not even an apology? If you almost kill someone, I think youâre supposed to say sorry.â
His voice didnât match the tone you expected though. He almost sounded worried. âI didnât think it wouldââ
âAlso, football is definitely out of season.â You cut him off in an attempt to just make the best out of it, taking the comedic approach with him. You were going to continue about needing one moment of serendipity to just exist, to play your sport without something pulling you back to reality, but he cut you off by stating an obvious fact. Only fair since you had done it to him first.
âI havenât seen you around here.âÂ
It was only obvious because you had never seen this guy, in all of your four-hundred class members and the collective twelve-hundred underclassmen, he had been a ghost to you. Even at his height, you had never seen him in the hall peeking above the rest or filling a chair in classâand likely, with your luck, all of that extra height would have blocked your view of the whiteboard when a fated seating chart sat this epitome of jock simpletons in front of you. You had never seen him on this field, and the number on his letterman was one you had never heard over the announcements when they were giving their flowers to the football team or in those mandatory pep-rallies for the past four years of homecoming games. You returned with the only reasonable response that came to mind, âI could say the same about you. You transfer?â
âIf you mean from living to dead, then yeah. Basically.â He extended his hand out. âWally Clark.â
Your head turned to the scoreboard to your left and then back to him. It couldnât be, the whole reason his name is up there is because heâs dead⊠just like that strange comment he lead his introduction with, confirming that you werenât misremembering or misreading the sign from a distance. Or maybe some overweight footballer did somehow kill you or you over-exerted yourself and collapsed during practice and now you were seeing ghosts. But that definitely didnât happen and there was no way it was him. You knocked his hand away with the back of yours and cracked a smile at how ridiculous it sounded. His dropped with defeat, but yours returned to your side with a tense feeling. This guy could be seriously mental. âShut up, no itâs not.â
He looked sure of himself. âIf you donât want to believe me, check the trophy case by the cafeteria. Thereâs a picture of me in there with this jacket.â
Wally pulled on the sides of his jacket for emphasis, nearing you to test your perception. You backed up, and he was sure you could see him. You never payed much attention to the trophy case there, always too concerned with meeting up with your friends and leaving to get lunch off-campus. He could have been right, but in the same beat, you reminded yourself that it was impossible. âIâm not doing all of that, not-Wally.â
Wally closed his eyes, dropped his head and spoke in frustration, his lips pressing together in a flat line by the end of his sentence, âAnd thatâs what youâre calling me. Okay.â
âItâs like the opposite of Sam-I-Am. You-are-not-Wally, because heâs, like, so dead that his body is just bones at this point.â You said it with such a lack of care that it almost sounded like a meteor could come crashing down on the school and you wouldnât care to help anyone out of the wreckage. It sounded as real as the sun blowing up, it had happened. Or it will happen.
âOuch.â He took offense to it like you had made a comment about him, still keeping up the act.
âI saw you throwing that ball around to yourself,â You moved past the whole name thing, choosing to just drop it to tease him about the next silly thing you had seen him do. âDonât you need two people to play football?â
âYou donât know how to have fun, do you? Never heard of challenging yourself?â The truth is that Wally needed a place to exist for a little bit. The only caveat is that he didnât like to exist without someone else to share his existence with. Chasing around a football he was throwing from and to himself made him feel like a dog playing fetch by themselves, throwing the stick as far as they could with their mouth. He needed someone with hands, someone to rebound off of. But he wasnât going to tell you any of that, keeping up a cool face through his red and sweaty one. âI would know, Iâm a pretty good opponent, like Clubber Lang. And I will beat your ass if you take me on in anything.â
âYeah, because that looked very challenging. What move were you practicing, the idiotâs run?â You knew he couldnât be practicing without some kind of resistance, something to actually challenge him more than his own self-determined skill ceiling. It was probably set high by his ego, exceeding far beyond his actual skill level, and every time he fumbled throwing the ball to himself, he probably didnât beat himself up much about it. âOr was it theâuh, golden retriever handoff?â
Even if he was being a dick by using a dead manâs name, he was cute, you had to give him that. Maybe with a few apologies and if he told you his actual, canât-break-the-rule-of-using-a-dead-manâs-name-to-speak-ill-of-him name, then you would forgive him for it, but he didnât seem like the apologetic type given that he almost took you out for the rest of the lacrosse season. Right before your big game⊠that you were supposed to be practicing for instead of standing around talking to some red-faced lying douchebag.
âThose are both very hurtful,â he accepted them in a sense of defeat, placing both hands on his chest near his heart, taking a few steps back as if he had been struck there. Then, he feigned recovery and came closer. Still real, as your eyes followed him over the distance. âBut Iâll take it for messing up your game. Who even trips over a ball, anyways?â
You crossed your arms. He was wasting your time, and you needed to just put the conversation to bed. âAlmost tripped over a ball, I stopped myself before I could.â
His eyes lifted and looked past you, focusing on your setup. âWhat are you practicing for? I donât recognize it.â
âLacrosse.âÂ
âOh, yeah, makes sense. When you donât have the equipment to play it for nearly forty years, you almost forget what it looks like, right?â He tapped your shoulder, confirming that not-Wally was very real and that you didnât conjure him up in your head. You half-expected the football to have been here the whole time and your exercised mind was crafting a fleeting fantasy of anything that it could focus on that wasnât your sport. Maybe someone spiked the water fountain.
Your hallucinationâor, by some chance, totally real personâtalked about as much sense as he looked. Who even dressed in sweat-tanks anymore? And more importantly, who wore shorts over their sweatpants and thought it looked good? âYou lost me.â
Wally titled his head, taking a pause to think before he confidently spoke again. âDude, what rock around here is your house and can we have a party? Havenât been to one in ages.â
âOne of themâs gonna have to be soon.â You commented, alluding to the fact that the sun had set and all that was left was the lighting emanating from little pockets in the bleachers and the concession stand as a whole. So now Wally blended more into the enigmatic presence he already formed. It reminded you that this was his turf, his playground where he was free to do whatever dumbassery football jocks got up to. But not you, not on this field. That meant that he would probably ask you to leave since he was here first and this was his domain; so if he wasnât going to leave you alone, you had to extend him the offer to join you. That much you could do, but putting up with his behavior would either be the push for you to not practice at all for the rest of the night, or he would show you just how athletic he was. You turned and spoke over your shoulder as you returned to you setup. âI think Iâm gonna get back to practicing. Youâre free to join, I have an extra stick in my bag. Show me how sorry you are for nearly killing me, not-Wally.â
âWhat?â His brain had to have been on autopilot. That, or he was a little too invested in something else when your backside faced him. Whatever the answer was, you stopped in your tracks.
You sighed and dug the lacrosse stick into the faux-ground. It didnât give into where dirt should be, but buried itself in the thick turf, and you held your balance on it. âI have to practice.â
âWhy? Doesnât look like youâre good at it.â
âSeriously?â
âI was getting scouted for colleges for the⊠one game that I played, but still.â Wally raised an arm and flashed his armpit, putting it behind his head as he averted your gaze. Not that your were looking at his eyes. The hair looked matted and soaked in sweatâhis skin glistened, tooâbut when he had touched you, it was obvious that his body ran cold. It could have been the temperature outside, though, making the ends of his body not warm up as much as his core.Â
âYeah, thatâs what I thought. I think Iâll be able to better myself with a partner. And you donât look busy.â
The next hour, give or take, was spent tryingâand failingâto teach Wally the basics. He seemed to be able to hold the stick okay, a little too high for your liking but you didnât factor in his wingspan or height causing it to look imbalanced in his larger frame.Â
You tried moving past that and getting him warmed up on some drills, like running a few laps around the field with him with the stick in hand so he got used to the feeling of itâassuming that he wasnât used to it because footballers just ran. No extra gear was really needed that affected how they ran, except the possible interference of extra weight with their chest guards and helmets, but it couldnât have been that heavy. They could still swing their arms and get a certain momentum going that was harder with a stick that you had to hold and be ready to use the right way at a momentâs notice. You tried to walk him through your scooping technique, but he could hardly get the ball off the ground and complained about it being stupid that he couldnât use his hands.Â
You even tried tossing the ball to him with your stick, but he couldnât catch it on time and it hit him against the shoulder, falling to the ground. He just didnât have the right coordination with a lacrosse stick that you had. There was an objective difference between the heft of a football and the thick, hard feeling of a rubber lacrosse ball smacking your skin. One could easily be caught and the other required to be grasped by the netting of a lacrosse stick, and that couldnât happen until Wally understood how to use his arms more than his hands.
So, you went back to square one. You told him to sit on the metal bench that challenged him in how dense something could be, and you tried to channel into what he most likely knew bestâthe direction of a coach. And you had the advantage of being his age, so you knew the perfect way to explain the sport as someone who played and practiced many games and could use terms that made sense to a peer. The perfect blend of descending from above with your knowledge to meet him at his level, if a little more than halfway.
Then, you graduated him to a standing position and accoladed him by placing a stick in both of his hands once again for him to try and reuse. You stood and faced him, trying to explain to him how to handle it. But words could only take you so far compared to actually moving his hands to the right spots. His hands were still cold, and his grip on the stick softened when your warmer palms covered the backs of his hands, scooting them slightly further apart. When you corrected him, he just let out a soft âOh,â as if he understood it better.
âYou want to hold it to cradle the ball, yeah, like that.â Initially, you stood a few feet back because people who arenât used to handling long sticks are prone to whacking people when they move around, but Wally couldnât seem to get the position of his hands right on the stick. You closed the distance between you and him and grabbed his upper arms, scaling down his lightly toned muscles to raise his elbows. You werenât sure if it was the leather sleeves of his letterman or the cool air, but Wally wasnât exuding any warmth when you held him there either. You tried focusing on something else, though, because you didnât want to scare away the one fool who could actually learn something from you. âKeep your arms wide, you donât want to let it roll off your cup.â
The exact thing you warned him about happened a few moments later when you gave him the ball, and Wally bent down to pick the ball up from the fake grass. He still couldnât believe this was real, and he certainly wasnât dreaming with how much trouble the lacrosse stick gave him. No sex-fueled dream spawned from his head would have this much hellish foreplay. âWhy are the cups so open? Wouldnât they make it harder to fall out?âÂ
You explained it to him since it was an honest question and not the jock-brained type you expected to come out of his mouth. âItâs so you can pass it easily. If youâre stuck standing there and the ball isnât leaving your stick, how can you make the pass? Itâs not as easy as handing off the ball.â
âUh, yeah, itâs easy because that makes sense. This doesnât.â The ball fell again and he picked it up off the ground. As he did, you tried to further your explanation of it with something he could understand. Something more oriented to his rampant hormones.
âI hate to say it like this, but pretend the stick is your dick. You donât want to be squeezing it to death when youâyeah. You know what I mean. But you donât want it to be falling out of your hand when youâre in motion, either. There needs to be a balance. Enough freedom for it to glide between your fingers, but not enough that it isnâtâyou know what? Iâm going to stop before I make it worse.âÂ
âAnd if I said that you already made it bad?â You watched his face when he said that, and he winced. It was only to add dramatic effect, though, because he wasnât actually worried about your reaction.Â
âThen I might as well just leave.â Distance grew between the two of you with every step. Wally watched you take a direct path back to your stuff, and some part of you hoped, deep down, that he would fight against it. This whole thing had gone nowhere except becoming an hour-long distraction, but in an odd way, you needed him and he needed you.
That is something he should have worried about, but he was too gobsmacked by the fact that you could easily see him to realize that you could just as easily walk away . Wally couldnât have you stepping into the parking lot and lose all connection with his new, alive bestie. He had to save his ass, and he had to do it fast. âIâm just trying to help you out, dude.â
âHelp me with what?â You stopped and turned. Wally had taken the steps to meet you, so he was the only thing filling your view with how close he was. Close enough to see the sweat beading on his face again. At least you burned calories through all this.
âYour game! Teaching the freshmen taught me that when you have someone to mentor, it helps you understand the game better.â He spoke, and itâs like the energy was palpable on his exhaled breath. He couldnât seem to lose energy or positivity, no matter how much was spent on you. But, in a single breath, his in-your-face and amped-up mood shifted. He looked down and kicked at the dirt, dragging his foot across the blades of grass to search for dirt that didnât exist. âI didnât always want to play football. I wasâand still am damn good at it, but my mom wanted me to be a well-rounded athlete.â
âLetâs see what you got then, Clark.â
Wally wasnât lying about being a well-rounded athlete. For one, he had curves in all the right places, which became something you had admired over your time with him. And as odd as it was to be practicing in nondescript, unbranded sweatpantsânot like the distressed Nikes on his feet, you couldnât help but watch his ass bounce as he stayed fast on his feet. Your passion for him also extended to your desire to beat him when you continued practicing. His height and wingspan gave you some trouble trying to keep up whenever you practiced passing the ball back and forth or tried scoring on the rebounder with his tall figure blocking you. Pressing back to back, eventually, he shucked off his jacket and was only in a grey sweat tank and his sweatpants and sneakers, his back and front showing just how much of a sweat he was working out. There, his small but visible muscle made it clear why he was theâsupposedlyâmemorialized tight end.
And for the second point, he was pretty smooth with his moves. Playing football must have given him a defensive and evasive advantage over you and how you played your games. There were several times where he spun around youâand got overly proud of himself for doing itâand there were times where you were back to back, stick to stick, or shoulder to shoulder while running and he weaseled his way out of it and got the ball from you. He brought the energy too, hyping himself up for every scored point and whenever you caught the ball with your stick or outmaneuvered him, he was a good sport about it and stayed happy even when he was losing.Â
All of his challenges as an opponent added up to become more practice for you, for the team you had yet to see. Maybe they were as tall as him, and the payoff of this long and extensive practice would mean the difference between you being prepared for a college scout and looking like a total amateur on the field. None of them would be as distracting, though, and certainly not nearly as charming. By the end of it, Wally had proven himself to be somewhat formidable, enough to make you crave the relief of rest. Even if it was on a hard, metallic bench off to the side of the football field, where Wally told you that he had been benched at many years ago, right before his final run.
Despite the sturdy and firm material, the bench felt like comfort. Like your bed after being out all day, and yet, in your little moment with Wally, this day was only a few hours long yet felt like it could go on forever and you wouldnât mind it. You reached for your bag that was haphazardly thrown next to some of the borrowed equipment you ended up not usingâlike your helmet, but you hoped a hard-hitting wakeup call would occur if you didnât wear it. The first thing your hand hit was the water bottle resting on top of the clothes you wore to school earlier that day, and suddenly, it hit you just how dry your mouth was.
âIâm beat.â You sighed. The water in your hands went fast between you and Wally, with Wally being the main reason it was going so fast. You took a swig. It was one of those refillable plastic bottles with a nipple. The water came out into your mouth when you squeezed, and Wally watched intently. You watched him take it, and do the same as you.
His audible gulps as he tilted the bottle higher and higher only showed how much he was actually going through in just one drag. You looked at him in annoyance, knowing you would have to refill your bottle at the school-approved water fountains that made everything taste like metal. âDude.â
Wally pulled off with a huff as he swallowed the last of what was in his mouth down. He handed the bottle back and it was about half empty. He would probably remark about leaving you with half of it, but he breezed past the small interaction, asking the big question instead.Â
âDo you think youâre ready?â
âI know I am, itâs just⊠itâs nothing. Iâm ready.â Moments of your fumbles at previous games replayed in your head, every mistake feeling like they would somehow all reappear tomorrow, when it actually mattered the most.Â
âLet me rephrase.â Wally didnât buy that answer. He repositioned himself from leaning back on his elbows onto the metal upholstery behind him to instead facing you, sitting with his shoes tucked under his legs in a criss-cross. His big form, even when folded in on itself, took up so much space on the bench. âDo you want this?â
âWas our hour-long practice not enough to prove that? Obviously, I want this.â
âNoâitâs just. Football practice and the games and the whole shebang that all start before the school year, you know? I went to everything, and I made sure that I was the first in line for my uniform fittings, physicals, and was the first car on the lot before every event. I was ready. The only reason that I played in one game the entire season wasnât just because I died on the field. It was because everyone else can tell when your head isnât in the game. You can force yourself to do as much prep-work as possible before the game, but if you donât really want it, youâre only tricking yourself into thinking that you do.â
âSo youâre saying that I donât want this?"
âNo, not at all. Truth?â He asked, you nodded. âI think itâs stress. The way youâre handling that stick in your hands is too tight. But youâre also too sloppy, youâreâŠeverything is tense. Itâs just like you said. The reason I thought I was ready was because I didnât take care of myself, I just made myself believe that I wanted to do this. You have skill, though.â
âI do?â
âI canât see it in anyone else on that field, except you. If it makes you feel better, youâre the exception.â His lips quirked at the corners, finally breaking away from flashing his big dopey grin at the things he found even slightly amusing. He almost looked proud to be doling out so many compliments, to finally give a pep-talk that he hadnât been able to do since the 80s. He could never corral anyone anymore, not to do anything positive. The field days he helped orchestrate never helped anyone move on, but you displayed a sense of processingâchanging for the better, becoming a better user of your craft. Like the wise old man to your karate-kid.
âIs it bad to say that it scares me more?â You needed to know more about his opinion, because somehow, the approval of this man you had just met a couple hours ago both meant everything and nothing to you. If he had good things to say, then he didnât know what he was talking about, and if he said something negative, you would probably just use that against yourself tomorrow. Another to add on the longâmostly self-madeâlist of insults you would replay in your head.
âNo, being scared is normal. Being scared means you care. I knew my limits but I wasnât scared to push them.âÂ
The questions slipped out, saying each one felt like intoxicating relief. Just to be able to say them to someone; someone who could understand that wasnât on your team. Someone who saw your determination, you needed to know his opinion before the real people whose observations of how you played would dictate your future. âAnd thatâs bad too?â
Wally would be lying if he said he didnât love talking about his own experiences, too. But he wanted you to stop spiraling. And, like a good coach, redirection was always an option. âDude, stop thinking too hard about it. Itâs a game, not a science. I hated science.â
âWell, science is a practice, actually. Your best gameâor experimentâis never your best, but itâs okay if it is, too. Itâs weird.â Wally nodded, trying to follow along. âBefore we move on to whatever comes next out of that impossible-to-read-mind. Do you have any tips for how to make the feeling go away?â
âHell yes! Now youâre speaking my language. I always had a pre-practice ritual of banging the head-cheerleader. Loosened her and me up, if you know what I mean.â
If you hadnât been mentally exhausted from school, and physically exhausted from practice, you might have questioned who exactly he was fucking at school. The head bitch in charge was also banging the team captain of the football teamâso, they would have a very interesting time hearing about what this guy was up to. The gossip would have been perfect to distract you, but his insistence on ânot being real or here but also being real and hereâ was simply too big of a can of worms to unpack. Was he really talking about the past? How could a supposed ghost even have sex now? âI donât think sex is the solution.â
âItâs not, but itâll help you unwind. Youâre playing with your whole body, not just your head.â Wally tapped the side of his head with his index finger to accentuate the point.
You knew what he was really trying to say: no matter how much you knew about the game and your technique, if you didnât play fast with your body, you wouldnât be good enough to win. Your head an body needed to be in sync. It was everything or nothing at all, and while it wasnât your first choice at âunwinding,â you knew how good it would feel to give yourself some kind of reward for working so hard. You scooted closer to him, feeling his hand cup your cheek. He waited for a response, and you desperately wanted to concede and give him the one he wanted to hear, because you wanted it just as, if not more, than him. But the cons outweighed the pros, and you tried to express that to him.
âI want to, I really want to. But it would just exhaust me more and I need to be at the top of my game.â
âI would say thatâs what rest is for, but weâre gonna go all night.â Wally leaned forward and kissed you.Â
When the kiss broke, he looked over your face to find any hint of direction, a sign that you wanted this to continue. You couldnât stomach the next day arriving, wanting to prolong this night for as long as it could go. The only words falling off your lips when they parted were: âPromise?â
The two of you ran towards the nightâdeeper into the middle of the football field, where only a distant light illuminated you. You didnât need to see Wally at all to understand him, and he didnât need to see you to know exactly what to do. You landed in a jumble with him, he sat on the turf, and you sat in his lap, facing him. Just the brief run to the middle of the field made your legs feel the same burn from hours of practice, so letting your legs extend past him as your ass got the best seat in the arena helped alleviate some of that pain.Â
His skin glistened with a thin layer of sweat. Your fingers brushed it, specifically, rounding his shoulders and triceps as you held them for support to stay upright, getting damp and sticky. Like trailing a hand through water, except more shallow, and it provided some resistance. His body had a certain type of flow to it, a way to make sense of it, being smooth all over with a few interruptions in his unending skinâeternal acne, scars from a past life, and birthmarks. It only proved how real he was, being under your grasp. Hell, you were sitting on him. Solidly raised from the ground. Surely, you werenât just levitating.
âEven if you are a ghostâŠâ You said it like you didnât believe it, but you continued. âYou lived long enough to leave with a beautiful body.â
You kissed him again, with more passion this time. His tried to lock his lips with yours, and it took a few attempts to succeed. Wally was rusty, and you were far too lively to stay in one spot. You pulled away and focused your attention downward to his body, his shirt clinging over his chest.
âYouâŠâ Wally spoke softly, trying to find the words. A pang of guilt pierced his heart, but he pushed past it. This could be your only night with him, so he needed to make it count. âYou havenât seen the rest of me. Do you want to?â
âI donât need my head to tell me that.â In other wordsâfuck yes.Your body ached with the excitement of what was coming. Under your thin athletic shorts, you could feel the stirrings of your cock. You could feel the rush of blood from your earsâa thudding and pulsing so strong that you were hard in seconds.
When you did answer him, you felt his body tense. Preparing for movement.
Suddenly, the position switched, and you no longer had control. It only reminded you of the grand event upcoming. Impending. Ten hours from now, and two hours and fifty-four minutes from sunrise. By tackling one small challenge, you could be ready to face the big one coming in just thirteen shy hours. As Wally laid you back in the grass, his hands held your back, letting you settle against the hard ground. With how he made you feel, it was almost as surreal as an asteroid hitting earth, but as gentle and as smooth as a stone skipping over water. Surrounded by the sound and feeling of rustling fake grass, some of it grazed your back as Wally took your training gear off.
âI canât wait any more.â He complained after a kiss, staying distant from your lips to make it easy to slide everything off. The realization hit you: he was looking too. For every time you eyed his form in the past few hours, he stole double the glances.
Most of what you were wearing was shape-wearâskimpy, showing enough bare skin to tantalize Wally over and over again all night. Enough that the grass was already a bother before he peeled these layers off, and not enough to match his over-dressed figure.Â
âMy turn.â Your hands wandered over his body, tugging at the ends of his shirt until it was over his head and off, with his help to pull it over his neck. He had to stand to take off his high-tops and sweatpants. He did a silly, one-legged stand to remove both of his shoes, pulling them by the heel and barely loosening the laces to get them off. He pushed down his sweatpants and shorts, his hips swinging back so he could push them down the length of his long legs. When he stood up straight again, leaning forward with his hips, his cock bobbed, hard and sticking out at itâs full mast now. From how tall he was, his hard cock almost looked deceptively small. Orbiting around you, he came crashing down into your open meadow.Â
You almost got sad at the thought of no one being around to see this tree-falling experienceâbecause did it even really happen? Is this really happening? Wally had proven himself enough to be real, and he was the only thing that made sense in your clouded mind. But then again, it felt entirely unreal. Unreasonable as to why you would ever let yourself succumb to him. But he was intoxicating, like you couldnât deny whatever fate brought you to himâor, him to you.
His chest was pressed to yours with the help of his hands sliding under your back, narrowing down to the small of your back to bring you closer to him from off the ground. The backs of his hands were bristled by the faux grass, and he made sure to curse it out in his head for making him hold heaven on one side, while feeling the slight patchiness of the turf. It was soft, but it wasnât blanket soft. He was kneeling during this, and you could feel his thighs pressing into your own.Â
âCome here,â You beckoned, finding Wally not to be close enough to your liking. A quick lean down lead to another kiss. With his shirt off, you could feel his golden charm necklace dragging across your exposed collarbones. You reached up to find the source of the feeling, only to have it bump into his dangling necklace.
âWhat does it mean?â You asked him, holding onto the thin pendant with your thumb and index finger. There was an engraving on itâSaint Michael. For a moment, the fact that Wally was naked and needy for you disappeared, just as the look of hunger on his face did. âYou know so much about me, I want to know more about you.â
Wally didnât speak, his face twisting like the question was a key turning something in his head and unlocking his mouth to say something, but it was dry. No words came out, and he shut his mouth to think it over again. He decided that he would explain it to you later, what it all meant, when he wasnât so worked up. He wanted to say âNot right nowâ or âIâll tell you laterâ with a hopeful promiseâbut either of those brought a feeling he didnât like to wallow in for very long. Wallyâs small beat of reflection lasted only a second before he found something smart to say, âIt means youâre in the right hands.âÂ
He backed off of you again, moving so that he could lift your bare legs. Wally was still kneeling, but had moved to be in-front of your legs when he lifted them. He held both of your ankles together with the width of just one hand. He would have asked you to roll onto your side or lift your legs up himself, but you had just burned holes through your muscles from using them so much. It wasnât something you would feel nowâonly a slight sluggishness that would worsen after tomorrowâs gameâand he wanted to still be able to talk to you. Like his Saint Michael pendant, he needed to be chivalrous. So, your feet were up in the air, suspended by him, and his other was free to grope and graze your ass.
Thatâs what he meant by the comment about his hands. It clicked with how his fingers teased and pinched you. With your legs lifted, he had easy access to your exposed hole. It was staring at him when he ducked his head down to watch his own actions. His hand, which had been resting palm-sided against your cheek, suddenly pulled away and curled into a fist. Wally used the knuckle of his middle finger to graze your hole bluntly, gauging just how much it responded to a small, knobby tip. You needed something deeper to go in, but he kept edging you on the promise of something that could only dilate your hole.
As he teased you, his head resurfaced, continuing the argument he supposedly dropped. âYou know some stuff about meââ
âYou like sports.â You grunted out at the pleasure. It wasnât much, but Wally performing the action made your heart race. His everything was big. Height, dick, feet, and most importantly in this moment, hands.Â
ââand I told you about my greatest fumble ever!â He focused his attention back down to your ass, rubbing his two perfectly straightened index and middle finger around your hole. You could only imagine the same fingers stretched wide around the blunt of a football now being spread in your hole. He was so close to entering.
You leaned back into the soft-but-not-soft grass. âAccording to you, thatâs public information I should already know.â
He raised his head up to look at you again. âYouâre damn right it is.â
It brought a small laugh out of you for how serious he was about it.
âWhat else do you know about me?âÂ
âThat youâre not using your fingers yet.â You groaned.
Wally got a look on his face, a firm one. Confidence beamed off of him because he knew exactly what he had to do. Then, a sharp pain came as the blunt edge of his fingertip pushed past your entrance. At least he was nice enough to do one at first, despite teasing you with two.Â
ââFingers?ââ He held the end of his question like a hissing snake, finding himself unable to not get hung up on the fact that you wanted more of him. Wally enjoyed watching you squirm with one finger inside, he could only imagine what the next one would do.Â
The answer quickly came to him when you moaned at his second finger. With two fingers in, he twisted and undid the spool of nerves spindling in your stomach about the much bigger thing swinging between his legs.Â
At first, Wally worked wonders. He had you moaning and writhing in the grass. Reaching for fistfuls of turf that stayed firmly planted to the ground, you bucked your hips at his touch.Â
There were attempts to shake it up, however, that didnât evoke the same feeling. He tried to do the same scissoring motion that worked on the girls he used to bang. He couldnât determine if they were the better audience or if it didnât have as much of an impact on you. Different bodies, he tried to remind himself, and yet, a ghost and a human managed to have more similarities than two living people of different sexes. It took Wally an extra minute to find the right way to curve his finger, but eventually, he found it.
He could only work his magic for so long, though. A few more knuckle-deep thrusts, and you would have been shooting your load too early. Wally could have let that happen, but he wanted to give himself the pleasure of just having someone else around. Being inside of them was a good bonus, too.
The disappointment was felt on both sides when Wally pulled his fingers out, and you expectedâand dreadedâthe next logical step to be taken: his dick stretching you out much worse than his fingers could. It wasnât something you felt ready for, but you were confident that you could handle it and come out the other end in one piece. And that was good enough. But, in what felt like an agonizingly slow retreat away from you, Wally had backed himself up enough to lean down and place his head where his arm and hand just were. Oh no.
âHey, you donât have toâitâs notâŠâ You wanted to list off the reasons why he shouldnât be doing what heâs doing. You were dirty, sweaty, and to put it mildly: it was bad etiquette. Wally knew any unfavorable taste on his tongue would be gone the second he pulled away though, so he didnât mind. He spent his life around athletesâand permanently smelled of his last football gameâso he was somewhat blind to the sweat. Only the musk permeated through. And Wally loved it.Â
He pulled away a second later, finding his tongue almost constricted by the area it roamed.Â
âRelax,â He said it more like a suggestion than any kind of command. Wallyâs body did the intimidating for him, at least not when he gave off the impression that he only knew how to flail and flop with his limbs. But now, he was compressed. Hidden away in the thicket of your legs and torso. Sprouting from the ground to provide him cover. But his words couldnât be any more confident. âItâs just sex.â
And then, the taste he lovedâsomething he would never break away fromâflooded his senses again. The first time his tongue pierced your hole, which came after he lapped over it a few times with a surprising wetness to it, he didnât pull back out for a few moments. You could feel his tongue broaden, going flatter but stretching you wider than when it had been tensed. Somehow, it was worse than his two fingers, which had stretched wider than his tongue when inside you. He was able to do more stuff when tonguing you, able to curl and curve it faster and in more dynamically poised ways. All of them hit spots his fingers only dreamed of reaching. On top of that, his lips were locked around your hole. It was an added feeling around your bundle of nerves that hard boney knuckles hitting couldnât replicate.
He could easily slide his tongue in and out, and did several times. Whenever it wasnât buried in your ass, he was kissing and making out with your hole. Occasionally, he pulled back just a breathâs distance away to spit on it and resumed slicking it up.Â
When he felt that it had been going on for long enoughâeven though it would never actually be enough to sate him, not for a long timeâWally broke the connection. He watched your hole as it was shaking, shrinking, and aching from the work of all the tools in his arsenal. Except for one. The big one.
He couldnât forget about it, and he simply never had. The longer he ignored it, the more the throbbing went from a sudden, painful ache to a numb understanding of what he needed to do. Occasionally, it would touch against the grass in this positionâfinding a way to rut in the space between how low his torso got to the ground. Wally rose to his knees, and the throbbing returned, mostly due to the motion of bucking his hips forward again. The familiar feeling, the one deep in his core telling him to do it again, made him work quickly to waddle on his knees back to you. One in front of the other, his cock swung, hard but still here. Still attached to him. Wally fought the urge to feel himself up and make sure this wasnât some ghostly 40-years-in-the-making delusion. The sight of you before him was too perfect to be real.
He stopped when he felt close enough, closer than where he stationed himself to finger you. You could feel the heat radiating off his dick. Both of your passions were colliding, but physically, Wally was a bit stuck. He still had your legs to figure out what to do with, and with a girlâlike the head-cheerleader, it was as easy as having them wrapped around him. But your hole was further down, and it wasnât an issue when he could use his hands or sink himself deeper to reach it. All foursâjust like a retriever barking at the hide-y-hole of a mouse. Those were simple solutions, but now, he was faced with a challenge that could only make sense drawn out on the whiteboard like a football play. He had to convince himself that he wouldnât blow thisâor maybe he could just blow you. That would be easy. But it would be a let down. After all of his preparation?Â
Wally huffed, and then he decided. The image came to in his head, and he quickly fumbled to make it a reality.
Both of your legs were sprawled out on either side of him. His hand skimmed over your calf resting beside him, and lifted one into the air, slowly. His gaze flitted to your eyes, making sure that it was okay. That it didnât hurt. You didnât have to say anything to give him the signal that it was fine. He continued, lifting your leg with one hand until it was high in the air, resting on his should. He evened the feeling out by doing the same with the other one. You were lucky to do so many stretchesâit made you pleasantly flexible and he could bend you however he pleased. It became another thing Wally takes note of, but the realization came too late to make any use of it now. He had no intention of pulling away or backing out to exchange for a different position, and he only stretched you more when he moved closer. His hips came closer, and his dick only had one place to go.Â
Wally felt just as he expected you to be: tight. The pressure around his cock felt better than anything in the past forty years of living that had come into contact with him. He began to speak, but failed. He spat out incoherent strings of syllables until he could form words. Something deep in his chest shook, making his lips sputter. He blew out a puff of air. âYou canâJesusâfuck.â
Wally didnât speak when he bottomed out in youâwhich took almost several minutes after his tip grazed your hole. Landing in the in-between, Wally wasnât quite at his nonverbal stage of how mind-blowing this sex would become, but he wasnât exactly at the start. He was at this painful middle ground, where his shaft was being tightened and tugged on by your convulsing hole. It went in and glided smoothly inside you, but it was Wallyâs shakiness making it a rough sensation. Your hips felt unsteady trying to fit his girth, but you had the support of the ground to lean back on. Wally was using you for support, and that made you shake nearly as much as him.Â
The position was more than he could normally fit into a pussy, and the tight sensation like the constant band of a ring running up and down his cock made him feel weak. The heat radiating off your body was another factor making him pant and moan. You had a growing concern for him, since he didnât even get to finish his sentence from moments ago. Eventually, he got to it when he wasnât overtaken by how good you felt. Warm. Real. A touch too close to the sun.
Thatâs how Wally finds his rhythm: through processing. Through understanding. His hips swung for the first time. And the words started spilling out because the pleasure was too much and he could only hold one feeling in at a time. The need to speak became more immediate, and he just had to say something. Too bad it was the only thing that could make you panic.
âYou can tell by the fingersâŠâ He said, his words turning into a groan. âYour grip wasnât the only thing holding on too tight to a stick.â
âI can relaxââ
âDonât. Donât!â He thrusted deeper into you. His hands scaled up the leg resting on his shoulder. Wally turned his head and leaned into the embrace of your skin, pressing a kiss against the side of your calf as he upheld his pace. Eyes closed, he breathed it all in for a moment. So many half-formed thoughts popped into his head, but quickly fizzled. There was only one thing he can focus on, and he returned his gaze back down to you to say it.
âGod, youâre tight.â At least it sounded more like a compliment this time. He nearly folded over himself at how good your ass felt. He refused to do it for the sake of your legs resting on him, but he was close to losing all composure and not caring about it. His stretching didnât work but maybe it was simply your nerves working twice as hard.Â
You could feel his balls slapping against your ass, and his motions almost mimic a bounce with how he thrusts in then out and in then out and in then out. He never stayed buried inside of you, and it was only because he couldnât handle it. But every time he made you rock in the grass, and made your whole body shift, you erupted in a noise of pleasure. He went until the only thing you could do was speak.
âWally,â you moan.
âWhatâhahâhappened to calling me not-Wally?â It came out as a loose string of syllables. Wallyâs mouth was too agape for the past minute to find a way to make his jaw tick again. His head was too occupied trying to withhold himself until youâre ready to cum; another thing he learned from his past experiencesâpartners should cum around the same time.
âShut up.â Well, barely speak in your case.
âNo.â He panted out, a look of mischief washing over him. âYouâre taking me so well, I wouldnât have this any other way.â
The words of encouragement were banal because his dick was doing all of the heavy lifting. You were able to tug your dick a few times and felt the tightening at your core every time, all from the way he fucked you alone. You kept your hand on your dick, but loosely, so that the friction wouldnât cause you to cum before Wally did.
He moaned, and then realized he couldnât keep fucking you for much longer. He asked one simple question, just to confirm: âAre you ready?â
âYes!â You yelled into the night. It came out at a different pitch. The way you felt deep down started to slip out. Then, it started to spew out. All over your chest in hot, white ropes of cum. And suddenly, Wally shoved all of himself in you. It was sloppy, and Wally went quiet except for a few whimpers as his release shot out. You came at roughly the same time, your moans escaping and clashing with each other. Gradually, they slowly became weaker.
Wally had frozen inside of you, and he only regained some small bits of momentum to drag his cock back and forth again when his climax was ending. The final thrusts pumped more of his cum into you., milking his cock. Wally could feel and hear it gushing around his cock. This is real, he knew it now. Without a doubt.
Your hand did the same, coaxing out the rest of your mess in globs that ran down your hand. As you went to wipe it in the grass before it dried, knowing from experience that it would just become a sticky layer on your hand in a quick minuteâand minutes went by fast with Wally aroundâhe reached to grab your hand, bringing it to his mouth to clean it off. He gave a sloppy kiss to the back of your hand when it was all clean.
A small beat passed while he took a breather. Despite not having sex for so long, he recovered faster than you didâbut he totally wasnât trying to make it into a competition in his head as to who recompose themselves faster. Totally not. Wally pulled himself out when he felt that you could withstand the pain. He gingerly set your legs to his sides. It wouldnât have been an experience with the Wally Clark if he hadnât cleaned up the mess he was so eager to make, giving one long lick with his tongue flat against your sternum. All the cum was gone, leaving a broad stoke of saliva in its place that dried a bit faster.
His head rested at your chest for a second, and he looked up to you. Your hands combed through his hair, and you spoke softly to him. âThank you.â
Wally played dumb as he sat upright again. âFor what?â
âYou knowâŠâ You trailed off. âEverything.â
Wally looked down and then back up towards you again. The only time he ever did that was when sex and romantic feelings started to entangle themselves. Not even a dirty joke could save him from the sharp pang of guilt hitting him directly in his chest, the same one that arose earlier. Stupidly sickening and sweetly bleeding open from Cupidâs arrow, he could only project his questions onto you. The same ones he had to face himself, but couldnât be brought to do. He just wanted to lay with you. In the grass. Forever. But he knew the truth: you would likely only get to be with him for one night only. One exceptionally different night. âIs this what you want?â
âGive me something.â You said, not as a demand or a promise he couldnât fulfill. Just for a keepsake, and it was something that you thought might be reasonable.
âAnything.â He said without another thought to it.
You noted the way he was so eager. He could have said, âI already gave you somethingâ and his dirty mind would have been correct. But he kept it simple. âReally? Just like that?â
âYou already took my after-life virginity. And it only took forty years.âÂ
You laughed, âGod, youâre so weird.â
âItâs true.â
âI want your jacket.â
âItâs yours.â
Wally stood up, extending his hand. You took it and stood up. For the first time, standing out in the open, it clicked that you were naked on school grounds. No less in the football field with anyone being able to watch from the bleachersâand it was too dark to pick out a face from the rows of seating if someone had seen you. But the world didnât exist now. Only he did.
Your hand shifted to interlock with his, fingers folding over the backs of each otherâs hands. Wally guided you towards the bench where some of his stuff remained. The rest was still in the middle of the field, but not his jacket. It was with your things already.
Wally handed the jacket to you. You watched his body twist and bend to grab it off the bench, and you had finally gotten to see the full scope of him being naked. No poses, no silly positions. Just him, standing. And he still looked fucking amazing.
You put the jacket on, enjoying the limited cover it could provide.Â
âAs much as I love seeing you in that. You should put on some clothes.â Wally was annoyingly rightâpossibly for the first time that night. You were starting to feel cold and shivery in the weather. Almost as cold as him, but you didnât want to pull away from him. Your hand found his again, like a kid too excited to touch their presents on Christmas Eve. But Wally was all yours and entirely unwrapped, and it took the world not to ask him to come home with you and stay up all night.Â
He walked you back to the center of the field and helped you get dressed. It took an extra moment because Wally held your shorts out of reach for a moment to give him the time to make a joke about how good you looked undressed for the second time, but he resigned them back to you so that you could leave.
Wally did his best to not hold you at the schoolâhe wasnât even sure that he could if he wanted toâbut he tried not to drag his feet for so long. He could make you take care of returning the equipment you borrowed, but he promised that he would return it for you. Now he was worried about you overexerting yourself before the game. But you insisted that you had to leave, so you made your way to the football stadiumâs exit. Wally followed a few paces behind, but it would be easy for him to catch up with his long legs.
âWhere did you park?â You asked, figuring you could at least wait at his car while he returned the equipment to the proper spot, and then he could drive you back to your car from his to save you the walk. You always parked in the furthest parking lot from the school. It was easier to park farther away, as too many kids at school were comfortable winging their car doors open even if you were parked next to them. Hence the few dings in your hand-me-down car. Wally didnât answer you, and instead, you heard a fast paced shuffling approach.
âYouâre the one with a big game tomorrowââ Wally said, coming behind you, ââIâll carry you!â
In one swift motion, he picked you up off your feet. And now, he was carrying you out of the arena.
Wally insisted it wasnât a far walk to your car, and that he would drop you off first and go back for the equipment. The sweeter the night became, the more sour he felt about it ending. He almost didnât want to put you down when he reached your car, but he was scared that he would phase out and drop you, so he set you on your own two feet before that could happen.
You didnât want to leave any awkward space between you and him, so you blurted out the question you had been dreading to ask. And Wally was equally dreading to hear it. What if it was for a phone number? He didnât have one of those! What if it was to get a ride back to the car he didnât have? Wally grit his teeth and shushed his racing mind, trying to focus on what your actual question was.
âCan you come to my game? I think Iâll need some pre- and post-game stress relievers.â
He tilted his head to the sideâfeigning a thought, like he had a schedule and a life to worry about. Wally swiveled his head back to face you, choosing to feign the charming âIâll drop everything for youâ persona instead. But you could see through it, something hiding deeper under the surface. His face could quirk into a smile, his words could be charming, but nothing could hide the softening of his eyes. His chocolate eyes melted, and the words he spoke were somber like the last glow of embers burning from a snuffed flame. He flashed a small smile, âIâll always be here.â
âŠ
The next day came with the expected sunrise, resetting the previous dayâs unpredictable events. It was a Saturdayâthose were easy and relaxing for everyone but you. Well, it would have been for everyone but you if you hadnât had last nightâs experiences under your belt. You would have been the exception as you did stretches on the field, but today, you were like everyone else. The pit in your stomach as game day approached dissipated with the help of someone who could reach in there and knock it outâboth literally and metaphorically.
The hour of the game approached quickly, and practice on the sidelines blurred into the first quarter. The Split River Bandits were up 5-4. While it felt low for your team, you were closing in on scoring a sixth point with your team before the quarter was over. Three more to goâthree more to win. You had been standing off to the side, trying desperately to work your way into the action unfolding: a cluster of your teammates going toe-to-toe with the opposing team. It was indiscernible as to who had the ball.
But somehow, the ball rose from the group of guys and arced in the air, coming down towards you. You caught it with your net, and you started running to the other teamâs net.
As you crossed the field, you looked to the crowd surrounding the perimeter. There, by the frontlines where the white paint lined the box you ran through, the scouts sat. Taking photos and watching the game unfolding in front of them. Just above them, you saw Wally sitting on the bleachers among the parents from the home and away teams. It wasnât hard to spot himâhis face now unforgettable after your first and most perfect encounterâbut his height allowed him to stand out next to the taller fathers around him to make it easy even if you werenât looking for him.
You recentered your attention on the game. On the goalie. There were two guys standing in front of the goalie, and only one solution presented itself. Last night, there were a few steps you learned from Wally about how to fake someone outâsomething he learned it football, but it seemed applicable enough to lacrosse, too. So you did it. The man on the left flanked you with a stiff-arm to against your stick, and the ball almost rolled off the end of your stick. Then, the rightwing man tried to do the same. You took a fake step to the left, disorienting him as you pivoted to the right. The player on the right wasnât expecting you to go for him, so he fumbled his prepared move, and you were able to pass him. Now, it was just you and the goalie. Your grip tightened on your stick, holding it straight in the air. You flung it forward, shooting it over the goalieâs shoulder.
You scored, throwing your hands up in victory. Your body twisted quickly, looking to see Wallyâs reaction. When your eyes did land on him, he was cheering, and his voice stuck out louder than anyone elseâs.
my valentine without the word ăàšà§ă wally clark x fem!reader
summary: being boyfriend and girlfriend spirits were easy; they were able to touch, able to feel each other, see each other and everything! but, what wally didnât think of was the fact every valentineâs day, he canât ask her to be his valentine since thatâs the day she died.
warnings; mentions of y/n death, bubbly! reader, clueless! reader, sweet! reader, wally being a yearner, extreme fluff and soft ending, awkwardness a bit, make-out but no smut
a/n: HEY YALL..but anyways i wanted to write a little wally fic for valentineâs day bc I YEARN FOR HIM ITS SO BAD STOP STOP MAKE IT STOP
sitting on the top bleachers with their hands holding one another, wally pressed his lips against y/nâs sweet and tender ones, she smiled into the kiss and hummed when he let his hand wander and pulled her waist closer to his body.
this was their morning routine, afternoon routine, evening and night. every day theyâll find some alone time and cuddle up with each other, losing time and energy in each other and finding comfort in one another.
today was different, it felt different, the atmosphere was totally off and wally didnât know what it was, every couple was kissing somewhere, there were pink balloons, heart shaped and all.
he knew exactly what today was, but couldnât do anything about it.
pulling apart as she kissed his cheek, y/n heard her name be called by sarah, another ghost whoâd died from choking on her cucumber at lunch ten years ago, she was nice and sweet, wally didnât know her personally, but y/n talked about her a lot and heâs bound to listen to every and anything she says.
âoh, i guess i gotta go, i promised sarah iâd talk to her today, iâll see you later?â y/n hummed and tilted her head to the side as wally smiled deeply and pushed his lips against hers one last time, for now
âokay but promise weâll meet up in the teachers lounge, i heard words that thereâs some cute decor there. I know youâll love to seeâ he smiled as she squealed.
y/n loved anything sweet, soft, kind and gentle. she was bound to date a jock, if they were still alive, he wouldnât put it past himself that he wouldnât go for her.
âokay! iâll hold you too thatâ she smiled and pulled away from his grasp, walking down the bleachers and running to sarah.
sighing he leaned backââdid you ask her yet?â yelling and turning to see charley he groaned and rolled his eyes.
âno..why would i? thatâd be a different level of fucked up..i donât want her to think about itâ wally sighed and looked at the door that y/n had left out of.
âthink about what? valentineâs day? itâs the most cute day for couples, expressing love, kissing each other, holding each other, whispering sweet nothingsââ
âremembering the day you died onâŠâ wally looked at charley who left his mouth agap, frowning his eyebrows and gasping.
âwait, she died on valentineâs day? the sweetest girl, bubbly, nice, beautiful, kind, loving, and supportive girl died on valentineâs day? how evenâŠâ he was confused, y/n shared how she died in an embarrassing and traumatic way never when she died especially on this day.
âyeah..she never told you?â wally turned and was shocked, heâd assumed she told everyone by now, itâs been years, but he wouldnât if he were her.
âno..no? what happened? if you can tell meâ he wanted to know, charley needed to know, if it was so embarrassing it would probably cure him from being a gay who died of a nut allergy.
âwell..i mean..if i tell you, you didnât hear this from me! i donât want to tell you but she said sheâd tell you guys more about it tomorrow so ill tell youâ
âokay! okay! just yeah..tell me everythingâ he got comfortable next to wally and waiting for him to start it.
.ËłâșâË ê°à° â à»ê± ËââșËł .
walking down the school hallway with her hair in a half up half down and a bow on the hair tie, y/n hummed and smiled to herself while she thought about her secret love letter she got in her locker.
she was a huge romantic and seeing that made her whole day, her whole valentineâs day.
the letter had saidâ
to the most beautiful girl in school, i want to confess my love to you but im afraid. afraid of what youâll think of me and afraid of what you might say. meet me behind the school after school so i can confess my deep love and affection for you, y/n l/n, my sweetest memory.
from your secret admire.
she was star struck, she heard rumors of people having a crush on her but she never listened to the because they never said anything to her directly, she loved love and wanted to feel it more than anything, but hearing rumors and fake news made her dislike love from school more than anything.
it was the last period and sheâd been drawing hearts on her paper, red and pink. smiling to herself while holding the letter in her pink knitted pocket.
wondering to herself who could it be? what does he look like, or what does she look like? are they tall or short? silly or serious? dangerous or nothing like it?
she was in a daze.
at the end of the day, waiting in her deep red car, she sat and waited, everyone leaving the premise, the sun setting and the moon coming to show its softness, she was nervous.
getting out of her car and walking to the back of the school, she looked down to see red rose petals on the ground and smiled wide, her face warming up and her eyes shining.
following the rose petals she looked up and smiled at the huge letters of âwould you be my valentineâ. gasping and giggling to herself whilst looking at the table of heart shaped chocolates and flowers she touching them softly.
ây/n?â turning around she jumped and suppressed a gasp. what was he doing here? was this allowed?
âmr. smith..iâm sorry iââ
âno no..donât apologize..besides iâm the one who asked you to be hereâ
what.
âiâm sorry?â she knew exactly what he meant.
âitâs just..i know that this isnât normal but i know that this is real, what i feel for you? itâs all real, and i know you love me too, you show it all the time! smiling, laughing at me, staying after classââ
âmr.smith..iâm..no? iâm sorry i donât understand..i stay after class for help on my work i donâtââ
âno no no donât play with me i know what you feel i know itâs real, i know that you love me, i love you just as much, even more if anything!â He stepped closer as she stepped back, hitting the table of flowers and chocolates.
how long did this take him to plan, did he really feel this way for her, sheâs sixteen for heaven sake and heâs forty nine, he has a wife and sheâs pregnant, where did she go wrong.
âmr.smith please..i need to get homeââ
âno!â
jumping she gasped and held a hand over her mouth as he tried to calm himself, breathing in and out with his eyes closed he shook his headââno..you havenât even touched your chocolates yet..please..just..pleaseâ sighing she walked sirius the table to that it was between him and her.
âiâd i eat this..will you let me go home..pleaseâ she begged. he looked like he was thinking to himself, weighing out the options and signing.
âof course!â she sighed and gulped, picking up a milk chocolate heart and slowly pushing it into her mouth she chewed, and swallowed.
âthere..nowââ gulping while she felt something in her body move, almost as if something just shut down, she closed her eyes and hummed.
âsh sh sh..â walking to y/n who kept opening and closing her eyes she frowns and groaned, her whole body felt so heavy, out of place and like water.
what..sheâd be drugged of course.
a popular teacher amongst the town who fell in love with his sixteen year old student just confessed his love. of course he knew the odds of her returning them, thatâs why he did this.
âmrâŠâ she hummed and almost fell but he caught her body, his hand on her cheek to hold her head up as her light pink kitten healed foot bent, losing her balance. the only thing keeping her afloat was his grip around her waist and his hand on her neck and face.
âitâs okay my sweet, itâs alright, sh sh shâ he brought her body down on to the stage floor. his knees present against the wood as she was passed out cold, her mind shut down completely and he shoved more chocolate down her throat.
.ËłâșâË ê°à° â à»ê± ËââșËł .
âthe last thing she remembers is waking up in the stage floor and the whole room was empty, her body was sore and she said it felt like she was walking on nothing. later that week sheâd even ignored by everyone and anyone, her parents had come to look for her even when she yelled in their face that she was right there.â wally clutched his fist in anger and sorrow for her.
charley sat there in pure silence and shock, the overwhelming feeling of pity filled his every being. horror and sadness were very apparent in the both of them.
âthen the next week after that, sheâd started hearing rumors about her death, that she was strangled, and shoved in the back of the costume room. the autopsy report being overdose, the last thing she ate being chocolate..every time she sees one she gets physically sick..â wally shook his head as he remembers the time she ran out of the room when a student dropped a box of chocolate in front of her and she wasnât seen for the rest of the day until he visited her.
âhe was caught, a month later, in a room filled with her pictures and a lock of her hair in his grip, supposedly he still keeps it to this day in jailâ wally finished off as he looked at charley whoâs been shut down.
his mouth hung open and his eyes watching wally.
âbut..does she know heâs still alive?â
âyeah, of course she does, she listens to the teacher lounge every day for any news about him dying, she reads the newspapers and watches the news when itâs onâ wally stood up and walked down the bleachers with charley following.
âso wait, i understand how fucked up and traumatic that is but why wonât you just ask her to be your valentine you know? without the fancy decorations, without any sweets or anything, what about like..pizza? or a hot dog?â he suggested.
ânah..i donât want her to hear the word from me at least and get any form of flash back, i couldnât fathom it if i cause her pain in any way even if its involuntary..I just wanted her to have a sweet day without anything happening.â wally walked as charley followed.
there werenât many places to go but at the moment the cafe was the hot spot, y/n had been off somewhere, post likely the acting class with sarah still.
âwell i donât think if you say âwill you be my valentineâ without saying it, sheâll have any kind of flashbackâ he suggested.
wally turned and was interested.
âhow do i say it without saying it?â
.ËłâșâË ê°à° â à»ê± ËââșËł .
walking down to the teachers lounge as wally fixed his hair, he straightened his back and cracked his neck.
charleyâs words ringing and replaying in his head as he saw her.
standing with her small heeled shoes; pink knitted sweater and white dress, her hair tied back and with a bow, she turned and smiled.
âwally!â walking fastly to him and wrapping her arms around his neck he smiled and held his hand on her small back, holding it and kissing her deeply.
she smelt so nice every time he was around her. her whole being was enough to be a drug for him if anything.
âaw did you miss me today?â he teased as she nodded with a smile.
âi was thinking about you all day! i wanted to ditch sarah and come to you so bad but i didnât want to be a bad friendâ she laughed as he did as well, his arms holding her against himself.
âi was thinking about nothing but you, i wanted to do something for you..something small, yâknow. for our dayâ he smiled, trying to avoid the words, the day, today, and valentineâs day.
âawh, our day? what do you have plannedâ she wondered; tilted her head to the side while her earring hoops moved as well.
âcome on!â He tugged her hand and lead he outside.
walking to the garden that the school had, he opened the door and they sat down on the silver bench, it was a bit chilly but the breeze settled it evenly.
âyou wanted to come outside?â
âyeah, i mean, itâs a nice day, the flowers have bloomed, lookâ she turned from his eyes and looked at the pink flowers on the ground. gasping she smiled at them.
âoh, this is sweetâ she smiled and turned to wally who looked like he was suffocating.
âbaby you okayââ
âbut yâknow, we can also go to the lounge, any classroom, the rooftop! it doesnât matter, or our favorite secret spot?â he grinned and pressed his nose against hers and smiled while he kissed her softly.
she smiled into it but frowned and pulled away.
âwait, so your not going to ask me?â she pulled away while looking at his lips, her pointer finger touching his chin while her eyes then moved up to his own.
â..ask you what?â he asked dumbly
âwally..you know whatâ she scolded, her eyebrows frowningââwally come on..â
âi canât! you know i canât and i wonât!â he shook his head while she placed a hand on his cheek.
âwally..â
âno y/n iâm serious. if i bring up anything, any pain, any memory; any regrets and trauma i will lose myself and i canât do that to you because i canât hurt you. i canât..â
âwallyâŠyour not hurting me by asking me to be your valentine..you never ask me! this is the sixth year you didnât ask me! i let the other five pass because i wanted you to say it without me saying anything but please..itâs cute! itâs a beautiful day itâs..itâs not why i died..â she whispers the last part; his eyebrows pulling together.
a small frown on her lips as she let her fingers play with his ear, a weird calming touch for him and a note for her to let her know he was there.
âi didnât die because of valentineâs day i just so happened to be killed by some weirdo who thought i liked him..im over thinking about it..i want you to be my valentine if youâll have me?â she smiled at the final part and he smiled back, laughing and nodding as she hummed.
âyeah?â she encourages as he nodded moreââyes..yes, will you be my valentine?â he smiled as his lips brushed hers and she nodded with a smile.
âof course wally clarkâ pushing herself into his lips as he closed his eyes, he hummed and held the back of her neck, their kiss deepening and her hands touching his chest and neck.
pulling apart to breath into each others mouth before pushing back into it, wally leaned back onto the bench and let y/n on top of him, her hand on his chest and his holding her waist.
she smiled as he groaned a bit. moving her face and nibbling his neck.
gripping her waist and resisting the urge to push his hips up against hers. she smiled and whisperedââiâm not afraid of chocolates anymore, you can get me some of those tooâ he smiled as she hovered over his face and leaned down to kiss her sweet.
holding the neck of his valentine .


