#scdojo

Sup Son?!

I was tagged by Aintfunny (http://aintfunny18.tumblr.com/). I’m a lazy lazy bastard but I’ll try to get through this.

Rule 1:  Always post the rules.

Rule 2: Answer questions that are given to you and write 11 new ones.

Rule 3: Tag 11 people. 

Rule 4: Let them know you tagged them.

Questions I’ve Answered:

Questions for you to answer:

1. Duck or Goose? Duck, Geese are fucking retarded

2. Coffee or Tea? Coffee.

3. PC or Mac? PC, the fuck? That's not even a question.

4. If you could meet any fictional character who would it be? Jim Raynor, I'd ask him if she was worth it all in the end.

5. What is your favorite social networking site? Facebook

6. What person in your life currently means the most to you? This is a hard one, there are three people who I would do absolutely anything for at any point no questions asked: Cody, my best friend in the world. There's not a whole lot of words you can say about the guy who on the day you found out you had nerve damage on and ask him to drive you to surgery, then he does that and calls in to his work to cancel after he drags you out of the surgery room while you're too doped up to even remember anything, fills your medicine while you're out, and wakes you up to help you change you gauze so you don't bleed out.  I only woke up once at about 1:00pm that I can remember, but he told me we had to change it four or five times. To his credit I saw the cup afterwards when I was able to walk, those plastic cups people get for parties, half of it was full of my own blood. If I'd had some stupider, less intelligent best friend I would have drown in my own blood while I was too high to even know it was happening. There are very few people in the world that you meet and know and can keep in your life long enough to say "If someone told me if I volunteered to get shot in this guy's place" would I do it? To that I have to say again that's not even a question, not even a hesitation, a thousand times yes, give me the gun I'll do it myself. The second would be Dexter, my practice partner, future room mate, and like Cody one of the only people in the world to never ever ever doubt my ability to do something. If I'm raging and annoyed about how imbalanced Zerg is (which it is), or how bullshit late game PvP is (which it is), or how retarded Speed Medivacs are (which they are), he almost always responds with something like "Yeah, but kids are retarded, so just kill them." Something simple like that, placing you above the general population who's technically matched up against you because the unbiased MMR system says you're close to an even match.  It goes outside of the game too, there are not "ifs" when it comes to dealing with Dexter, there are only "whens". When I get Sam back, When I get revenge on my Dad, When I go pro, When we move out, When I pay the Government and my medical bills off. No ifs, always whens, even if that when is incredibly unlikely like the Sam thing. Someone who can push you to try and do better even when you're unmotivated, or lazy, or depressed, or generally just don't give a fuck is something amazing.  He recently went through a really hard time, and while I don't know the cause personally, I know the symptoms. Lets just say I don't think the cause of the problem realizes exactly what a mistake it made. It poisoned probably the best possible person.  The last One (Two) are kind of a cop out because in a way they've done a lot of the same things. The first one is my Mom, she raised me and made me who I am. While my prick of a father would assume that I just fade into obscurity get a 9-5 job, and work until my body breaks in the hope the system that failed the rest of America some how doesn't fail me, my mom says it'll be hard, but if anyone could do a game professionally, it'd be me. Ever since I was little my mom and I played strategy games like checkers and chess together. When I was in seventh grade I was ready at a college level, and when I was in college I was reading and writing so well they made me retake the placement tests because I scored so high on them.  My mom spent a lot of years stressed out because her like my teachers couldn't figure out how someone who can analyze and apply the words of Buddha, Sun Tzu, Jesus, Mohammud, Confucious, and all the other great people and philosophers; Someone who in less than an hour and a half of class time managed to grasp, explain, and understand the chain of events leading from splicing certain elements of DNA to cause a chain reaction to genetics allowing for people to customize their babies; Someone who can recite every major battle, every major conquering, tyrant, king, emperor, war, revolution, and relevant date to history dating from the Rise of Rome to The Royal Baby's Birth this week, how that someone could have D's in every single class because no matter how hard the course work was it was too easy.  I'm afraid of the person I'll become sometimes. Will I die alone out of stubborness? Will I waste my twenties chasing after the dream of something in e-sports? Will I not be able to afford medical treatment and loose essentially every tooth in my mouth to nerve damage like the two I already lost? I have no clue, but the person I am wouldn't exist if not for her, and though life right now feels like I'm Odysseus fighting against the Gods just to get home and see my wife, I've read that book, I make it home. The second is Samantha, my ex you hear me mention sometimes. I haven't mentioned her lately because she can see this and it almost always causes tension if I mention her on here. Still I'll bite the bullet on this one and do it anyway. There's a line from a song called "Nothing Ever Dies" by Kamelot, it is "Love, love is the only truth, pure as a world of youth until it breaks your heart. You took me higher than the mountains I have climbed, you, you waited all of your life for me, but we'll meet again, we will meet again."  The lyric kinda fades out at the end and becomes more symbolic to the story the songs about and less relevant to the one at hand. However the Important bits are that she took me higher than the mountains I have climbed, and love is the only truth until it breaks your heart. As I sit here and type this, I'm in the room I spent nights on msn and laid in bed thinking about her. If I go downstairs I can find the fireplace we spent Christmas Eve by, and in my living room down the hall the couch we made out on. This house is haunted by ghosts, and to answer Claudio of Coheed and Cambria's question, no they never measure up, the places you blessed that you stepped in.  I am very lucky after years of fighting and conflict to have a friend like you, someone who knows me so intimately and can also be objective. You know and understand all that I am, and while I am the president of stubborn in your books, the horrors and hell through the fires of your heart have forged a man who can't be broken by the world, because nothing in the world could cut me deeper than you did. I've talked a lot about wanting you back, but I don't think that's an appropriate word. I like where we're at now, I like that I get to know you again. I like you come to me when you need help on essays because apparently I'm the only one intelligent enough to help you with them. If one day things change that'll be interesting, but if not that's interesting too. I don't want what we had back, that's flawed and doesn't work, like leeches for poisoning. I'm done chasing after a dream that I made up. 

7. Would you rather have a cat or a dog? I have both. Cat is very needy but very sweet, Dog is loyal but kinda dumb. I had a cat a long time ago though, got him for the birthday I broke my leg on, I think my next pet will be a cat.

8. What is your favorite video game? Competitively is obvious, for fun Katawa Shouju was really fun, but its a toss up between Mount and Blade: Warband, Star Wars Galaxies, or Everquest 2

9. Playstation or Xbox? Two months ago Xbox, but Playstation now on the principal of the thing.

10. Are you procrastinating right now? If yes what should you be doing? Yes, I should be practicing SC2. 

11. On a scale of 1-10 how bad are these question 1 being amazing 10 being fuck you. 3, it was interesting. 

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Questions for the next victim: 1. What is your personal meaning of life 2. If you could change anything in your past would you, why or why not?

3. Do you prefer to passively let a problem pass or aggressively go after it? 4. Star Wars or Star Trek, and if Star Trek does your family know you're gay? 5. What is something so important you'd give your life for it? 6. What song do you relate to the most and why?

7. We all have characters who aren't "Good" we relate to (example: Dr. Gregory House, Walter White, Dexter), why do you relate to them?

8. Have you ever had a revelation?

9. Do you believe in God?