#scattered analysis

This is will focus alot on Rui's present and middle-school self. I have a lot of thoughts on this so hopefully I can actually phrase them. Firstly, I will focus on the sound progression.

Anyways, the song features piano-like and trumpet-like sounds and plastic-soft drums hit by sticks. The song starts off relaxing and jazzy and just starts getting louder and more manic on. It keeps a incredibly Romatic and Hopeful theme completely contrasting Will Wood screaming about Life Doesn't Matter and How Everything You Do Will Eventually Become Useless. Very similar how Middle-School Rui was hopeful but still incredibly certain that he would most likely die and be ultimately useless after 50 or so years. He comforts others but in his own way. The Song ends in people clapping and cheering and laughing showing how despite life being meaningless, the life you choose to live is Meaningful. You WILL find people who care, even if only for everyone to leave. Rui(now present) is aware that everyone's memories aren't enough to live but that doesn't matter as he's alive with his friends. It also ties in to the Theater Troupe Performing so a crowd is there. Rui is performing for a crowd who won't care after 5 years most likely, probably less! But they were happy in the moment, like he was.

There's also a overwhelming message that the way you died was probably determined and that there's nothing in the afterlife, but maybe there is. Rui is lucky is to be surrounded by those he love ("If your Lucky, you'll be surrounded by those you love) there's also a innate Nilhilty in the song. Tarot cards, future telling, and predictions just cause more stress. So FXCK WORRYING ABOUT DEATH AND JUST ACCEPT IT!! :D Rui doesn't care much (but still does) that what he's done is a waste. He knows that the way you died ("everything goes with the passage of time, whether it's murder, cancer, or suicideeeee") won't matter much if you stop worrying about what happens. ("YOUR LEGACY NOT YOURS TO SEE AND YOUR EULOGY EITHER") Any Impact you have, you won't even know the severity of it because your *dead*. That's why you should cherish the present, with the people you care about.

The generations after Rui won't care what he did, he could be amazing, set records, but it will disappear. His friends will see him die, peacefully or brutally, and he will see them die. But the sooner you stop worrying about that, it'll be alot better, in fact it did. Rui was bullied, suicidal, and terribly depressed. He kept alive, despite the pointlessness of everything, he made it through and Look!, His friend Mizuki lived and was accepted by her friends like he was, his friend Nene managed to get over her stage fright momentarily once and is consistly doing it, he met new friends Tsukasa and Emu whom he shares adventures with and connect to, and despite their accomplishments becoming useless in the 50 years after their deaths.

It's worth it to be alive :>