#saving myself

Carrying the weight upon my shoulders,

Being blamed for an unwanted riot,

That implodes deep in my mind,

Creating a chaotic genocide,

Cursing my own insecurities,

For pulling into this cold ground that sits under me,

The endless screams that silently live in my heart,

Causing havoc as I push through another day,

Trying to retrieve a bit of myself,

Not giving into this constant suffering,

Saving myself from devastating sabotage...

©️fallencalliope

from these feelings

Constantly so sad, constantly afraid

You're saying nonsense right at the edge of the abyss

I beg you, let me go, let me go

Open your hand, and I will fly

Crashing against the rocks,

after burning it to the ground

you want to rebuild

yet you set fire to every new foundation

you burn wildly

at first it was warm

inviting, enevloping

but the longer i stood in the

the more it burned

i tried to quell your flames

continously pouring water onto you

drowning myself in the process

the ocean is my home

yet i lose my ability to swim with you

drowning

burning

suffocating

i can longer suffer

if you must burn

then you burn alone