#sav rant

rant from sav because I am need to express my emotions even if it’s only to strangers on the internet. I’ve been crying a lot less recently. I mean I cry a few times a week but in the past I’d cry every day multiple times a day. I can also feel the body dysmorphia and self hatred lessening. However, I feel incredibly unmotivated. I usually keep my room spotless, I haven’t been able to in like a month atp. I have a hard time completing many simple tasks and I even find it hard to find the motivation to get out of bed recently. Also I’ve been ANXIOUS recently. Super fucking anxious. I don’t understand, am I getting better or worse? Maybe typing this out will help me figure things out.