#sashabbot

Night shifts cast an odd illusion to how one might move about their days. The sun had risen only an hour prior, and Jack and Sasha were just settling into bed to sleep. Their sunlit version of a quiet night together. The preceding day-night of work at the hospital had been surprisingly calm. Unusual and uncommon and warm welcomed. Fed and freshly showered, the pair laid with their sides pressed together, Jack with his arm around Sasha.

And he was visibly lost in thought, which Jack found dangerous. So he shook him, not harshly, but less than gentle as if to physically pull Sasha from his own head. It caused Sasha to stir, but not to look at him.

“Mmh?” he hummed.

“What are you thinking about?” Jack asked, his voice quiet as to not disturb Rosie, Sasha's German Sheppard who laid at their feet. Her ears perked up at the sound, but her eyes remained closed.

“Nothing,” Sasha spoke quietly in response, which brought up a low laugh up from Jack's belly.

“I know that's not true,” he replied.

Sasha moved then to meet Jack's gaze, and Jack allowed him to stare for a potentially uncomfortably long and obsessive moment before he mumbled out, “What?”

“This,” he finally answered, shrugging his shoulders slightly against the way Jack held him.

It wasn't like the cuddling was new, they'd done that before their relationship was ever official, but they had never talked about it then, always pretending like it wasn't happening.

“And what about this?” Jack asked. There was another long moment of staring before Sasha spoke again.

“I love you.”

It wasn't the first time he'd said it, but the ‘I love you's were few and far in between. Not because they didn't feel it, but rather due to a mutual worry it might lose its meaning if said too often. They both knew it wouldn't, and they both stayed reserved.

“Yeah?” Jack whispered in place of repeating the phrase.

“Yeah,” Sasha whispered back.

Jack leaned down then to kiss his forehead, lingering long enough for Sasha to miss the warmth of his lips when he pulled back.

“I love you,” he finally repeated. Sasha smiled, a genuine sort of smile he didn't show often, and he settled his head back on Jack's shoulder, once again staring off into the blank dark green of the bedroom walls. Walls that weren't his, yet he still intimately knew every crack and crevice of them.

The pair fell quiet for a while again, just the sound of soft breathing, the occasional rubbing of fabric when Jack slid his fingers up and down Sasha's side, the way Rosie rolled onto her side. Both Jack and Sasha's eyes kept open, calm and content and ready for bed but not wanting to lose each other's presence in place of dreaming just yet.

“Now what were you really thinking about?” Jack asked eventually, breaking the silence.

It caused Sasha to move again, this time sitting up on his elbow to hover over Jack, his free arm draped over Jack's middle. Though it was visually subtle, Jack could feel the sly grin on Sasha's face as he spoke.

“You really wanna know?”

“I really do.”

Jack knew what to expect with that look. A fantasy, a distraction, an excuse to shed their clothes and press skin to skin. But Sasha's response surprised him.

“Robby,” he had answered. He thought it was funny, telling his lover he was thinking of his best friend while they laid in bed together. (Not that Robby had never been there with them, however. But it didn't stop the jealousy from rising up in Jack's gut.)

“What about Robby?” Jack asked, his eyes narrowed at Sasha, not even attempting to hide the jealousness in his tone.

Sasha simply shrugged in response, moving to lay beside him again, this time curling against him as he pulled a blanket up to their shoulders.

“Good night, rabbit,” Sasha murmured as he closed his eyes. Before Jack could complain, Rosie moved up to lay in small space between him and Sasha, so he gave in with a quiet sigh and turned on his side to face the two of them.

selfship/personal sideblog, follows from @trailerparkhysteria

ROBBY:

sashas relationship with robby is very complicated. immediately after sasha starts working at ptmc he develops unbridled jealousy towards robby. at first he's not consciously aware of this but he wants everything robby has. he wants to be able to give open cries for help, he wants robbys job and thinks he could do it better (not out of arrogance hes fully aware hes not ready for that sort of position yet but he can see how poorly robby is handling it), he wants power because he thrives in positions of authority and also has not had any over his own life in a very long time, and he also wants robbys very close relationship with jack. everything robby does annoys him and gets under his skin. he does eventually realize its not robby who he has feelings for but that does not stop the jealousy. in his head robby is his arch nemesis (cartoon villain style). there is a lot sasha genuinely does not like about robby and if he were not so close with jack he might genuinely dislike him as person, but logically he knows robbys done nothing to harm him directly and that underneath all his flaws he is a good guy. at first they both simply tolerate each other, but over time their rival banter does become more playful, although sasha does still have a bad habit of taking it a little too far sometimes. Jack and robby would never use the term qpr because they are both old men, but that is what their relationship with each other is like, so robby does sometimes join jack and sasha in bed (both platonically and sexually.) Sasha and robby do end up in a sort of qpr eventually

DENNIS:

sasha and Dennis are friends! theyre not the closest but they text often and hang out outside of work sometimes. Sasha wishes they were closer.

TRINITY:

also friends, but not as close as he is with Dennis. they text sometimes and hang out in group settings, but never really hang out 1 on 1. Sasha also wishes they were closer, but hes not sure how to approach her.

MEL:

sasha thinks theyre friends? they text pretty often, especially about movie/TV show recs, but they never hang out outside of group settings. he keeps meaning to invite her to a movie night but hasn't gotten around to it.

MOHAN:

likes her but theyre not really friends. they text sometimes, and he enjoys her company in group settings. she's better friends with jack.

FRANK:

isnt sure how to feel about langon. Sasha had lots of trauma of both of his parents being addicts, so he tends to avoid frank as a result, but he does wish people were nicer to him.

DANA:

reminds sasha of the good parts of his mom. she's very motherly towards him, and she actively works to fight against his self destructive tendencies, including refusing to give him cigarettes (and tells all the other pitt smokers not to give him any either.) the one and only time she lets him smoke is the day his mother dies.

MCKAY:

also reminds him of his mother a little, not necessarily in a bad way, but it does cause him to avoid her a little. he likes her enough and they work together fine, and occasionally he cant get out of a heart to heart with her, but he tries not to spend a lot of time around her outside of work.

JAVADI: