#sarues

Sarue: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

(OC: Date [07-10-2016] Day[Friday])

Dear diary…

Today started off… strange. Elder Sarues had been asked to deal with a squirrel problem. Said squirrels being fel tainted and had captured a Hypogryph. They departed for the mission and I followed shortly behind but was held back by the locals to assist in something else in the village. By the time I had finished I didn’t realize how long it had been. I went to track them but found the Elder fishing. He invited me to join him but fishing is hardly something I wish to do as a pass time, so I left to find the other three instead.

I arrived to see Rakeshi walk off irritated and Rassos and Aelathdrin fighting. Rassos inflicted a nasty wound to her leg and walked off shortly after. Something seemed off so I asked Miss Sunshard once we were alone and I was tending to her wound. It turns out he had insulted her and she then attacked him. As the leadership is three way I sent her to wait with the Elder whilst I gathered the other two. By doing this the Elder can give his own opinion. The situation I gathered was Rakeshi was trying to train them when a fight broke out between the two. He tried to stop it but gave up and left. I told him he should have looked for me or Sarues. As for the other two, their actions were pathetic. We are an elite warband not a squabbling group of thugs. My punishment would have been two weeks of mundane labor working with each other and a demotion. If after the two weeks they improve then they get their ranks back. If not then it goes to council. This issue is recurring and has gone on long enough. However the Elder thought I was being too harsh. He instead suggested an alternative that in my opinion had already not worked. However after my reasoning he still would not change his standing so I compromised. Aelathdrin seemed relieved by his punishment. This is not the reaction somebody should take to a punishment.

During the whole thing more people had arrived. Nivendi’en decided to raise questions about some if the things I said whilst Sarues explained how he punished the three. Nivendi’en seemed to not understand some things I said so I explained them to him again. He wrote some things down and then thanked me for something before turning his questions to Ara’ni. They spoke further about things relating to the warband such as how we are elite. I also think he implied that I should be a gladiator trainer because the things I tell the members they are elite when they are not and they will just run into combat and die with this false hope. If so then it seems to be another thing he misheard. I said we are an elite warband and I expect them to act like it. For them to show such behaviour off duty and then for me to simply say they are elite would be dishonest. If they were elite then they would act it. Right now they fail to do so off duty.

The weather is very odd in these lands. One moment it will be raining and the next it would stop. Then five minutes later it will rain again and three minutes after that it will stop. It was rather annoying so I left to go back inside to dry off. Standing outside for so long left me rather wet and I don’t need my equipment to fall into poor condition because of the rain. After I have finished with this I shall find that lake and clean anything the rain did not. After that should probably find or catch something to eat and then rest. The work the locals had me do was somewhat tiring.  

 Yours faithfully

(OC: Date [05&06-10-2016] Day[Wednesday&Thursday])

Dear diary…

Oh the issues of forgetting to do this one day…

As I recall, yesterday we went out on a mission to destroy Felstalkers and Satyrs that were corrupting druids in their sleep. Aside from part of a tree falling on me, the trip was uneventful. Once we arrived we found the cave blocked by some strange corrupted vines. Me and Taryane were tasked to see if we could cut through them. Though we had some success, Elder Sarues managed to punch his way through instead. We moved inside and searched the place, eliminating all hostile entities in our path. At one point I took two powerful blasts of shadow that sent me down hard. I remember the painful ill sensation took its time to go away.

Once we returned to base, most of the warband settled down into a game called “Truth or Dare”. The concept was simple enough and I think I have seen it before. Eventually some members from another group joined in. One of them was the strangest demon hunter I ever saw. I never imagined I would look at a demon hunter and the first thing I thought was how poor their sense of fashion was. He seemed like a stark contrast of Varo’edis who had just got to his feet causing me to leave. I remember returning once I saw him depart to hear that he had started some trouble with the other demon hunter. From what I heard Varo took offence and tried to kill him. Which didn’t surprise me.  

I never expected that day to be special in any form. But Sylvarys changed that when he asked me to marry him. At first I was just stunned. What brought we back was his cheeky assumption that I was going to say yes and that is what he expected me to do. It was amusing but his assumption was correct. How could I say no? I never had marriage on my mind. But I will stand and make those vows with dignity and pride. The ring is a beautiful purple crystal. It is something I can look at when I write. I look forward to the wedding…. Though that goes without saying.

The last thing I remember that day was a shadowmancer wishing to join the warband. At the time Sylvarys didn’t trust him but left the induction down to me. However by the time it came to it, I was tired and needed to rest from my wounds so had to leave it until the next day.

Now for today.

I was taking a rest and got up to find Rassos and Aelathdrin having an argument over who through the nuts at Rakeshi. They then went outside to spar. I followed them out of interest to see how they both thought as both could still use improvement. It was a close fight but Miss Sunshard took victory. Rassos then walked off when the fight ended. Everyone else decided to grab more nuts and wait for him to return to do… I don’t really know. It sounded stupid so I left them to it. It was raining and my hair and armour was getting wet for no reason. Upon returning, Magistrix Narindiel Windblaze arrived at the hole. She seemed to be looking for somebody though she didn’t say who. She didn’t stay long.

Sometime later Graularr wanted to practice in combat before he rested. As it had been some time since I had fought with my hands only I went with him, Rakeshi and Miss Sunshard back outside. The rain held off at first but returned part way through the fight. In the end they decided to do a free for all. My plan was to focus one person at a time and avoid being somebodies target. This plan was successful. They all fought with each other which allowed me to put Rakeshi out of the fight. Grualarr was already removed by the others leaving me to claim victory over Aelathdrin. The only attack that succeeded against me was when she pushed me so I would trip on Rakeshi on the floor. Her fight again was too easy. She is still yet to beat me in sparing on her own. But with the right training she might catch me by surprise one day.

We went back inside with Validan who had joined us. He is the ex-shadowmancer. He wants to be a mender inside of the warband and is stopped his use of the shadow to use the light. I inducted him and informed him that this is his time to earn our trust. Sometime later Taryane and Ara’ni seemed to arrive with an elf from the Firestar estate. His name from what I heard is Nivendi’en and is first born of the Firestar estate. It was very evident he was inexperienced. From what I hear, he has not been outside the lands of Quel’Thalas. Watching him slowly realize that he will not have all the luxuries of our city at his disposal was slightly amusing but to be expected. I have seen a few of my kin’s reactions to leaving our city for the first time. From what I saw, Taryane seems to be watching over him and giving him assistance and advice on things relating to being in an active warzone. I doubt his ignorance in some matters would be an issue however. Hearing him speak of his magic and just being near him were enough to tell he was a competent magi. And listening to him casually talk about how one of his students heads exploded tells me that he won’t be phased or break in combat. But I do not know them enough to judge fully. I will just have to wait and see as it seems they are staying with us.

Taryane took me aside at one point to apologize for the previous days actions. I was unsure on what she was referring to however. The only think I could think of that would maybe cause an apology was her attempts to change a topic of conversation a few days prior. But I accepted then that she can keep her privacy if she wishes and it’s not my business to pry. Of course I told her I was unsure on what she was talking about. I don’t like apologies when I don’t know the grounds for them. I thought maybe she would explain why she is but she dismissed the topic and wished me and Sylvarys well. She also will be at the ceremony. I will be happy to see her there. Maybe her thoughts will be of how I was when we first met and how I am now. Maybe she will see what her assistance did for me and where it has put me now. We both went back inside. Shortly after she left to follow Nivendi’en and I went for some rest.

These have been some excellent. And even with all that is going on I still can’t help but feel happy. I look forward to being able to share my future with Sylvarys, even if it for just a short time.

 Yours faithfully

(OC: Date [04-10-2016] Day[Tuesday])

Dear diary…

Today is a day of change. First of all during my stay in dalaran I discovered a shop that sells dyes. I saw one for blonde and though I would try the change. I actually forgot the irony involved in my choice until I saw Sylvarys for the first time with it. His first comment was obviously to point out how I must be attempting to look less shady. I had to fight the urge to not just burst out laughing there and then. So I responded with how he has gone back to his old shady ways. However the moment was short lived as I noticed the shade had returned. She wore the tabard but came with news that she was no longer the shade. The warband has been changed to a three leader system composed of Magister Sunglace, Elder Sarues and Ara’ni. The Magister made me his second to take over for if he comes to poor health. A druid also arrived to deliver a message for assistance. I had a quick word with the Magister before we left. I didn’t fail him as council and he wanted to make sure I wouldn’t fail him now. I will follow him as his second and ensure he does not fall.

We all then departed for Val’sharah. A different location to where we were before but just as green. We moved into a hole in the ground and that is where we are staying. Unfortunately my time down there was short lived. The demon hunter Varo’edis arrived. As per the Magisters request, and the type of room it was I left. I don’t what Sylvarys to have to risk himself protecting me from the hunter. I walked around and had a look at the location where we are staying. There are trees all round which could be an issue but if we stay vigilant we should avoid ambushes. I then stopped and spoke to Rakeshi. He seems to be having trouble wanting and actually sleeping. He offered to take watch all night. I reminded him that our leaders will need everyone well rested and watches should be split amongst those in the warband. The hunter approached me and requested a fight to which I declined. Once he got persistent I left the area. Again to avoid him. But accepting a fight with him would only be inviting death.

Shortly after this incident, Ara’ni called those who were willing to arms. Once we saw what we were against I would hope everyone would realize that they cannot sit idle this fight. The hunter had come into contact with what seemed to be two more of his kind that had been turned by the legion. He was outmatched by himself so we moved to assist. Having seen the capabilities of the hunters I had a concern we would lose people. However we managed to drive them off with nobody seriously wounded aside from Varo’edis. But I am told he lives so he will be fine. You have to make sure you put them down for good otherwise they are likely to get back up.

Unfortunately I took a nasty blast of fel to my face leaving me scared on my face. Luckily I was not deformed but the marks are there. However as I told Taryane and Ara’ni, it is better than being dead. Ara’ni asked if I was worried about being ugly now. But it will take more than a few scars to ruin that. Plus Sylvarys won’t mind. Whilst tending to the wounded, Taryane made me grow concerned. She seemed abnormally worried and hasty to correct what had been done to people by the hunters. She kept apologizing for the wounds I took like it was her fault. Something troubled her and I wanted to help. It was not my place to tell her what to do anymore but I requested she speaks to me. She said she would after checking on the hunter.

She returned her usual self after having time to regain her composure. But this did not discourage me from doing what I was there for. Her face didn’t show it but I knew she was troubled. I offered my assistance on whatever it is that was troubling her. However after several attempts to change the topic I decided to stop prying and instead let her know I am always there to support her when she needs it. She made sure I understood how must she appreciated the kindness I showed. It was nice to see her smile.

After that little topic was over, we just had a nice conversation about things other than killing and fighting. It was a breath of fresh air to take my mind away from all the bloodshed and just have a normal discussion. She is of the opinion that the hair suits me. I was unsure myself but I am willing to keep it for longer. It does not suit my armour but it will probably make the Magister smirk every time he sees it from our inside joke. Bringing up the topic of my hair moved us onto discussing how life can be too short to not try for the things we want. Both of us could lose our lives tomorrow not knowing the feeling of that we wanted most because we hesitated to do it. It always seems that the things you want most are the hardest things to get. She seemed happy smiling from this talk. It was nice to keep our minds off what troubled us both as individuals. It was nice to just have another moment where I could just, talk to something with no worries in mind. Our conversation shifted between topics before I went to rest and Taryane to keep watch. For now I will try to rest. But being confined down in this hole puts my mind in unease. We are trapped down here if there was to be an obstruction of any kind at the entrance. But for now it is time to rest. I won’t lose sleep over what could happen and instead rest and be ready for what will

 Yours faithfully

(OC: Date [02-08-2016] Day[Tuesday])

Dear diary…

Some light training today as I was expecting to leave for a mission. We did, had little direction but thanks to the Magisters efforts, we had an idea on where to go. We came across this Tauren on arrival. As we followed them to our objective, the higher ups trusted them less and less. Well, that’s what I gathered from listening to them. Though it seems I still need more practice.

From what I heard, it seems we were looking for a mana bomb. If we find it, then I hope nobody starts messing around with it. I think if anyone did, the shade would cut their hands off. A mana bomb isn’t a toy.

We got to where we needed to go and split into two groups. One stayed at the camp whilst the other went to scout. I was part of the group at the camp. I didn’t have the right equipment to join a scouting group. That and the three who went seem to do it more than I. I can scout, but I wouldn’t take the place of somebody who does it for a living like one of our pathfinders.

The Magister, for some reason, took this as I was pregnant and putting on weight. I assured him that I was neither. I think. Well in my line of work it would be difficult to put on weight in the way he thought I did. Also its been…two months? Since… well. I have never been pregnant but I know that I would notice something after two months.

The Magister had a lot of questions about some of my past. Most involving Esyl’mar. I assured him that everything I did in my past will stay there. And anything that comes from my past, I will be starting again with and reacting how I should have done back then. I wasn’t sure if he was trying to insult me with some of his questions, but he didn’t seem angry or showing any signs that he was in a mood to insult me. Maybe it was a test?

The prisoner arrived at the camp just before the group at the camp left to find the others. It wasn’t eventful until the end where we had to make a quick getaway to avoid capture or conflict. We all made it back to the camp and were about to start questioning the prisoner. However, the Magister took me away for something.  We arrived on a small hill where he asked me to remove the heavier parts of my armour. So I did. I had no reason to question why yet. He asked me to sit. He then covered my eyes and simply told me to listen and enjoy. At first I didn’t know what he meant. So I listened for a particular sound or something with meaning. After a while of searching, all I could hear was the quiet details of the wilderness around us. Only then did I realize that those sounds are what he meant. The sounds of peace are something I do not get to hear much anymore. It is something I fear I will not be able to hear in a long time with the threat of the legion.

I sat there and relaxed for the moments I could. During the time the Magister did something on my neck that tingled slightly. I asked him what it was and he revealed that he had given me a blue rune on my neck. He tells me it should enhance my ability to detect the use of magic around me. It will also allow him to scry and divinate me if he needs to. He thanked me for trusting him. Maybe he has realized that I won’t hate him, but trust him for what he has done. He is one of many who helped me in my darker days and that is something I respect him for, not hate. I left to go back to the others. He stayed. He must have needed time to think. We all need time to think at some point, and I can’t blame him for choosing that spot to do it. When I got back we were leaving. There was a vote made to stay or go. After heaving that the people we are looking for plan to use the weapon on undercity, I voted to stay. If the legion is coming, we can’t afford attacks on our ally’s cities before that.

After this I spoke with Gurgosh, Rak’raz and Sarues about the tournament me and Gurgosh have planned. Then I spoke with Sarues after that about his lessons in runes. Shortly after we both took our leave to rest. Well try. I sit here now wide awake. Maybe I will take next watch and try to rest after that.

Yours faithfully

(OC: Date [18-07-2016] Day[Monday])

Dear diary…

Started some training today for those who seemed to not know much about what we are facing. Though  I could give my advice so they would stand a better chance. This seems like a good idea for becoming overseer. Learning to do things like this will be helpful. Only Sarues came, but every person trained is somebody who will have more potential in combat. I gave them some advice and then practiced in combat with them. I am no demon but spars are helpful nonetheless.

During the spar Taryane walked over and later so did Sylvarys. It surprised me to see him but I tried to not let it distract me. Losing focus in combat could be fatal. Spar or not, it is a poor habit and I will not let it affect me. It was good to see him back and safe. It will also be good to see Taryane not have to worry either, or not share that worry myself.

I saw his scars again along with some shoulder guards I don’t recall seeing him wear. But he must have noticed me because he asked me what was troubling me. So I asked about his scars and he said it was the result of torture. I had been tortured myself, so it was horrid to know that he had to suffer a similar fate at a point in his life. It was sad to hear that he had also been through that sort of experience, but I didn’t imagine it was as bad as I found out later today.

Ara’ni walked over so I expressed my concerns about the lack of experience some of the members had with demons and that I did what I did today to aid with this. I also wanted to make sure that this would be brought up at some point. Obviously this backfired on me. Ara’ni now seems to think I am after her job. I tried to tell her that I was only making a suggestion and not telling her what to do but she wouldn’t listen. If I really wanted to be critical, I could have pointed out how she saw it fit to wait till the day to tell the members what we were facing, and how there had be no prior efforts to ready them for what could be our most dangerous mission yet. But I know this would have been stepping out of line. It is not my place to criticize what our leader does and does not do. It is why I ran this training instead.

Sylvarys made the suggestion that I should run the mission myself. At first I thought he was joking or mocking me because of what I said to the shade. But I soon realized that he was being serious. I would of course done this if the shade allowed it. But she seems to think that I am hesitant and not ready. Even after my multiple attempts to assure her I was. Sylvarys also made the offer that if I was successful, I would have redeemed myself as a blood knight and with my colours. I will stop at nothing to achieve these things and I will not fail to get them. However the opportunity was taken when the shade decided I was not fit. Again, it is not my place to question my leader’s choices. But I was less than happy to be around her after she made that one. Once I was no longer needed I went to retire for some rest.

As I got changed and ready, the forsaken came over and offered me his help. The offer was appreciated but I told him I was fine. I didn’t need his help. I can handle myself. In the time spent talking, Taryane had come up next to me as the Forsaken was leaving. She wished to apologize for what she said to me when we last spoke. Though she was right on some things, even if they were my past and I no longer intent to satisfy that image. I still feel she crossed a line by saying I jump into bed with men to satisfy myself. I have only ever bedded two people... One of those was not a decision I made just for self-satisfaction. The other… never should have happened. I knew I was a disgrace for allowing it even before I went to silvermoon to be corrected. I have only shame knowing that was a part of my life. I forgave Taryane. She is my friend and I would be a terrible friend if I did not forgive her after all the worse things she has forgiven me for. She even bought a wine from a local place as a gift. Admittedly it was foul. But I wasn’t going to show or share this in front of her. Plus it was the meaning that mattered.

I would have retired to rest, but I wanted to know more about Sylvarys. About his scars and the past he has to make him wish he didn’t have his life.  What I found out was awful. We both share the displeasure of torture. But he was tortured to death. Then he was given another body and fell again on another mission. Only to return to his old body. He died twice. He doesn’t wish for his life. His sanity was broken. And yet he still stands tall as magister and protector. He still fights, and guided others and sets a proper example to those who need it. He is brilliant. I understand now why Taryane took so much offence to myself and why she almost took arms against another comrade who suggested she was the one to do the torture. He has been through more than any elf should. The crimes against him were awful. But he still stands strong as an example and protector. And for that, he will always have my respect. And I will do everything I can to see to it that his life never returns to the place it once was at. As long as I breath, I will not allow one of my kin to suffer such a fate.

 Yours faithfully