#samdanddean

I was watching Supernatural today and it was the "wishing well" episode. I do not recall the exact name. But it brought back a memory to me. 

The nerdy guy with the pretty girl. He tells Sam and Dean, "You guys have it so easy" and Sam and Dean look at each other like, "Let me tell you a thing, little nerd guy".

This is happened to me approximately two years ago. I was in one of those group therapy things, with other troubled teens. It was the first time I ever told someone "I deal with depression". The first thing someone told me (bear in mind, we're suppose to be supportive) she says "You're pretty, you smile, you have it so easy. Why are you depressed?"

My reply? "I almost died when I was sixteen. I lost someone a year before that due to him literally going insane. There are days my limbs are so numb, I just can't even find the determination to get out of bed". 

The whole room had gone quiet. I looked at the girl who had challenged me and she was speechless. I then asked her "Why are you depressed?" 

Her reply. "My boyfriend of two months dumped me and I feel sad". The only thing I did was hug her. Other people were giving her dirty looks, and scoffing at her. I thought, this isn't what group therapy is about. 

This girl was sad and dealing with depression because some loser made her feel bad. I remember telling these "peers". "You might not think it's a big deal, but to her, it's everything. A few kind words can sometimes make you feel better, but one rude comment, or scoff can destroy a persons self-esteem".

The girl and I are no longer in touch, but I hope she is doing great. I never went back. 

To this day, I remember that. I know what it's like to want to stay in bed because you have no motivation. No wish to get up. 

My motivation to getting up out of bed in the morning? To help others dealing with the same thing. I am trying to do a youtube channel, but I get rather shy. I use my instagram, twitter, and blogger to help others. I learned that just because someone has it worse or less, you do not say how they feel.