#salemscreams

Only people that talk to me just want sex from me ok so i should die 😂😂😂😂😂 its ok its ok ion curr

Stop telling kids to roleplay with randos online as an alternative to ai THAT IS HOW SO MANY PEOPLE ARE GROOMED INCLUDING MYSELF GOOD LORD DO WE NOT REMEMBER AMINO PEOPLE 😭😭😭😭😭‼️‼️‼️ pls i beg of you just tell them to write fanfiction instead or do smth ANYTHING but telling them to talk with random people online ok thank you bye

Ive been thinking about if i have ADD/inattentive ADHD for awhile, they're the same thing but i think inattentive ADHD is the new term. I think its always been obvious to everyone but me. For reference i was diagnosed with autism in 2022 and i have struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember. I always just thought it was either my autism or depression making me act the way i do. Which yes that is a part of it, but the more i relate to people with ADD i realize maybe i do have it? Obviously I'm not going to self diagnose as there's no reason for me to. But my family has a history of people with ADHD, but i always was like "oh that could never be me because im not super hyperactive and i can control myself" but then i learned about ADD. Ive always struggled with functioning like since i was a kid and i think it was super obvious that i might be neurodivergent especially when i was little. I always struggled with numbers, i still do. I could never understand fractions or just anything that wasn't basic addition abd subtraction because it just overwhelemed me. I struggle with saying numbers and just processing things. I hate math and some of science because of just how overwhelming it is and no one really understands what i mean when i say that. I also have always struggled with doing things like just actually getting up and doing it. Even If i want to. Likr the concept of getting out of my comfort zone is like my version of hell. Ive always been called lazy, unoragnized, stupid because i struggle to like just get up and clean or i misplace things very easily. I can't do like just one thing at a time either, like i can't just sit and watch a movie, i need to like scroll on my phone or play roblox while doing it but also while focusing on the movie if that makes sense. Im also very forgetful but im pretty sure thats because of my PTSD and depression. Ok like another thing i do is like ill be like " ill start drawing at 11am" then 11am comes and im like "well its already here so i guess ill just wait till my computer charges all the way" then it charges and i still dont get up. Then the day ends and i feel like a failure becsuse i didn't actually do anything lol. I always have thought maybe im just like stupid lmao but now idk. Again, not trying to self diagnose i judt wanted to talk lel since thats all i rlly do on here. Is any of this relatable to anyone who maybe is diagnosed with ADD and or ADHD or even autism for that matter. Sorry if this is unreadable i struggle putting my thoughts into words often arrhgggheh ok bye.

I geniunely have never understood why I'm depressed. I have no good reason to be. I understood its a chemical imbalance or whatever the fuck but nothing has happened for that to be the case. Ok sure, i was 'abused' by my dad both mentally and sexually but both my mom and brother went through worse and they're fine. Sure, i hate school and everything about it, but thats my fault. I've never been good with numbers or being able to pay attention and i was always weird and bad at socializing. I didn't mask my autism well enough and i was geniunely just a little asshole. Yes, I'm lonely all the time but once again thats my fault. I expect people to only want to be my friend while im also a horrible person. I also push people away to see if they come crawling back. Im a generally rude and blunt person so why do i expect to have friends you fucking narcissistic ass bitch LMAO?!? Even when i see people struggling with school its because theyre less fortunate or because theyre in harder classes or maybe a burnt out gifted kid whatever, but im none of those things. I was never super smart, but i grew up okay, sure we were poor but i had food every night, we had fun and vacations and my mom did the best she could. So why am i still depressed?? Oh because i got groomed? Ok but i put myself in those situations, so again. My fault, i even acknowledged it was wrong and still kept talking to my "groomers" idk if i can even call them that because i knew better. Oh i was bullied so maybe thats why?? Sonion you weren't even physically assaulted shut the fuck up LMAO 😂😂. Oh youre sooo sad because your art sucks?? Yet you dont wanna get up and fucking practice to make it better and just wanna cry all day. I could be having the best day ever yet i still wanna kill myself or relapse. I have a good immediate family, i have a roof over my head, food everyday, an education. I have geniunely no good reason to be depressed. Yet for some reason i still hold the belief i deserve to be more depressed than some people. If someone is depressed because of something dont see as equal to my 'trauma' ill think: "thats such a stupid reason to be depressed lmao" so obviously some part of my brain thinks my trauma is valid in some regard. Maybe im just a narcissist lel idk. I wish i could just open my brain and see what the fuck is going on in there. I could do that but id die in the process realistically lel which isnt a bad thing necessarily. I think i need to start smoking again fuuuuuck. Idk bye

People will be so against alterhumans then start talking about some "do i have doe eyes?" "do i have a bunny face?" like ok bro