#saggitarious

Aries: Bob was fine and all, but he really had to die

Taurus: oh, that show. it moves too slow but I like it

Gemini: *asking questions about every single detail*

Cancer: I wanna watch the episode where hopper gets a hernia

Leo: I HATE NANCY STEVE DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER except she and Jonathan are really cute...

Virgo: *as soon as Eleven appeared* so she’s probably from that government lab and they were probably experimenting on her right?

Libra: have they tried......kicking the demogorgon

Scorpio: I feel bad for Billy. he deserves better. also he’s hot

Sagittarius: I like Bob. based on how this show is going he’s probably evil but I like him

Capricorn: if I was in this show I would be like “have fun, I’m moving to Canada”

Aquarius: *after the demodog hospital scene* best case scenario tbh

That's it. 

It's time I met the Shadow head on.

I've been having nightmares every night for the past month, this thing is haunting me and I can't seem to shake the deep seating fear that it will come back to blind me again, or worse. I'm sure Saggi' has noticed me shaking and sweating in the night, waking up in a silent panic and having to step outside to breathe. He's so sweet and quietly attentive, pretending not to notice and stir when I climb back into bed, the way he growls and curls around me in that protective way.

But he can't protect me.

I saw that in Silvermoon when he ran to help me, when the Shadow ruined my vision. So tonight I am leaving without him. I slipped a subtle sleeping potion in his tea, and once we lay down for the night and I am sure he is fast asleep, I will leave quietly. Should all go well, I will be back by morning with the Shadow's head on a stick. 

But if something happens to me, I've given Evarayn the small communications gem that Saggi' gifted me when we first met. I asked her to watch my home and if I didn't return by the afternoon that she should call him and let him know... Well. Hopefully it won't happen. That said, I strongly suspect that Evarayn will try to stop me, appealing to some sort of sisterly duty. While we have been becoming reacquainted with one another the past couple weeks, it's not enough to let her stop me. I can't live like this. I have changed so much about my body to protect myself from this Shadow, and yet I still feel so vulnerable. 

Enough is enough. 

Tonight I finish this, at any cost.