#sadangel2002

i’ve drowned myself so many times to give the world what it wants out of me. i remember when i was 9 years old and i thought this older girl in my Sunday school class was cute. i hide it very well. i couldn’t let the world know i admired the two curves that graced her chest. i drowned myself. i remember hearing the other girls in middle school giggle over their boy crushes. the vibrations “whose yours?” were thrown at me so many times only to be met with my uncomfortable silence. i drowned myself. i’m in high school now and i’ve been asked “you got a boyfriend?” so many times. the waves of truth thrash against my throat crying to be set free i just smile and say no. i drown myself.