not me Also wanting to read carter's break up letter to abby. here goes:
Dear Abby, By the time you read this letter, Luka should be safe in America and you will probably be wondering why I'm not with him. Before you go blaming yourself let me just say, it's not you, it's me - and I know even as I write this that you're going to think that's a breakup cliché, but if you could hold back your judgment for a minute, maybe you will be able to understand what I'm trying to say. Being here has changed me in ways I never imagined. It put everything in perspective! County, Gamma's death, me and you. When I think back on our last year together, everything appears hazy, muddled. And here in the Congo, everything is clear. People are suffering. I can help them. They need me. You're much stronger than you think. You don't need me, Abby. I think that at one point you convinced yourself that I was the right guy for you - reliable and stable and safe. When we were just friends it was okay. And then when we were finally together, it didn't become what either of us thought it would be. I gave you as much as I could, but it wasn't enough. There were a lot of things going on in your life that were more important, understandably - Eric's disease, your mother. Your life is complicated, and I didn't fit into that mix very well, did I. I don't know how long I'm going to end up staying here. Don't wait for me. I also want to say thank you. You are still one of the most amazing people I know. Love, Carter
