#rubi rambles

Seeing the critique and panic that circulated when it was announced (but not yet out) come around again (due to following the archiving blog) makes me sigh.

intro: persona is a declaration to the self. ruminating about the past, learning to live with it and growing to not let it define you. she shows you you’re bigger than your mistakes but also reminds you that you’re more than your accomplishments. she asks you to question yourself in attempts to better understand who you are. so you ask yourself, who the hell am i?

boy with luv is the beginning stages of falling in love. its the flutter in your stomach and the sweaty palms of your hands that comes with starting something new. its the immediate happiness you get when you see the person you love smile and you sit there and wish you could see them like that forever. there is nothing stronger.

mikrokosmos hugs you through your tears, gives you a warm blanket when you’re cold. letting you know they’re there for you and that you’re never alone. both of you shine as bright as the stars, you are each other’s moon.

make it right is your childhood best friend turned first love. no matter how long it’s been since you last heard from them, last got to feel their physical touch, the connection between you two crosses all boundaries. they’re the only person who knows the real you and for that you are eternally grateful. today, as you meet again, you will finally hold their hand and realize that they have always been your reason.

home is comfort. its the feeling of knowing that although you’re moving forward, there will always be a place with a piece of you in it. the nostalgia reassures you that when times are hard and you’re feeling empty, there is always a place for you in the world. tu casa, your home. 

jamais vu is the phone call or text you get while you cry on the cold bathroom tiles. the moment you think you can no longer continue living with such heartbreak, it gives you a sign. a warmth you thought you could never experience, reminding you of your strength. your heart beats again, you won’t give up, you’ve found your remedy.