#royality angst

Me: Nah there's angstier ships my guy

Someone: Oh?

Me: First of all: *presents Dukexiety*

Someone: Okay yeah, fair, that's a pretty angsty ship.

Me: Yes. Now, second of all. *Presents Logicality*

Someone: ...

Me: ...

Someone: Yeah you're going to have to elaborate on that one.

:keepreading:

(Let's see if the keep reading works)

Me: Gladly. Exhibit A:

Logan: All this because Patton can't get over one person?

Patton: Logan, can you stop? Please?

Me: Exhibit B:

Patton: I'm not explaining this philosophy very well... Logan, what would an actual philosopher have to say about what I'm saying?

Logan: *answers, but it makes Patton look bad*

Patton: *skips all*

Someone: Okay but how is that second one angstier than-

Me: HE ASKED FOR LOGAN'S OPINION, AND THEN CLICKED A BUTTON THAT WOULD BASICALLY BE TELLING LOGAN TO SHUT UP BECAUSE HE DIDN'T LIKE LOGAN'S OPINION

Someone: ...

Me: ...

Someone: Wait, yeah! You're right!

Me: Thank you. Also, *presents Royality*

Someone: But-

Me: Have you seen SVS and SVS Redux?

Someone: Yeah but-

Me: So let me point out something. Virgil's first appearance, what does Thomas tell Roman to do when he summons him?

Someone: Get rid of Virgil but that's Prinxiety angst not-

Me: Shhh, I'll get to the point. Okay so at the end of season 1, Virgil ducts out right? Which could mean, in a way, Roman succeeded in doing what Thomas asked him to do.

Someone: Huh... That's actually... Yeah, but, what does that have to do with-

Me: THOMAS AND PATTON GUILT TRIPPED AND GASLIGHTED ROMAN FOR DOING EXACTLY WHAT HE WAS TOLD TO DO

Someone: ...

Me: They were like:

Thomas: Roman why are you so mean to Virgil?

Patton: Yeah Roman, why are you so mean to Virgil?

Roman: *people pleaser tendencies kick in* I don't know... *confused and frustrated* Look I'm literally the embodiment of positivity and he's the embodiment of negativity, maybe that's why?

Someone: Okay, yeah, you have a point.

Me: So yeah, Roman's made to feel like a school yard bully for doing exactly what Thomas asked of him, and is like: "Alright so now I need to be friends with Virgil." And eventually he succeeds. In fact, I'm pretty sure Virgil is Roman's best friend after SVS Redux and Flirting with Social Anxiety.

Someone: True

Me: But then in comes Janus. Something else I'd like to point out about Roman, because his goals and the things he wants for Thomas are always considered selfish by Patton and unrealistic by Logan and Virgil, Roman tends to always end up playing a supporting role for someone else's argument, or completely dismissed for his own. Janus, however, actually fights for Thomas to pick what Roman wants for him.

Someone: Oh yeah! That's like, why I ship Roceit!

Me: Yes! And that's why Roman is like: "I mean, he's not all bad." But Patton is always like: "Roman how could you side with a villain?" And Roman's black and white thinking and people pleasing tendencies kick in and he's like: "You're right. If Deceit is a villain and he's one of the only people that really supports me, then there must be something wrong with what I'm doing."

Someone: Oh no...

Me: So Roman sacrifices his own goals. He sacrifices them even though Thomas admitted he wanted to go to the Callback because he felt so guilty for succeeding because Patton convinced him Janus is the bad guy.

Someone: Yeah... Yeah that's a good point... You really don't like Patton though Huh?

Me: Oh I do love Patton, he just has his moments where he reminds me of past abusers... Also Roman reminds me of people I'm really protective over and I'm basically a mix of Logan, Janus, and Remus (I don't say or do the things Remus says and does but the personality behind that is what I relate to or at least my interpretation of it) so yeah...

Someone: Oh, wow, okay.

Me: Anywho, so once Roman is completely like: "Janus is bad guy" guess what happens? That's right folks, Janus is a good guy now, and Roman is once again nothing but a school yard bully for being mean to him.

Someone: ... Hey wait, yeah!

Me: And don't get me wrong the first time I watched 'Accepting Anxiety' and 'SVS Redux' I thought Roman was being a school yard bully. Then I rewatched Sanders Sides like five or seven times since October.

Someone: Are you okay?

Me: No, but that's irrelevant. This time Patton and Thomas fail to Gaslight Gatekeep Guilt trip Roman into being nice to Janus, because it was easier for Roman to accept someone that fought against him than it is to accept someone who fights for him.

Someone: *crying for Roman*

Me: So yes. Royality is a very angsty ship. You just gotta look into it. Though I consider Roman and Patton more like a father son relationship. I can only really see Patton in a romantic relationship with Logan or Janus and I don't like Logicality so I usually ship Moceit or don't have a ship for Patton. (I make exceptions to this in AUs though.)

Someone: Okay, that has to be all of them right?

Me: ...

Someone: Right?

Me: No. *brings out Kingceit*

Someone: ...

Me: ...

I've been rewatching Sanders Sides and I have found a moment in Learning New Things About Ourselves that is noteworthy for the arc of Roman showing in both Roman and Virgil and Patton and Roman's relationship.

Roman- It never stopped you before.

“Roman, please get better soon” -Patton

"The only thing worse than a hater

The only thing worse than a hater

Is a traitor, is a traitor

A traitor

You put the knife right in my back

Killed any history we had

Now it's war

War"

- Traitor by Daughtry

The sky was blue, the easter was a cool respite from the hot summer air, the music was great, and Patton was absolutely miserable.

He was on his knees, sobbing into his hands and the bouquet of flowers he had yet to set in front of him. His body shook violently and he could feel himself losing balance and collapsing, so he set a hand on the marble stone in front of him. It was cold, colder than the heart of God, Patton thought.

"If you were here on this day, my love," he spoke to the engraved words on the headstone, "you would pull me to my feet and we'd dance, for you have always loved the spring."