Made a companion piece for my fic, which you can read on AO3 over here!
It was based off of this ask by @the-passenger-if
EDIT: I FORGOT TO LINK THE FIC OOPS
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Made a companion piece for my fic, which you can read on AO3 over here!
It was based off of this ask by @the-passenger-if
EDIT: I FORGOT TO LINK THE FIC OOPS

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Newman: *ends up accidentally joining a cult after telling Roach no cults*
Roach:
Well, tumblr ate the ask, but! @dep-yo-tee sent a prompt several months ago for âI canât feel your heartâ. Finally wrote a drabble for it with Judas and Roach. 250 words.
âI canât feel your heart.â
Roach shifts under you, jostling your head where it lays on their chest as they sit up slightly. You shift too, just enough to meet their gaze. Theyâre smiling slightly, hair more of a mess than usual, skin wrinkling at the corners of their amber eyes.Â
âWould you like to?â They quirk an eyebrow. You raise an eyebrow back. They wink.Â
They lay back once more, closing their eyes, breathing out a slow breath. You settle down against their chest, ear pressed over the spot their heart should be. Something inside them shifts, and then thereâs a steady ba-dump of a heart. You close your eyes too, immersed in the sounds of Roachâs breathing, their heart. Their scent. Their warmth. It's relaxing. Soothing.Â
The beating stops after a few minutes. The breathing keeps going, though. Roach relaxes, releasing tension you didnât realize they were holding.Â
âEldritch beings donât exactly have circulatory systems.â They say from above you, the air from the words puffing against your hair. You give a hm in response. âI lost the habit of keeping it beating a few centuries or so ago, and havenât bothered with it since.â
You consider what they said, thinking back to your old form. True form, you remind yourself. If you had something humans would call a circulatory system, you never noticed it. Too lost ever in the hunt.
Strange, that you would know this form, this casket, better than you knew the one that came before.
art block canât hold back my love from this BUG BOYâ€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž
My Newmanâs true form with a little roach floating around in that void juice with them

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Not to sound my age or anything, but âThe Passengerâ IF game confused the shit out of me at first, because I didnât realize it was set in 1997, and kept thinking things like âwhy the fuck is Jonny delivering a phone message for Roach, why arenât they just texting Newman??â and âwow video stores still exist?â Now that I know, I am now in a limbo of, âthese characters are only 3-5 years older than meâ and âJonny is 10 years older than my mom, should I be calling him sir??â
Also I keep hearing that Kevin guy from TT going âbut you have to rememberâit was the 90s!â everytime they do some 90s shit like going outside or watching VHS or being a chainsmoker (and not a vape in sight!)
Playtime
Roach and Elodie try to watch a movie
I am an absolute moron who forgot to actually link the fic I wrote, so here it is AND now you can read it here on Tumblr if you want.
Here's the AO3 link if you'd like to read it there or leave a comment
  âJonnyâs gonna be so pissed about this.â
  Despite that, the air around Roach had an excited charge. Elodie couldnât help but think they wanted to get caught, just for the thrill of it.
  She switched off the lights to her bike and walked it into the alley behind Hellbenderâs. Roach had teased her mercilessly for it, but she refused to bring it inside the store without Jonnyâs permission. Breaking into their friend's workplace was one thing, but that didnât mean she would be rude about it.Â
  âI would be more worried about Mrs. Bender, honestly,â she said as she killed the engine. She flinched when Roach gave her a final squeeze before they hopped off. Â
  âIâve never met her âfore, whatâs she like?â
  Her mind was buzzing, but she tried to focus on their question. âPractical. The kind of person who wouldnât tolerate our kind.â
  âFree spirits?â
  âAliens,â she corrected. She slid off her bike, already feeling more grounded with it between them. âI cannot imagine her without a wooden spoon in her hand and a cowering priest at her feet.â
  Roach leaned forward, eyes wide. âWhat?â
  Her lip twitched as she fought a smile. Mrs. Bender had been a key member of St. Georgeâs two churches, along with every other church, mosque, and temple between the Burrow and Waynesboro, at one point or another. She had a strong mind with stronger opinions on faith and death and morality that challenged the most robust religious leader. Â
  This would inevitably lead to a cataclysmic debate between them and Mrs. Bender, something the leaders looked forward to with the same enthusiasm their predecessors had for the Age of Enlightenment. Afterwards, she would pick up her things and leave; but not after she had integrated herself into every committee and had become the cornerstone of the community. When her new altar buddies and charity drivers couldnât convince her to stay, more often they would leave with her until she amassed enough bodies to start her own religious movement to challenge the Pope himself. The absolute chaos left behind could destroy a smaller congregation (and probably had).
  She was kind of Elodieâs hero.
  âShe is just a force of personality. Forget I said anything.â
  Roach huffed, but didnât pursue it. Elodie shuffled deeper down the alley where she knew the side door was. A sudden tug at her sleeve nearly made her jump out of her skin.
  Christ, how do they do that?! Â
  Roach looked up at her through their blond eyelashes, the picture of innocence. âWhere ya goinâ? Weâre usinâ the front door like always.â
  She opened her mouth, ready to snap that they didnât have a key, before she remembered who she was talking to and closed it. Her body gave a jolt when their fingers brushed against her wrist, and cursed this casket for how responsive it was to every damn touch. In the dark of the alley, the only light shone from Roachâs golden eyes and the occasional glint of their teeth. So it killed her that the only thing she could see with any clarity, was that smugass grin of theirs when they felt her thrumming heartbeat.Â
  Theyâre going to give me hell for this later, she thought as Roach tugged her along, ignoring how eager she felt at the thought.
  Standing at the storefront, Roach finally released her to pat down their pockets. She rubbed her wristâ it felt like it was on from where they touched itâ as she tried to piece together the reason for this charade. As Roach turned out their pockets, they seemed to feel her eyes on them, and gave the tiniest of jerks towards the corner of the store. Her eyes followed and immediately understood.
  âOh how embarrassing,â Roach sighed melodramatically. âhere I had this whole thing planned and I forgot the dang key.â
  She rolled her eyes but played along. âOh nooo. What should we dooo? Now the evening is ruined.â
  âNoo!â They placed a hand to their forehead in a mock faint against the window. âThis cannot be!â They snuck a glance at her, but she was quick to cover her face with a hand. She definitely wasnât hiding from their gaze; it was just that their theatrics were so over-the-top it gave her secondhand embarrassment. Â
  Then she heard Roach snap their fingers. It didnât sound like it was to get her attention but she peeked anyway. To her relief their gaze wasnât on her but on the door handle as they jiggled it. A moment later they pushed the door open, and the clattering of the welcome bells greeted the two.
  They dusted off their hands with a satisfied look. âWeâll ainât that lucky. Someone musta forgot to lock the door when they left.â
  âWhaaat? But Jonny didnât even know we were coming here.â
  âNope, no sir. Jonnyâs a model employee and it mustâve been someone else like, uh,â Roach gestured at her.
  âLike that Danny.â
  âLike that Danny, exactly! So much makeup, like a raccoon, yâcanât trust them types.â Roach gave her a wink before they went in.
  She shook her head and smiled. With a parting glance at the beeping security camera, she followed.
  Without Jonny, they were once again cast into darkness. Normally the trio had to hold hands while he guided them around the displays, with the occasional detour towards the movie shelves to pick up something to watch. Elodie wasnât sure how to feel about coming into contact with Roach again without a third party present.Â
  âNow just remind me: you canât see in the dark, right?â
  âNo, Roach,â she sighed. âI am at your mercy.â
  A self-satisfied hum escaped them as they tapped two fingers against their lip. âI like the sound of that.â
  Thank God itâs so dark. They canât see me blushing, oh God can they see me blushing? FUCK.
  Elodie let out a huff and shoved them. âJust lead, this was your dumb idea.â
  Her hand hovered over their shoulder, just for a moment that she was sure they would not have noticed. Finally she placed it down and pinched the fabric of their hoodie. She was about to give them the go ahead when she emitted a surprised squeak.
  Roach huffed a laugh as one of their hands entwined with hers. âYou gotta stay close luv, otherwise yâmight trip. Itâs for safety. You understand, right?â
  They invited her into their personal space with the slightest of tugs, and damn it if she didnât hate how compliant she was. It was a straight shot to the breakroom, but dammit if Roach seemed to walk slow on purpose. But if she pushed them to go faster, that would mean putting her body even closer to theirs. So she settled for muttering death threats to them the entire trek, just loud enough for Roach to hear and laugh at.
  Which was definitely not what she wanted. It was just a coincidence how their laugh made her feel.
  Roach entered the breakroom first and flipped the light switch. Elodie blinked at the sudden change and slid out of their grasp while Roach made a beeline for the rows of VHS tapes. Elodie had been to Hellbenderâs Videos every night for the past week, but she still needed to prepare herself each time before she entered. Movie posters covered every inch of the walls, a colorful cacophony of faces. The eyes stared in all directions, but something about them itched her skin â loathe as she was to admit it, she disliked the thought of them watching her. She took a deep breath and followed.
  âDid you find your wish?â she asked.
  âWell thatâs one way to put it,â Roach said as their hand flicked through the rows of tapes and the other fidgeted with their lighter. âYou gotta poetâs soul inside of ya?â
  âI hope not,â she said as she sat on the ground. Sheâd used the couch once this past week and swore sheâd never make a mistake like that again. âItâs crowded enough inside here without something else.â
  Roach let out a snort and squatted to check the bottom rows. *flick flick flick*Â
  âDammit, I donât see any Divine stuff here.â
  âHow do you know when a movie is divine?â
  âWhen John Waters directs it.â *flick flick*Â
  âDoes he water or direct the movie?â
  âCuteâ they pulled out a cigarette and lit it. âIâll check the front. Maybe they finally got an NC-17 section.â
  Elodie snorted. St. George was built on Catholic guilt and a paralyzing fear of sexuality; it'd be more likely to meet a unicorn than for a sex section in Mrs. Benderâs store.
  Roach stepped around her â she tried to trip them but dammit they were too slippery â and said, âBack in a flash.â
  She craned her neck to watch them as they disappeared into the darkness, the light at their lips her only way to track them. It was when they disappeared around a corner did a thought strike her.
  She wanted to play.
  The thought jolted her to her feet. Where did that come from? She didnât âplayâ, not as a human and especially not before; there was only the hunt, the chase, the feast. She bit her thumb and began to pace. Yes, there were occasions sheâd intentionally prolong a hunt â but that felt too dissimilar. Those were intellectual exercises, where no pleasure was derived from it. How did the prey react to this stimuli, how did they fight back if this happened? It was done in preparation for the next hunt. There was always another hunt.
  She bit down harder on her nail. Another Earth thing, then. Another thing no doubt connected to glands and hormones that she was grateful to lack in her true form. But that didnât explain why. Why did she have this compulsive need toâŠto mess with Roach? To tease and push and to have them respond in kind?
  She had a vague recollection of someone mentioning other creatures that did that â cats specifically â where they would play with their food, give them a moment of hope before they dashed it away. But that didnât sit well with her; she didnât want to hurt Roach, but instead wanted to hear them laugh. She shuddered at the thought. Theyâre supposed to be prey, but they donât feel like that anymore. Thatâs a problem. Â
    And the word itselfââplayââ evoked such strong memories: Melanie as she begged for one more game of dolls; Carmen McCarthy as she challenged her to a race; fucking Andrew and that stupid rubber band gun of his before she snapped it over her knee. But none of these felt right. Those had never interested her then and they didnât interest her now; besides, those sort of games would likely bore Roach to tears.
  She finally stopped her pacing. Her jaw finally relaxed, and the pressure on her thumb sighed in relief. Ah, so that is it. This was definitely the casketâs doing. This stupid, confusing, confounding thing that dared to make demands at all hours of the day. She remembered the horror at the realization that she wasnât the master of this casket so much as its prisoner. It would react and respond without her consent, and when she finally had to concede that total control of it was as likely as stopping this planetâs rotation. This had to be another example of that, there was no other explanation. It had grown bored with human-made games, and craved the stimulation that only another one of their kind could create.
  She looked around the cramped room, and her eyes rested on one of the multiple movie posters. A girl hugged a dog, surrounded by more. Something triggered in her memories, a new word floated and with it was an image so strong she wasnât certain if it was a forgotten memory or not.
  She and Livvy were at the Burrow â it had to be the Burrow because St. George didnât have a pet shop, but she couldnât fathom why theyâd be there without Mom. She looked at their interlocked fingers and followed it up to her sisterâs face. Ah, this mustâve been in grade school; Livvy has that awful perm cousin Camilla gave her. Â
  Then a high pitched sound drew Elodieâs attention back to the store window. On the other side was a litter of puppies.
  It was a moving mound of colorful fur as they clamored over each other. They tussled and pawed at each other as gleeful yips could be heard through the glass.
  âTheyâre fighting,â Elodie had said.
  âNah squirt, theyâre just roughhousing,â Livvy responded. âPlaying.â
  âReally,â she said with all the cynical skepticism she could muster. She shook her head as one of them nipped a floppy-eared oneâs nose. âI get in trouble whenever I play like that.â
  Livvy laughed. âThatâs âcause youâre too rough, squirt.â
  âIsnât that just what roughhousing is?â
  âNah kiddo, itâs just another kind of playing.â
  âAnd how do they know when itâs supposed to be for real and when itâs not?â
  âThey just do, squirt.â
  âBut how?â
  Livvy opened her mouth then closed it. She had that thoughtful look she got whenever she was serious and wanted her words to mean more than they did. People said Elodie would get the same look on her face, but she doubted it. There was no way for this small human to ever compare to her.
  A noise on the other side of the window pane drew Elodieâs attention away from her sister. The Nose Biter had lost interest in Floppy Earâs face and had redirected its attention to chasing the otherâs tail.
  Just as Elodie was about to congratulate it on learning which end was the dangerous one, Nose Biter got ahold of Floppy Earsâ tail, and bit down hard enough for the latter to let out a cry. Immediately the rest of the litter backed away from the two and the shopkeeper appeared to separate them.
  Livvy pointed. âThere. Thatâs how they know.â
  The shopkeeper patted and soothed the pup with love-words before they placed it back down. They waved at the girls and gestured for them to come in, but Livvy gave a smile and shook them off. They left, and Elodie looked up at her sister as she waited for her to continue her thought. But Livvy shook her head.
  âJust watch, squirt. Itâll make sense pretty soon.â
  Elodie turned back to the pups. Nose Biter has wobbled on its bowlegs back to Floppy Ears, who seemed a touch more cautious than before. Nose Biter raised a paw up, hovering in front of the other; then Floppy Ears barked and tackled it to the ground.
  âSee? He was a little more careful and asked if they could still play.â
  âBut they didnât say anything!â
  âYes they did. They asked in puppyspeak is all,â she pointed as Nose Biter got off its back and began to spin around. âNow heâs saying âchase me! chase me!â And look, now theyâre friends again.â
  âSquirt, I get that sometimes itâs hard to know this kinda stuff. All you gotta do is listen to the other person's words and body. The more you play, the easier it gets.â
  âFound it!â
  Elodie nearly jumped out of her skin, and yanked out her thumb with a hiss. She glanced down and noticed a droplet of blood bloom where her incisor had been. She quickly wiped it off on her jeans and poked her head out of the break room. A flash of movement by the counter drew her attention, and a moment later Roachâs face appeared.
  âWhat are you doing over there?â she asked.
  When they grinned the cigarette wobbled between their teeth and momentarily flared, and bathed their face in an orange glow. They lifted something above their head and shouted,  âHad âem all in a box labeled âTrash for Roachâ! Can you believe it? Jonny loves me!â
  âAre you sure?â
  âTrust me, I know these movies like the back of my hand.â
  âI meant about Jonny loving you, but okay.â
  Roach blew a raspberry at her. âYouâre no fun.â The glow from the cigarette had begun to fade, and left Elodie literally in the dark. She could follow what remained of the light as Roach tucked it behind their ear, but it had shrunk so much it was little help. Roach climbed on top of the counter, box under one arm, and tried to hop over the counter. Â
  Keyword: tried. Not only did they misjudge just how high the counter was compared to their lilâ legs, they seemed to have immediately forgotten the lit cigarette until it caught part of their hair on fire. They wildly hopped from foot to foot, desperate not to crush the scattered VHS tapes while they tried to put out their hair.
  Elodie leaned against the doorframe and watched their act with a critical eye.  Theyâre doing this on purpose, but why?
  Was this another attempt at humor? Was this that slapstick thing they and Jonny tried to explain before she tuned them out? Roach was durable and could withstand some serious injury without a problem, but there wasnât a shock factor when you knew why. And Elodie knew; but that meant she wasnât impressed by Roachâs stuff, and they should have grown bored by her lackluster reactions. So why put in the effort? Was it supposed to be some sort of signal, a clue she hadnât noticed?
  She walked off to the supply closet and grabbed the vacuum. When she returned, Roach had (miraculously) put it out without any burns or charred hair. What luck.
   She followed the light of their eyes and could make out their crouched silhouette, as those golden eyes looked up at her in a clear pout. âYou coulda helped, yâknow.â
  âWhat, and miss the show?â She unraveled the cord and began to feel around the wall. âWhere is the nearest outlet?â
  They gave a vague gesture in her general direction. âIâunno, somewhere around there, I think.â
  âRoach, I know you can see. Just tell me already.â
  âWhat, and miss the show?â
  âI could eat you, you know. Right here and now.â
  âPromise?â
  She snorted. âAss.â
  âAnd a damn fine one too.â
  Together they managed to do a passable job cleaning the mess, with only a small amount of grumbling. On the taxing ten-yard trek back, Roach had graciously decided to look past her âbetrayalâ.
  âNext time though I wonât be so forgiving.âÂ
  âIs that a threat?â
  âWhat? Nooo, never,â they batted their lashes and held up a VHS tape. âReady to have your life changed?â
  âBy the divine?â
  âBy the Divine.â
  âThatâs what I said!â Roach laughed as she shoved him, a strange comfort settling in her stomach. Yes, I was definitely right. Itâs the casket that desires their company, not me.
  Livvy had always been âa gentle soulâ as their Mom would say; whenever the two played any sport, she would move with a delicate nervousness that made any serious game impossible. Elodie had never been sure if it was out of fear of Elodie hurting her or of Livvy hurting her. The thought would have amused her if it hadnât frustrated her growing up.
  And their cousins learned to give Elodie a wide berth ever since she dislocated one of their shoulders. Only fucking Andrew seemed ready to play rough â but it was Andrew and itâd be a cold day in Hell before she willingly sought out his company. Â
  Elodie returned to her spot on the floor as Roach pushed the play button. When they saw her, they raised an eyebrow.
  âThere is a couch, y'know. Itâs right there behind ya.â
  She glanced over her shoulder. âWell Iâll be damned. So there is.â
  âSo?â Roach asked as they plopped in their usual spot in the middle. They patted the cushion next to them, but she shook her head.
  âI like being comfortable, thanks.â
  âKilljoy.â
  âI donât even knowââ but Roach hushed them as the credits played. They slid down beside her, and the sudden closeness made her crinkle her nose at the smell of burnt hair and fabric.
  Roach turned, no doubt to share some trivia, but stopped when they saw her face. They cocked their head to the side, a question on their lips. Elodie scooted an inch away from them, as she dusted some of the ash off their shoulder.
  Their eyes widened. âOh! Oh man, sorry âbout that. Here, gimme a second.â immediately the room was filled with the familiar scent of honey and cinnamon, the same they sold at the bakery that made her mouth water without fail. Roach smiled. âBetter?â
  She nodded and tried to think past the onslaught of hunger the shift in scents had caused. Roach seemed to realize the mistake and quickly changed again, first to a fresh carpet smell then to pinewood then a dizzyingly strong bleach.
  She pressed a hand to her temple at the abrupt changes. âStop. The real is fine, just stop already.â
  âSorry, sorry! Tryna land on a neutral smellâs harder than it looks!â Â
  It was a relief when the smell of nicotine and burnt shit returned. It took a few minutes more before the throbbing behind Elodieâs eyes finally subsided, not helped by the fact that some girl in the movie had the nasalliest Baltimore accent sheâd ever heard.
  When she finally opened her eyes, Roach watched her with a contemplative gaze.
  âWhat?â She snapped. But they just gave her a hollow smile.
  âNothinâ. Donât you worry âbout a thing, Elodie,â they pointed to the screen. âLook, weâre âbout to hit a classic scene, you gotta watch.â
  Elodie let out a frustrated hiss. She moved in front of the TV screen just as Dawn Dvenport threw her mom into the Christmas tree. A cacophony of peopleâs screams and the eerie silhouette gave just the right effect. She looked over Roach, all previous playfulness gone.
  âTell me Roach, before I get mad.â
  They smiled, but it was spread a little too thinly to look natural. The way their body froze when theyâd been so animated a moment ago was also a giveaway.
  âEllie, thereâs no need to go all scarechord on me. Ya just gotta ask nicely is all.â
  âI am,â she gave a grin that was all teeth. âSo spill.â
  They smiled back. âYou wonât like the answer.â
  âRoach.â
  âAight,â they shrugged nonchalantly. âI was just thinkinâ how funny it was, how fragile humans are and, well, how human your reaction was, is all.â
  She stared at them, dumbfounded. That wasnât the answer she expected. Roach rolled their eyes.
  âLook, can you move now? The sex sceneâs coming up and itâs actually got some real good camera work and effects, and Iâd like to watch it.â
  Elodie complied and returned to her seat next to them, blind to everything but her thoughts.
  A part of her screamed that this was a ruse, a blatant coverup of the truth with an insecurity for her to chew over. And dammit, it worked.
  Because humans are so, so delicate. Sheâd known that since sheâd dislocated her cousinâs shoulder; when she joined track and swimming, and learned how painfully slow these creatures were. If she went as fast as she desired, itâd destroy this casket. Itâd take so little effort for her to destroy everything around her and she couldnât afford that kind of recklessness. She could never be all that she wanted without exposing what she was.
  She looked at Roach with newfound respect. Theyâre dangerously clever. How intoxicating.
  Flick flick flick
  The lighter was out again, something for Roachâs hand even as their foot tapped with the melody. Perhaps they were nervous after that encounter. Or maybe it was the usual Roach-chitters. A sexy sax played over Dawn Davenportâs illustrious start as a career girl when they finally fished out their cigarette packet.
  âHey, is that âMabel Mabelâ thing a real jump rope rhyme?â they asked as they tried to shake one out. Why they seemed against using their hands sheâd never know.
  â...Yeah,â she said cautiously. Were they going to mention her shift in mood? Did they care? Did it matter? âLiv and her friends used to sing it, but I think it went out of style by the time I was in school.â
  âHm. What kinda rhymes did you ân your friends sing?â they twirled the cigarette between their fingers as they watched her.
  She frowned. âI wasnât much for those kinds of games.â
  Roach snorted. âSure you werenât.â
  âItâs true though.â she tried not to cringe. Even to her own ears it sounded whiny.,
  That made them laugh, and dammit if that didnât immediately lift her mood, even if their words didnât. âHey, donât get all pouty on me, I was just askinâ.â
  Pouty? Her? She was an interdimensional creature larger than anything on this planet, incomprehensible in form and in thought. She did not pout.
  But theyâre teasing again, so theyâre not mad anymore, right? They wouldnât push if they thought it was dangerous.
  There it was again. That familiar rush, the intoxicating idea of âplayingâ with Roach, even if that meant a few hits to her pride. She shifted to face them and balanced on the balls of her feet. She had to try.
  âAre you really having another one already?â
  Her question came just before the lighter reached the cigarette. The look of Roachâs pursed lips and surprised look brought her more satisfaction than it probably should have. Their eyes crossed as they tried to look at it between their lips, then took it out to properly examine it. They gave a performative show of tapping their chin, almost as if in thought.
  âWell, I was planninâ on just staring at âem all lovey-like, but I like your idea better.â Â
  âYou just had one. I donât want Liv asking me if Iâve been smoking. Itâs annoying.â
  âAww, poor you. Not my problem though.â the second their eyes went back to the lighter, Elodie pounced.
  ââ Do you always have to badger me for attention?â
  ââ MABEL MABELâ-â
  ââ Goddammit, Taffy!â
  Elodieâs hand shot out to grab the packet just as Roach bucked their hips and threw her off. She grabbed their wrist and managed to pin them from behind, but Roach continued to squirm and buck like one of those mechanical bulls down at the bar. One of Roachâs arms freed itself and tried to drag themselves out just as Elodie pulled it back. She released it the second she realized the packet wasnât there, and focused on trying to pry it from their other hand. Roach let out a bark of a laugh so sudden it gave her momentary pause.
  âOh so thatâs what weâre doing!â they said with an edge of excited panic.
  Maybe they were more nervous than I thought.
  But it was too late to back down. Now it was an all-out war for the nicotine packet. The struggle lasted the rest of the scene in Dawnâs apartment, and the entirety of Hellbenderâs break room. Roach managed to get to their feet and somersault Elodie onto her back, then made a break for the door, when her hand shot out for their ankle and dragged them down. She climbed onto them as they tried to roll away, but was once again pinned between her and the couch.
  Elodie gave a triumphant shout and wrapped an arm around them, clinging to the couchâs foot. Roach was trapped for sure this time. They desperately tried to keep the packet out of her reach, but their lack of mobility made it childâs play. She wrapped her legs around one of theirs as she reached up, and felt her fingers barely brush the cardboard box. The more Roach tried to pull back, the more it crumpled and she thought to herself, Iâll win whether I get it or not. Iâm brilliant.
  She grinned in triumph at the sight of the now-crushed packet as it fell from Roachâs grasp and into her waiting clutches. âAh-ha! Got you!â
  ââ You have to audition to even get your hair done.â
  â â And thereâs this guy who does hair there⊠Mmm-mm!â
  Then her mind finally caught up with the rest of her. She relaxed herself back to the ground and realized how intertwined the two of them were. There wasnât a hairâs width of space between them, made all the more noticeable by how heavy she panted for air and the hammering of her heart.
  ââIâd suck the socks off of him in a minute.âÂ
  Oh no. Elodie squirmed, she needed to disentangle herself from Roach, but her head was too full of noise. It was like every part of her body needed to let itself be known where it was in proximity to them, like the hand that was around her or how their thumb was hooked in one of her belt loops.
  Meanwhile, Roach looked completely at ease as they rested their head on her arm. And here I thought I was being so cleverâ FUCK. What is going on in this movie, why is there so much moaning all of a sudden?!
  âLooks like you caught me,â they practically purred. Their eyes were two black pools, the shine of their strange eyes reduced to a shimmering ring.
  Elodieâs mouth suddenly felt very dry. She gulped, and prayed they didnât take that as a sign of weakness. âYup.â
  But that was enough to break whatever stupor sheâd been in, and she began to wiggle away. But with every inch she tried to put between them, Roach was quick to close it again.
 ââ Donât you look hot today!â
  â â Why thank ya, honey. I feel more,â the actress let out a steamy moan and felt herself up. âcomfortable.â
  âThe hell is even happening?â she asked, eager to distract. This doesnât count as running away, she told herself. This was merely a sign of respect, it was standard protocol of the human game of âroughhousingâ. Iâm not afraid of something like Roach.
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