#rivalnumberbrett

( brett ; )

she was prepared to completely ignore the voice that was trying to wake her but, it was insistent & it quickly became clear she was going to have to at least answer the voice if she planned on going back to sleep anytime soon.  it was when she opened her eyes that she realized it wasn’t her bedroom she was in, wasn’t her bed she was in and what’s worse ? 

she knew exactly whose bedroom she was in, knew exactly whose bed she was in

brett’s. 

her sleep-hazy, wide eyes confirmed her fears when they found brett’s staring at her, a million questions in his eyes. she gaped for a few moments, heart thudding in her chest so loud she swore brett could hear it banging away as she tried to figure out what the hell she was doing in brett, of all people’s, bed. 

she ran a hand through her hair, looking around the still so familiar room, breathed in the still so famliar scent on the blankets, in the air for god sakes and kind of hated herself for the way it calmed her down. brett wasn’t pack, wasn’t even her friend, his scent shouldn’t calm her like it did..so why did it. she was going to have to ask deaton because there was no way in hell she was asking scott or stiles. 

lulu’s green eyes finally found their way back to brett’s and she shrugged, 

( so idk if you wanted all the texts or if the hearts were for the affectionate messages but i love you lots so i gave you them all )

2 am text ; 

( text ; captain brett ) ; can’t sleep, want to come pick me up, get some practice in ?

unsent text ; 

( unsent text ; do not call him ) ; i miss you so much, i don’t think you even know how much life sucks without you but, it really, really does. i’m sorry i screwed everything up, i’m sorry i didn’t listen to you. mostly, i’m sorry i hurt you. i wish i could just talk to you. i’m just so sorry. 

threatening text ;

( text ; do not call him ) ; if you ever threaten anyone in my pack again, i’ll be the one breaking you in half, got it ? 

lusty/loving/affectionate text ; 

( text ; brett ) ; i know how scary things can get after what you went through. if you ever want to talk or just need someone to be there, you can call me, i’ll be right there or you can even come here. no strings attached.

drunk message ; 

( brett ; )

it wasn’t that long ago that brett was telling her the exact opposite. she could still remember that awful expression on his face, that mix of betrayal, anger & so much hurt that it had broken her heart on sight. the fact that it had been all her fault, all her crazy, stupid fault had only made it so, so much worse. she remembered begging him to understand, remembered him shoving her away when she had tried to explain, his eyes that she had known so well closed off to her. vividly, she remembered running home, barely making it inside before she had collapsed under the weight of her own guilt, self-loathing & heartbreak. his harsh shout rung in her ears, nearly drowning out his more recent statement and she swallowed against a sudden lump in her throat, 

‘ i know that, i know that now. i’m just not sure if you..if you really know that. but, i’m happy with myself for the first time in a long time so, i don’t need you to lie to me or pity me or whatever you’re doing. i’m fine with who..with what i am. 

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[ text ] i was watching him play 

[ text ] and holy shit man 

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