#ripbabe

Found my high school and junior high yearbooks when I opened a box today. Jerry’s page made me smile. He summed us up really well. #ripbabe #jerbear #bffs https://www.instagram.com/p/B_vYs34pZj3/?igshid=1jufwmvkkaosn

Today is Jerry’s funeral, and it’s a very sad day. It’s also when those he loved and who loved him can reflect on what he meant to each of us. Miss you, friend. Love you forever. #jerbear #ripbabe (at Travis-Noe Funeral Home) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8ttJZHJiVs/?igshid=mq3iwhqwfc50

Once upon a time in a very small town in northeast Missouri, a girl and a boy became best friends. He was three years older. She played flute. He played Baritone Saxophone. They shared a lot of laughs and inside jokes and hugs and giggles and silliness and good times on band trips. She teased him, and he would have pulled her pigtails if she’d had any. Over the years, they grew apart, but the friendship remained as only those formed in childhood can. Today, the fairy tale friendship ended, and Jerry passed from this world to the other. The girl is sad, and the memories will last forever. Love you, Jer Bear. Thank you for being you and loving me so fiercely. #jerbear #ripbabe #stopleavingme https://www.instagram.com/p/B8e2LXcpXOQ/?igshid=1lcsvqt6a1n5o

I have been trying to avoid today. I slept most of it. I didn't to be bothered today. I just want to stay in bed forever & make this all so away. This month has been the worst with losing someone ALMOST year since you left us. I can't do this anymore. I just want you back here babe. I have so much to say to you & talk about. I miss you so damn much. 6 long horrible years without you. I am so broken. I am so lost, I am so confused, I'm so empty. I miss you terribly. I miss everything. I miss us. I miss you. Thank you for being our Angel but I would rather you here with us. I love you more then anything. #RipBabe #RIPTommy #RIPThomasBobala #RIPTomTom #IMissYou #ComeBack #ForeverInMyHeart #ForeverYoung #ILoveYou #HeavenNeedsToSendYouBack #INeedYouMoreThenHeaven #MyAngel #MyBabe #MyTomTom #TomTom #AjsDaddy #Lost #MissYou (at West Springfield, Massachusetts) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxlX5nSJ6Jw/?igshid=10dpov7ei9hd5

I have been trying to avoid today. I slept most of it. I didn't to be bothered today. I just want to stay in bed forever & make this all so away. This month has been the worst with losing someone ALMOST year since you left us. I can't do this anymore. I just want you back here babe. I have so much to say to you & talk about. I miss you so damn much. 6 long horrible years without you. I am so broken. I am so lost, I am so confused, I'm so empty. I miss you terribly. I miss everything. I miss us. I miss you. Thank you for being our Angel but I would rather you here with us. I love you more then anything. #RipBabe #RIPTommy #RIPThomasBobala #RIPTomTom #IMissYou #ComeBack #ForeverInMyHeart #ForeverYoung #ILoveYou #HeavenNeedsToSendYouBack #INeedYouMoreThenHeaven #MyAngel #MyBabe #MyTomTom #TomTom #AjsDaddy #Lost #MissYou https://www.instagram.com/p/BxlTKFYpZQP/?igshid=geyt01z0e5nh

Missing uu everyday of my life💯💔😪Wishing uu were here even just for a minute💯😭I miss the little things we used to do...it es so hard sometimes to just live...breathe...think..love.💔😞😥without uu all I ever think abt es what we could've been. I Love Uu Joshuah Alexander Pardon 💔💯😘 #RIPBabe #1stLove September 25, 2001🕓-💔August 7th, 2013 (at I Miss You)

sublimes Bradley Nowell, love of my life.

I miss playing with our cat in the apartment. I miss sitting in the dark watching ridiculous scary movies he downloaded to keep me up all night. I miss the adventures we went on. I've never had a boyfriend that I did so much with. All the traveling and exploring we did. Climbing mountains. Exploring caves. Cave diving. Snorkeling in springs. Sitting on top of waterfalls. Driving until we ran out of gas in the middle of no where. Doing homework together. Getting drunk off wine together. When I'd come home from work and he'd have a wonderful 3 course meal cooked, or even a shitty frozen pizza, and we'd talk about our days. I miss fucking arguing with him. I miss screaming at him and him having to push me out the door way so I wouldn't leave. I miss everything about him. I miss the fancy dinners and late night McDonald's runs for ice cream. I miss grocery shopping with him. I miss shopping at the pet store with him. I miss when we'd go to the mall together and he'd buy me something I liked that I decided to put down. I miss driving his car, even with the problems it had. I miss bringing him lunch on my days off, and how big his smile would be when I pulled in. I miss how he used to get so excited to see me when we hadn't seen each other all day. How he'd jump out of bed to give me a huge hug and kiss. I miss when he'd grab my hand when it was on the shifter in my car. I miss when he'd yell at my for speeding, and remind me about my ticket in Georgia. I miss when he knew I needed a hug. I miss how he could tell my emotions the moment I walked into the room. How he knew just how to turn my day around. How he knew how to make everything right. I miss how he used to push my buttons. I miss how he knew just what ticked me off and only did it when we were in a really bad fight to get me to shut up for a minute so he could help end the fight. I miss when he'd randomly order me food when I was at work. I miss when he lived in the dorms, and we had to listen to his roommates crazy French music every night he was trying to cover his girlfriends moans, even though all the roommates knew. I miss when he worked at that bartending school and I used to go there, everyday, just to spend time with him because it was right down the street from my house. I even remember our first kiss in that parking lot the day we got together. A year ago next month. I miss him, so much. It seriously gets harder everyday. Life isn't easy without him, and I just want him home, where he belongs.