#rightstateofmind

So sometimes you keep things from friends, family, etc and vice versa.Such as stupid/rebellious things you did, words that were spoken to others and etc and eventually at the right time they’ll tell you or you will tell them what you’ve kept from them( Or maybe not at all) but when the time is right and you are in the right state of mind the people that care about you will tell you what they have kept. I repeat, “Once you are in the right state of mind” 

When faced with a situation and or a event that created a impact on your life there are two reactions we can have, in my opinion at least. The first being to express yourself in all forms. Be emotional. Cry your heart out or punch a truck because you’re so pissed or drive 120 down the highway because driving fast seems to take the edge off of things, Run,  eat a whole bag of Cheetos. Whatever, because expressing it makes them feel better. The second form is to put up a front, a wall or an ocean. Some sort of defense. People think that expressing emotions is a sign a weakness and that we must shrug it off and not care for it because that is easier. In the end of either one of these two forms of reactions there is was common end factor. We slowly but surely become the person we were once before but a little altered and granted it’s gonna take time to go back to square one but once you are there that’s where you start all over again. That’s the right state of mind to be in after a event that had a significant impact in your life. Square one, because you get to build yourself into the person you always wanted be.

So recently, I had a friend (a very close one) share with me something she sent to a individual that meant a lot to me without me knowing. I no longer have contact with said individual. and it goes somewhere along the lines of this “ you tore her apart. But from this she will be stronger and she will be 100 times better without you in her life. So thank you”. But I digress and I can’t help but have the first four words constantly ring in my ears “You tore her apart” Like, an individual was given enough power to do that to a person. It’s amazing how much power one can have over another.It’s important to be in the right state of mind when people tell you what they’ve kept or did for you( vice versa) because it only makes it more impactful to you. It’s kind of funny how things work out though no one ever thinks they’ll be the same or stronger or 100 times better than they once were before said event but we prove ourselves wrong. 

In every experience or event that seems to have a very big impact on your life know that it’s okay that you aren’t going to get all the answers you want to hear, you’re close friends aren’t going to rip off the band-aid in one swift motion like you want them to and they’re going to keep things to protect you, it’s okay to behave a certain way, act out,  put up a wall or seven because after the fog is lifted, the casualties are accounted for and you are back at square one you’ll be 100 times stronger than you were yesterday, a week ago or even five weeks ago. You’ll have a smile on your face that shines so bright, a sparkle in your eye like they’ve never seen before and you’re just going to want to grab the world but its tail ends and put it in your pocket. So thank you. Thank you for tearing me apart. I didn’t know I could be torn. Thank you for putting up walls and making me seem like I could be brushed off your shoulders. Congratulations, Bravo.