#retiring

On Wednesday, Rizzo announced he will retire as a member of the Cubs on Saturday, closing the book on an incredible career that spanned 14 seasons. He'll also join the organization as a team ambassador.

It saved me from the absolute lowest point in my life 5ish years ago and I have been working hard since then to never be in that spot ever again.

I'll miss taking whole weeks or months off from working just to focus on my mental health but I am finally getting better, enough so that I think I'll be alright in another work environment.

(also the game is different now. the clubs are closing and the studios are slowing down. it's like when the peep shows went away. also doesn't help that economically is not worth it to keep working in these uncertain times.)

I hate to have to come to terms with this. But I really tried to keep to my promises of writing those stories but I kept hitting a writers block. I kept hitting a wall and couldn't break it down. It's been a few years and I can't get a single story written. It can be too much on my plate, it can be burn out, it can be a number of things. I think, I'll have to 'retire' from this for now. At least until I can finish a fiction or story. I'll keep this blog and my other one active, I'll still be on Tumblr, looking at artwork and reading fan fiction, I just don't have anything good to post you in the way of stories that involve Sam and Dean, Din Djarin of The Mandalorian, Assassin's Creed Odyssey, or any obsession or hyperfixation I get absorbed in and try to turn it into a fan fiction.

As the boys say, this isn't goodbye, it's just a goodbye for now.