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          ahh thank you so much for asking this bc it’s actually a really great segue into a headcanon i’ve been meaning to write!!

          in short, yes, alison definitely does something to help alleviate any pain and anxiety she may have surrounding penetrative sex. she wants to enjoy intimacy with her partner, and moreover, being able to enjoy sex on her own terms is quite empowering for her given her history with sex. so she really would want to be able to overcome the difficulties that genito-pelvic disorder bring about. if we’re being completely honest, though, i think what alison does exactly is very route dependent ( i.e. whether she seeks therapy either on her own or with encouragement from her partner, whether she and her partner figure things out together privately, whether alison works on it alone, ect. )

          in the past, i’ve talked to ship partners about the concept of sensate focus. in short, it’s a therapeutic technique between couples that serves to “improve intimacy and communication between partners around sex, reduce sexual performance anxiety, and shift away from ingrained, goal-oriented sexual patterns that may not be serving a couple.” [ Sexual Medicine Society of North America ( SMSNA ) website; link above ]. it consists of a series of touching exercises that are completed in a sequence, starting from non-genital touching and progressing to intercourse. the specific steps are:

1. non-genital touching 2. genital and breast touching 3. adding lotion/lubricants to step 2 4. mutual touching 5. “sensual” intercourse

          couples take turns being the receiver and giver of touch, focusing on details such as temperature, pressure, contours of their partner’s body, and the tactile sensation of their partner’s touch. it’s a very interesting concept because the focus isn’t to arouse each other; it’s very much to get used to each other’s touch and to get familiar with being touched without the pressure of having to perform sexually. it’s a connection that alison requires in order to feel comfortable enough around her partner to not tighten up whenever penetrative sex is about to happen. 

          how alison learns about sensate focus is, again, route dependent. implementing sensate focus makes the most sense when alison has a romantic partner, but i think in a scenario where alison has no sexual partners, she may do something similar to the technique on herself. exploring her sexual anatomy in private, understanding what positions hurt and which don’t when it comes penetrative sex without the pressure of climaxing ( and in turn overcoming the internal stigma she has with the concept of self-pleasuring ). she may even turn to using medical dilators to help her get used to the sensation of penetrative sex even without a partner, and this would help her endure like, using tampons as well since that can hurt her sometimes if it’s been too long. 

❝I'm not sure I have either,❞ says Addy. Sometimes she felt like a doll, an accumulation of carefully selected parts. And sometimes she'd swear that even in a perfectly clear and gleaming mirror, she could see all kinds of cracks. Who was she? Never fully exposed — yet never truly hidden either. A figment of the imagination, but whose?

The words make her wonder how similar they really are, if there could be some level of understanding. Addy wonders if it'd even matter at all, especially with a cheap plastic heart like her own. ❝I don't think we're meant to feel real, us girls. It's easier to control something that doesn't know where it belongs.❞ A light shrug rolls her shoulders, ❝guess it doesn't matter to anyone but us anyway.❞