I need it and I hate my writing 😭🥹

A/N: I wasn´t sure wich `Stay´ Song you meant, there are qiuet a few so i took the one by The Kid LAROI, Justin Bieber - STAY - i hope that is okay and i hope you liked what i made out of the Request.

S.T.A.Y.

Your Heart was breaking into a million Parts as you visited your Boyfried Nam-Gyu in the Rehab-Centre the first Time. He was so pissed at you, when you forced him in the first Place, to do Rehab after both of you survied the Squid Games. A Lot of Shit happend, a lot of Demons still hunt both of you at Night and a lot of broken Dreams waited to be picked up and fixed together again. Life was not easy and all you wanted was for your Boyfriend to heal....to get clean from his damn Drug Problem. To get the Help he needs and to see the Light again.

The Light you were looking for in the Darkness.....the Darkness when you once again tried to share the daily things with....eating breakfast together, taking a shower together....share kisses, hugs, cuddles and talk about who ate the last Banana out of the Fridge.....it was so hard for you, to get from day to day.....to not miss him or wonder how NamGyu is doing......Contact was clearly forbidden during the first weeks....for the Patients Safety and the Start of Healing Process. It broke you not to even call your beloved Boyfriend and wish him a good night.

But that was nothing compared to the first Time you saw him in the Visitor Room in the Rehab Center.

"Baby.....", you said as you hugged him close. His trembling Hands first touched your Face, as he needed to check that you were real and in person standing in front of him, they wandered down to your shoulders, your chest and finally finding their way to hold your Hands.

"I hate this Place....i miss you....our Bed.....your damn sexy Body cuddling to mine during Thunderstorms and rainy Nights.....this place sucks", - NamGyu said and the Pain in his Voice was so real. As Real as the Pain in your Chest.

You hate see him in Pain. And he didn´t want to let go of your hands, even when his owns were trembling and shaking. His Body clearly missed the Drugs....but it was so important that he need to to this....for both you but for himself in the First Place.

You carefully sat down on a chair while not letting go your Boyfriends hands.

"I swear if i get out of hear i contact Thanos Dealer and...."

I do the same thing I told you that I never would

The Words of the Song Stay plopped up in your Head.

"Don´t be stupid NamGyu, thats the Reason you are here....", you replied.

"We are fucking rich.....Money fixes all our Problems, why not ignoring this one huh? Don´t you love me enough to deal with it"

"No i loved the NamGyu i bet before you and Thanos took every Pill on the Market. You need to do this to be healthy again....i couldn´t see you break under that pain.....and get lost in it! We find a way to life with the nightmares and Flashbacks together but for that.....you need to stay here and.......stay clean"

You gently pressed a kiss on his Hands and looked him into the Eyes. He was quiet for a Moment.

"You will leave for the next guy who touches your sexy ass in the Club.....i am useless Baby", NamGyu replied half dry joking.

I know that I can't find nobody else as good as you

Again a part of the Lyric. But it was true....you never find anybody else as good as him. NEVER.

"Bullshit. I will not leave your Side. Never. And if you come Home.....we go to the Shelter and we get the Dog you always wanted....and yes we can name him Thanos", you promised him and his View changed. "Really?"

"Really. You get threw this Mess and i stay with you for the Rest of your Life"

He started crying, cursed a bit and than pulled you into a long hug.

"Stay here with me.....i can hide you under my bed.....i dont wanna wait 3 more months for your next Visit!"

His words hurt in your Chest. You gave him a kiss on the Mouth and hugged him one last time close.

"I wish i could, but the Rules are strict......see you in three Months....i will think every Evening of you when i go to bed and when i wake up in the Morning , my Thoughts are with you.....", you promised and it was so hard to let got.

For the Both of you.

As you left, NamGyu hummed another Words of the Song.

I'll be f- up if you can't be right here

And it took all your self control not to turn around and pull him into another Hug. Both of you need to be strong now. For your Relationship.

And a Healthy Future.

Here on Tumblr, I see many posts mentioning aroace, aromantic, queer-platonic, etc., and I have been trying to understand, but still find it difficult.

If a person describes self as aromantic (= have no experience of romantic feelings towards others), this is fine. It is subjective definition, so must be respected.

But I don't know what it means when a relationship between two individuals is just described as aromantic, I don't know how to interpret that, unless there are more descriptions.

It is almost like dividing all the fruits into apple and non-apple. We can accept that it is NOT an apple, but then what is it?

Obviously, if we are talking about two individuals who can agree on their interpersonal relationship, that is fine. But when there is not necessarily agreement between the two participating individuals, how do the outsiders know?

Even more so, if these are fictional characters.

An American psychologist Robert Sternberg developed the famous "Triangular Theory of Love" in 1980s, where he characterised love between individuals with 3 factors: Intimacy, Passion, and Commitment. When these are combined you get 7 types of love. (Liking, infatuation, empty love, romantic love, companionate love, fatuous love, and non-love).

Generally, passion is interpreted as related to physical/sexual attraction.

So, if you see two individuals who seem to like each other a lot, but remove Passion from the picture, you are left with either "Liking" or "Companionate Love".

Companionate love is great for long-term relationship where the excitement is gone, but trust, caring feeling and understanding are still there. But I feel uncertain about calling ALL the GREAT relationships minus the Passion part as just "companionate". Something feels missing.

Why can we not call that excitement when you get to know someone and you just click? Instant chemistry, and you know that this person is going to be a great friend to you. Sometimes you can get infatuated with your new friend.

Friend or best friend are also good terms, but they don't encapusulate the specialness - some people have lots of best friends. (Or so they say.) Sometimes, there is a sense of exclusivity - resulting in jealousy when a third party comes along.

I wish there is a term to describe a relationship where two individuals care for each other greatly, can understand and accept each other with all the differences and irritating bits about each other, so special and valuable that do not want to lose each other, and gain greatest pleasure in each other's company above everything else.

I think it is possible to have this without sexual or physical attraction, can even have other friends or sexual relationships elsewhere. But this is THE most significant relationship that transcends everything else.

When people see some of these traits, we tend to think of them romantic. Even when we do not expect them to have relationships like lovers do. Because we see chemistry, bond, trust and everything that we desire. Maybe, the same brain areas that process very romantic things respond in a similar way.

I see this in Holmes and Watson (original), Sherlock and John (BBC Sherlock), House and Wilson (House, MD), Myron Bolitar and Win (Harlan Coben's Myron Bolitar series), and recently, Murderbot and ART. (That used to include Aziraphale and Crowley while their passion bit was subtext)

I don't imagine them in sexual or other physically intimate relationships, but the special bond between each of these pairs feels romantic. Because they are so special.