#reignited

howdy! my name is max. i use they it & shi. this my selfship/yumeship blog. this is help me explore why i selfship in a safe place. my wife shares traits with a lot of my f/os, so its just me shipping myself with her atp my current main f/o is: a whole bunch of people from sonic the hedgehog. i am selective non-sharing with all of them!

anyways wanted to ask you a question as well, but list down five things on why you like tsukishima of all hq characters / why you love him and when did you realize that? (it became multiple questions eueu) wishing you all the motivation for this week ❤︎

ily kou sama and yes my period cramps are gone now thanks to u !!!! (and bc i passed it onto tsukki) aaaaaa speaking of which !! i already explained it here but i’ll give another brief explanation !

five things or reasons why i like this man is that:

he’s extremely relatable to me—i mirror a lot of his insecurities and defense mechanisms, like downplaying my own skills, rationalizing everything, and feeling just a little envious of people who can openly express their passion. even the way i tease my friends is eerily similar to his.

because he’s so relatable, it’s easy to empathize with him. he feels incredibly real to me, to the point where my heart physically aches for him. the yearning is so real.

i love how warm he looks—soft and golden, literally the moon personified.

his voice. his voice!!!!!!! va uchiyama koki supremacy fr

his studious nature is ridiculously attractive. brooo, i’d let him talk my ears off about the eras of the geologic time scale or let me draw his favorite ancient creatures—please, one chance, tsukki i beg

why do u love him/when did u realise that

i feel like i’m being redundant now, but ugh. when i first watched haikyuu in 2020, i really hated tsukishima—his guts, his attitude, everything. i just couldn't understand that part of him that rationalized everything, letting his fears and insecurities take over. i only developed a tiny soft spot for him when his past was revealed, but i was never attached to him nor appreciated him as much as i do now.

as time went on, i eventually grew up—and somehow, i ended up becoming like him, shaped by several major events in my life. i gave up on a lot of things and became so guarded that i trapped myself in the mindset of thinking logically about everything. cynical and pessimistic, i often downplayed myself—avoided seeing my grades every semester, feeling burnt out, constantly comparing myself to others, and just having a generally negative outlook on life.

this stretched into my hobbies as well—writing, cosplaying, etc. i nearly considered quitting altogether but decided to go on hiatus instead, just to see if things would change after a few months.

surprisingly, they did.

rewatching haikyuu in december 2024 saved me, and somehow, i couldn't take my eyes off tsukishima kei. he looked even more striking and intriguing than before. the whole time, i kept wondering, why is he so me?! the more i analyzed his character, the more i saw myself in him. and i couldn’t help but feel comforted—knowing that you can still return to the home where your passion resides, still burning, still waiting for you to make it warm and alive again.

and my passion for writing was still very much alive.

so alive, in fact, that i fell in love all over again. with haikyuu, with writing, with interacting with others—and with the person staring back at me in the mirror. with the character i once despised, who, in reality, was only wearing a cloak of hatred i had to shed years later to finally realize—

i love him, too.