#reevaluate

Don't forget to take time today for you. ✌️

Until I've achieved near perfection, every two weeks I will be doing a reevaluation of my behaviors and goals and adjusting them as needed. Going into 2023 with high hopes, i started January strong and then basically fell flat on my face.

Luckily I've began to pinpoint a large part of why I essentially failed thus far. The first point being that I need a desk. I don't have one so I sit at a small table when I can. Since I don't have a proper place to do work at, the majority of my studies have come to an almost complete halt!

Next, I need to begin placing my alarm away from my body every morning and I have to have an exact routine to follow from now on. Without morning routine, my day does not start off well.

These are two very specific changes that I am POSITIVE will influence me well. Now, can I get a desk right now...? Eh.. It may not be the best idea! So instead I'm putting money away bit by bit for it. HOWEVER! I will be getting a desk ALTERNATIVE <3

I have no shame, I am very quick to try new things when it comes to me and my progress so I'll be using a pop up table :3

Other notes:

my closet needs to be reorganized! Like. ASAP! All of my drawers do too

buying another walmart temporary solution fo rmy clothing to help become more organized

one new work outfit! I got out of my comfort zone and worked at a new club, so I'm spoiling myself with a new outfit

I need to get better at makeup so I'll be finding some looks to try out and learning better application techniques

reorganizing my grocery budget COMPLETELY ! Spending way too much money doing so

Next week is plasma donation start! :D LETS GOOOOo

I'm slowly becoming better at pole and working on floorwork and flexibility as well. I feel like a new outfit and maybe shoes soon would be perfect to keep me motivated.

Rewards:

one new outfit $20 or under

new concealer

while a lot of my goals are either not met or not started, i'm sure that i can push myself to reach them anyways! I'm going to make myself go to the club tomorrow that i'm a little unfamiliar with so that I can make some money or try it out at least

I'm discarding a lot of people

Don't worry if I seem distant

Maybe I'm excluding you little by little

It's not out of malice

Is that I need to grow

And some people take up a lot of my space

Hold on na, I know a connie simp ain’t coming 4 ME, this y’all man?

like, i get having a salt blog or an anti-xyz ship blog. that's chill; that's fine.

but when ur out here saying that u have "trauma" from other ppl hopping on ur post to respectfully refute u when u tagged a tag they follow, then... maybe take a step back and evaluate urself?

trauma is a real and genuine thing.

if u google the word "trauma," these are the results that pops up: "a deeply distressing or disturbing experience" or "emotional shock following a stressful event or a physical injury, which may be associated with physical shock and sometimes leads to long-term neurosis."

when u say that u have trauma from ppl respectfully disagreeing with u regarding being anti-xyz ship, ur invalidating all the other ppl who truly do have trauma that isn't regarding a stupid tumblr post.

yes, tumblr harassment and bullying is real. yes, anons on tumblr can be vicious and horrible.

but from what i could see regarding the situation, people were j respectfully disagreeing with u.

disagreeing w other people is a part of life! it's part of being on the internet! if it was THAT upsetting to u, maybe take a break and hop offline so that u can take some time to urself!

ur mental health is far more important than being anti-xyz ship or running a tumblr blog

but please, please, please do not use trauma to describe a respectful disagreement w others. trauma isn't a word to be used lightly. it isn't j a "gen z expression" - as someone who IS gen z, i do NOT use the word "trauma" to describe respectful interactions w strangers on the internet. please j be respectful and mindful of the words that u use.