#recommilesquaritch

this was the scene where Spider truly saw the monster his father truly was. Not the boogeyman in stories, the source of his cursed blood. But the true, physical body in action.

he goes dog. his father goes dog. feral military K-9 bred and raised and beaten into biting anything that moves. a dog that needs to be muzzled. put down. a dog that was and was brought back wrong.

while this edit works without context, I am a believer that Q, amongst several other issues overarching issues, has BPD, or something similar. and because of it he has manic/manic-like episodes. And I think for Spider, after very likely seeing months of his dad at his best (I also believe the only part of Q that isn't rotten to the core is the part of him that is a father. so in the months he's just hiking Pandora with his son, he is as close to "well" in the head that he's capable of. including the vague stability of his BPD), seeing that sudden shift into true mania, or what I call "The Colonel", a being more monster then man, driven by only his goal and a lust for blood and control, who cares little for any other being but himself and in a small way, Spider.

where eyes once warm and nearly softly towards him have gone icy cold, so cold Spider feels like prey beneath them for the first time. like he is in danger. and he has to see the absolute worst if his father. it would scare him shitless. a type of primal fear he doesn't know what to do with.

the scene in the village is when Spider sees the worst of his father after months of seeing the best. and not only is this his first time meeting that side of Q, he has to argue with it. fight it off the ledge of absolute violence and bloodshed. he has to beg it to have mercy. this is a son looking at his father and not recognizing him.

Spider knew his father was violent. knew he was evil. knew he was cruel. but knowing and getting to see it are two very different things. and that is traumatic for anyone, let alone a child. let alone the captive prisoner of the man.

big disclaimer: I do not think BPD is the only thing going on with Q, nor do I think it is his main problem. he is a monster and he also happens to have BPD, which is only making the previous factor 100x worse, but is not the cause. I do not think BPD is what makes him a terrible person. before anyone takes it that way. I just think the way he acts is reflective of the disorder and explains a lot of what makes him tick and the way in which he functions.