#recharging

I wanted to take a moment to say a massive thank you to everyone for the incredibly kind words and support on my last post. It is never easy to admit when the tank is empty, especially after nearly three decades of pouring myself into this world, but the response has been a huge comfort.

I am officially in full-blown destress mode. Last night, Skye laid on my whole back and purred. I was reading Stephen's King's the institute. Awesome book. I also got a notification in my email that that 'black materia' necklace that 🔥⚔ purchase for our vessel is out for delivery.

I am also decompressing from a doctor's appointment today. The update there is that she is starting me on HRT for perimenopause, which explains a lot of the physical, aggression, and mental fog I have been battling lately. It feels like one more piece of the puzzle falling into place. I will update more on how it went at the OBYN in an additional post later today.

Outside, it actually snowed last night. In late April. It is bizarre, but honestly, it feels oddly fitting for the state of things: just a strange, cold departure from the expected rhythm of the season. It's usually rainy here in April.

The plan for the immediate future involves a lot of low-stakes comfort. I am probably going to curl up for a long-overdue nap, and then I am debating between a full rewatch of Brooklyn 99 (which is always my happy place), finishing reading Stephen King, or finally cracking open a few books my friend has been recommending. No themes, no world-building, no complex logic. Just consumption and rest.

As I am sure many know, burnout is a beast, but I am listening to my body and taking the exit ramp. I know exactly what I need to do to find my creativity again, and that starts with being still.

heartstopper..