The only reason I don't own any recasts, and spend too much money on just having a few legits, is the fear of bullying :( I really wish I could get over it and have my dream dolls.
I know it's not my place to say, and it's should be someone trained in mental health care, but, you plan to live YOUR life like this until you die? Asking permission for other to approve what you want or like? ... Just do what you want with your 💲, and if ANYONE complaints about it, you can either tell them to F-off, or, that you'll go legit only if they add from their pockets whatever amount the legit costs (since you can't pay that much, and either way no artist it's loosing anything).