#reading tarot

Pile 1: Temperance, queen of pentacles and queen of wands.

In your work or study environment, people see you as a healthy person and a safe haven. Those around you perceive you as extremely balanced, peaceful, and mature. Behind your back, it's said that it's a pleasure to work or study with you because you bring calm to chaos, avoid gossip, and are a good listener. You're the mediator of the group, that constructive figure every team needs to keep from going crazy.

They see you as brilliant, independent, and very down-to-earth. They think you're impeccable at your work, organized, and that you manage everything you touch with incredible skill. They know you're a sure bet and that your financial future is more than secure.

Behind your back, they admit you have a natural magnetism and charisma that captivates everyone. They see you as creative, full of initiative, and incredibly attractive because of your self-confidence. In short: they think you're a well-rounded individual, someone who knows how to lead with passion but keeps a cool head and their feet firmly on the ground. They respect and admire you silently for being so damn authentic.

Pile 2: The moon, 4 of cups and the lovers.

You're a great enigma to everyone. Behind your back, it's said that you're a complete mystery. They feel you're hiding your true personality or playing a hidden game. This leads people to create scenarios in their heads, giving rise to petty gossip or absurd theories about you simply because they don't know what you're going to do next.

They think you're arrogant. I don't believe that's true, they're just making things up. Your reserved attitude and your need to protect your space are misinterpreted behind your back. They think you're apathetic, boring, or that you show a lack of interest in fitting in. They think you look down on everyone else or that you reject the team's plans, when the reality is that you're just selective with your energy. Your presence forces others to take sides. They know that you're either loved passionately or criticized behind their backs; there's no middle ground with you. Behind your back, they whisper that you play favorites or that you're only close to a select few, leaving everyone else completely confused. They see you as a fascinating enigma, but they're terrified of not knowing what you really think of them.

Pile 3: Queen of cups, 8 of cups and the star.

You seem to be someone highly respected in this environment. You're the shoulder to cry on for most people; behind your back, everyone agrees that you're a person of exceptional character. They say you're incredibly empathetic, sensitive, understanding, and a truly gifted listener. They see you as the heart of the team, someone incapable of stepping on anyone out of ambition and who is always ready to lend a hand with compassion.

The problem is that your colleagues and professors are perfectly aware of your withdrawal. Behind your back, they're saying that you're no longer emotionally invested there, that the place feels too small for you, and that you're mentally packing your things to leave. They know you're turning your back on the current routine because you're looking for something bigger. Everyone sees you as someone with a special talent, a natural star, and a very clear purpose in life. They think your future is bright, but that it lies far from your current work or study environment. They respect you so much that, behind your back, they say it's normal for you to leave. They know that your light is designed to illuminate much higher horizons, aligned with your soul.

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Moving on here are the messages...

Pile 1

You entered a dynamic with an open heart but somewhere down the line you were taken advantage of, or the exchange was not equal. You spent all your energy into pouring and building stuff without getting anything in return. You have a deeply nurturing nature which helps people heal but you yourself were left with disconnect due to somebody else's actions. No commitment was offered. The situation felt increasingly suffocating and restrictive. But now your entire focus has shifted towards reclaiming your own identity and doing justice to you. You want to nourish yourself. What your heart needs to know right now to heal is, you have to prioritize your own self. A lot of earth energy in the spread. You need to ground yourself, invest and build things towards your own well being, can be anything daily habits or skills. Treat your body with care. Invest your energy in yourself. Don't try to force dynamics that lack geniune care, there is a mismatch of giving, look into that. Mutual effort on both ends is required to build something so don't overgive. Pile 1, I see you have an extremely empathetic nature so the need for boundaries is absolutely crucial. Celebrate your small wins and nourish yourself. You are an abundant being internally. Glorify that, shine your light on yourself. Pick and choose you

Pile 2

The entire read is around mental strain and the feeling of not being enough. Somebody is feeling alone and not sure about the path they are supposed to take or which one to take. This is causing feelings of anxiety, confusion and turmoil. Somebody feels like an imposter or not worthy of being in a certain position or having something. You are feeling stuck in a limbo, unable to make a choice. There a lot of sleepless nights and overthinking. Pile 2 there are deep insecurities in your heart and feelings of anxiety in your internal state. Everything stems from the fact that you tried to rely on something, someone or a structure but they failed you. You tried to seek external validation but that didn't fall through either. I feel geniune sorrow and grief while doing this read. There is a feeling of heaviness. It makes me extremely emotionally for some odd reason, you are definitely going through a lot. You tried to maintain a brave stand but you were definitely going through so much, I am so sorry you had to feel that way. What your heart needs to know right now to heal is, the anxieties that are taking a control of you are not real. Those are your fears or beliefs projected onto you by others, you are so much more than that. You are worthy and enough and you have to move out of that pessimistic state. Have a positive logical self talk with yourself instead of believing you are unworthy or you don't matter. Stop seeking external validation and work towards your own authenticity. I am also getting something about trying to keep your emotions bottled up, hidden or about carrying the grief in your heart for a long time. Its okay to cry, allow yourself to feel and release dear collective. Healing also requires for you to do shadow work, instead of treating your insecurities as something painful and bitter see them as doors to your psych. Observe them and see where and why they stem from. Address them and let them go. I know you feel like there is so much grief in your heart and how will you release so much of it, is that even possible? But don't worry with time, eventhough slowly you will unwind everything dear

Pile 3

This spread was so interesting as the third image I chose was of buildings and while drawing the cards tower came out in the spread. Intuitively I feel, the spread signifies an underlying fear of everything crumbling or falling down. Can also signify fear of failure or falling down from grace. It shows something happened in the past that left an impact on you. A group or social setting, didn't fall through. Social connections which were built on trust abruptly came to an end, or a situation happened which forced you to shift your entire perspective regarding someone, I am seeing this in a social setting/ friendship type of way. You were left with a sudden collapse and your expectations were not met. They did something to you. Now you are actively trying to move on and heal from the whole ordeal, but you still feel somewhere in your heart that justice wasn't granted to you. To protect yourself you have stepped into the energy of cold detached intellect instead of actively feeling your pain. You are avoiding and ignoring your emotions. You are asked to stop trying to balance everything and overfunction. You don't need to hold everything inside to prove your point or worth or avoid the fall (breaking down). What your heart needs to know right now for you to heal is, is to let the fall happen. Have that emotional breakdown, do crumble. Remember destruction is the start of something new. So you don't need to fear failure or something coming to an end. Old ways are being destroyed to create room for something new. What felt like a failure before is the dire need to get you out of this situation which doesn't have a serve you anymore. Let things collapse. New ways will emerge. Stop trying to force balance where there is no sync. Sometimes you need to accept certain things, people or situations are outside of our control and they will do whatever they want to do. Their perceptions and actions are not a reflection of you. Most importantly you are asked to feel and not just intellectualize your emotions like you always do. Remember having the awareness about the feeling and knowing what it is, is not the same as feeling it. Don’t suppress or ignore your emotions just so you can look strong. Real strength is in accepting and feeling

"tarot is not a static dictionary of isolated words; it is a living language where words must be woven together. a card shines in the light of its neighbor or shifts its shape in its shadow."

most beginners memorize dozens of interpretations for all 78 cards, yet when they lay them out, they are met with a profound silence. the cards whisper, but fail to form a coherent sentence. here is how to make them speak:

☾ the rules of dominance: who holds the floor? not all cards carry the same weight. if a spread contains one major arcana card among minor cards, that card is the "boss." while the minor cards describe daily nuances, the major card reveals the karmic weight and the root cause of the situation.

☾ proximity and gaze: where are they looking? the arrangement of cards is more than physical. look at the figures: are they facing each other or turned away? figures turned back-to-back represent disconnection or avoidance. a card takes its "color" from whoever is standing to its immediate right and left.

☾ the "ex" algorithms: will they return? the universe rarely gives a simple yes or no; it describes the nature of the return.

a healing return: 6 of cups + judgement + 2 of cups. pure memories merge with an awakening. the ice is melting.

the manipulative return: the devil + 7 of swords + the tower. the foundation is rooted in codependency and secrecy. this return is coming to dismantle the system, not heal it. proceed with extreme caution.

the art of tarot reading: love and relationships 

this guide is designed to strengthen your "storytelling muscle." learn to connect the foundation of a situation, the action that triggers it, and the ultimate outcome using the reader’s formula.

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Hi guys! Its been a long time and I hope you enjoy this! I'm trying to get back into the swing of things. Lmk what pile you picked!

Pile 1.

Lyric - why wont you reach me at something?

Hi pile 1! So for you guys your past life I’m getting that maybe you were some type of political figure or someone of influence in your community. I see lots of feathered quills and ink. As well as papyrus so as far as time periods go I’m thinking pretty far into the past. It seems as though in your past life you were unwilling to see others perspectives and had a stubborn energy about you. However this gave you lots of anxiety because your perspective was inherently a negative one and this gave you a lot of existential dread, which might actually be carrying into this life as well but Ill return to that. In your past life it seems like spirit really tried to help you see from others point of view but you just were not open to it. And this gave you a sharp and mean tongue, but also brought you a lot of financial success in the career that you were in. I see you very focused on money and you could’ve even spent your life alone. I would also like to point out that the energies in this one heavily imply you were a male in your last life. I see someone who was well educated and ruled by logic but craving emotional fulfillment without understanding how to get it. I see a lot of envy in what others had but instead of working on yourself you chose to dig your heels into how you functioned. I also see that you guys felt scorned somehow in this life. The energies are relatively vague about the details in what I’m assuming is because that’s not what you need to care about? Now circling back to how this is affecting you in this life, you could be on one of two paths, the first being you continued to be stubborn and not grow emotionally. However I feel that's a very small portion of you. The alternative is you were born in this life with an insane amount of empathy and an insane amount of emotions that you need to learn how to balance. I could also see this affecting you in ways of communication. An example that keeps coming through is that you see commercials that just set you off into an emotional outburst. Either way both of these lives are trying to teach you balance that logic is good but not in a way that is too much as well as emotions. The duality of this pile is that both reside in you, you just need to find balance within both. You also got the oracle of the frog and it says clear out the clutter, so a main theme for you in this life might be really cutting away at the limiting beliefs you still carry from this past life in specific.

Confirmations : 111, alligators?, heart emojis, crocodiles?, reptiles in general, egypt, running water, showers, angel wings, the smell of freshly poured pavement, body spray, waves crashing, lightning bolts, telephone poles, tall grass, virgo

Pile 2.

Lyric - I walk in the door you start screaming

Hi pile 2! Ok so you guys are like my celebrity pile or talk of the town pile. You guys give off the energy of glitz and glam. I get old Hollywood vibes from you. I see pearls and gold and a heavy indication of enjoying the finer things in life as well as night life. I get great gatsby meets royal princess energy here. You guys definitely carry the confidence in this life that you earned in the last. For you guys I feel feminine energy so you were probably a woman in this life. I see you being very affluent and maybe even bratty. However I feel like you were born into this life as if your parents were in the entertainment industry or were just the wealthiest of the wealthy. In my head it's like you were the Paris Hilton of your family. Where you just shined so brightly everyone wanted to be like you.  A showstopper and also a trendsetter, but you were not just that and I see that it brought you pain how misunderstood you were. I would say that as a woman you had more power than most other women but it still wasn't enough power to make decisions for yourself. I would say that you were so sought after as a marriage partner for your wealth and beauty that your family probably ended up marrying you off to someone you didn’t love because of that. However I don't see that you even necessarily even cared about love that you just wanted to do what you did for the rest of that life. You didn’t want to be married or leave your family because it would mess up all the fun and freedom you did have. I believe that you honestly got married off and ran away to live a life of your own making. Even going as far as to change your name so you couldn’t be found. You really were like a chameleon. I do see you using your looks to get what you want and having people help you. As far as running away though I see you were smart about it and hid money away for yourself so you could still live very comfortably. Honestly this pile is giving me heavy manhua vibes, but genuinely without a love interest. I do see that maybe towards the end of your life things took a dark turn. You might’ve died to an unforeseen circumstance like a murder or being in the wrong place at the wrong time. In this life I see that spirit really just wanted you to live your life the way you wanted to in the last. For your oracle you got the bobcat spirit which is life's a mystery. I feel like you might be worried about love in this life. Don’t worry about love too much. I hear that there is just so much you want to do that a love interest would throw you off. The right person will come at the right time. You're meant to have fun so go out there and use your beauty to get you into the elite bars and clubs. Also if you have a big purchase in mind that you've been on the fence about you should definitely treat yourself and get it!

Confirmations : LEO, 555, butterflies, golf, pearls, soft curls, incense smell, big red curtains, sparkles, gold, vintage cars, 11:11, oranges, saffron, big cats, tylenol

Pile 3.

Lyric - I close my eyes and the flashback starts

Hi pile 3! So as you might’ve guessed from the song you guys are my love group. This is kind of a tough message so if you are feeling sensitive you might wanna save this for another day. Anyways getting into this I feel as though you might’ve been a man in your past life and you were madly in love with a girl that was a neighbor or someone in your community. I see that maybe you were like a stableman and she was a higher rank than you. But I see that you guys as children were able to play together so maybe a nursemaids child and a noble? I see that these feelings were mutual and you guys really did love each other. I see as teens you guys sharing firsts and sneaking away to have moments when others weren’t looking. You had this hope that maybe you guys could run away and leave it all behind to be together. Unfortunately I see her picking her duty over you. I keep seeing heavy parallels to Rheanyra and Cristan. Where like you were Cristan being like lets run away and start an orange tree farm and her being like yea bruh nah. But I see more as she really cared about pleasing her father and did anything that he asked. I feel as though you were still close enough to her when she got married and continued her life. And that just hurt you so much more. Seeing her happy killed you literally. We’ll circle back to that though. I see you finding no love after that. She lived on forever in your heart for the rest of that life. I see that she would’ve definitely chosen you if she could’ve and watching you be sad from afar truly pained her but she had so much to do for her family that she just couldn’t justify it in her mind. There were so many long nights for you where you just sat awake fantasizing about her and longing for her. However I see that even though she longed for you just as much she still held true to her duty and probably didn't speak to you after getting married. I do keep getting a heavy message that she was not in love with the man she ended up with. In fact she probably hated him but she kept appearances up because that’s what she had to do. In terms of you though, you picked up alcohol or a different substance and really got addicted. It was the only way to numb this pain that you had. I see that you had some kind of an overdose or liver failure as your death. But even in your last moments all you thought of was her. When she found out you died it sent her into a long period of grief and regret. She died much later than you clinging only to her duty and children to keep her alive. In her last moments she thought of you as well. For your oracle card you got Owl Spirit which says I see clearly now. I would say that this relates to your life now because you guys are going to find each other in this life and continue the story that you left in this last life. This pile almost brought me to tears so if you did pick this pile please let me know if it resonates. I see so much more hope for you in this life and to please not be discouraged. 

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Looking at these cards, I honestly don’t think that they point to another massive worldwide pandemic or an immediate repeat of the kind of lockdowns we saw before. What they do show us here very strongly is fear, tension, information overload, distrust, and us, the people, just trying to figure out what’s real after living through years where the ground already felt shaky under our feet. Once folks have sat through one hard storm, every dark cloud after it starts looking like it might turn into a tornado. That kind of collective anxiety hangs around for a long time, and these cards carry a lot of that energy!