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You were rather frustrated. Your current boyfriend was splayed out on your couch, asleep. The beer that you knew must have been in his hand knocked over on your hardwood floor. Take out containers littered the table, and your cat was eating out of one of them.

This was not the first time this had happened. In fact the last time you found him like this you told him to get lost and not find his way back. However, he was rather determined to stay with you, so he managed to sweeten his way back in every time.

And you let it happen, because he was pretty sweet and you didn’t exactly want to hurt him. But he was rather gross once he settled in. Even if he did clean up nice. And sure you could very easily get rid of him. But you were afraid he’d think you were joking. Even if you could kill him in more ways than one without leaving a trace that you did it.

That was just an occupational hazard of yours for those around you. It wasn’t your fault you got mixed up with the mob. It was all your friend Tom’s fault. You’d follow him anywhere and when he’d taken over the business, well you were right beside him, Harrison right with the two of you. However, the man asleep on your couch had absolutely no clue about your real job.

Deciding that you weren’t going to deal with this mess, you went right back out your door. You found yourself at Tom’s. You strolled right in, the two bodyguards posted at the door nodded to you.

“Evening boys,” You greeted, barely offering them a glance.

“Evening boss,” they responded. Tom might be their actual boss, but you were the one in charge of them. You were the one given the orders to send them out, what to do, when to do it and how. You were the one handling the dirty work Tom didn’t want to handle, the kind he didn’t find worth his time but knew that whoever it was needed a more special touch than just his regular guys.

“Tom?!” You called out, into the larger than average home.

“What are you doing back so soon, love?” He asked, exiting his kitchen.

“Gary did it again. I can’t take it, Tom. I’m gonna kill’im. But he’s too nice!” You ranted on about the mess he’d made, how you’d probably get home and he’d be gone and the mess would still be there, on top of your cat probably having the shits just to add to your problems.

“I’ve told you before,” Tom started, wrapping an arm around your shoulders and starting to guide you upstairs. “I can take care of it.”

You groaned. “I don’t want him dead, Tom. I could do that myself if I wanted. Just want him to stop comin’ around after I’ve sent him off.”

Tom stopped in front of the door to his bedroom and leaned against it. “You know, I’ve seen you be the nastiest bitch, yet you can’t get rid of a guy that’s nice? You must have lost your touch.”

You scoffed and punched his shoulder.

He didn’t hesitate to grab your wrist. “Don’t-”

“Wait!” You said, not caring about the empty threat he was about to place upon you, knowing he would never think about hurting you. “I’ve got it!”

Tom sighed and released you. “What brilliant plan have you devised now?”

“Well, Gary doesn’t know what I do for a living, right? But I’m sure he knows about you, and not from me, who doesn’t?”

Tom wasn’t following, his eye brow was arched as he watched you closely. You were incredibly sexy when you had a good idea. So happy, something he liked seeing on you with how rare it was in this line of business.

“What if you came over and pretended to be like my crazy possessive and violent ex?” You were smiling so wide at him, hoping he’d go for it.

He thought over your words. “Is that what you think of me?”

You rolled your eyes. “You missed the point, and no I do not, Thomas. I just think you’d be really good at pretending to be. You already shoot all the guys dirty looks if they even cast a glance my way. You’d be great at it.”

“What if I don’t want to pretend to be your ex?” He asked. “You know I’d much rather be with you.”

You blushed. You never really took those words of his seriously. Because even when he said them, there were still other women in his life, there were still times when you knew he could never possibly love you. That you couldn’t have a normal life together. Even if you wanted to be with him. “Tom-”

“Yeah, I’ll do it. But if I do, you’re going to sit down and listen to what I have to say about you and you believe me this time.” He held his hand out to you.

You took it and shook, sealing your deal. You were rather hoping what he’d have to tell you would be in your favor. Hand shakes were binding between the lot of you. But, having a normal boyfriend was something you rather enjoyed, it was like living in a cute little fantasy. One where you could imagine a frilly white wedding, and a house and three kids. Not the kind where you would constantly worry your husband was cheating on you, or the safety of your children. You pushed those thoughts away, you had to focus. “I’ll come up with a plan tonight and let you know in the morning.” You eagerly kissed his cheek. “Thank you, Tom.”

He shook his head at you. “Just don’t forget about the other end of the bargain.”

You nodded, “Of course. Goodnight, thank you for letting me stay the night.” You started off towards one of the many spare bedrooms.

“I’ve told you, anytime, Y/N.” He watched you go, rubbing the back of his neck.

The following morning you sat down with Tom and told him your plan. Everything was set, it was going to finally get Gary out of your life without you having to be an absolute bitch to him. Tom got the privilege of doing that.

“You ready?” You asked meeting Tom in front of your apartment building. You’d already confirmed that Gary was still there, so all you had to do was show up and let the fun begin.

You started bickering at the end of your hall, well more like yelling at each other. You didn’t care if your neighbors heard, you could easily tell them all the truth. “Go home, Tom!!” You shouted right outside your door. You fought with your keys to get them in the lock but he turned you around and your back hit the door. Just enough to make a noise, but not harsh enough to hurt you.

“Don’t fucking talk back to me!” He growled.

You got your door open and stepped back into your place as he followed you in. “Get out,” You shouted, shoving at him.

“Y/N?” You could hear Gary over your shoulder, somehow still on your couch and sounding groggy.

Tom grabbed your wrist and your chin smooshing your cheeks. “I fucking-”

“Hey!” Gary yelled, scrambling off the sofa. “Let go of her!”

“Who the fuck is this?” Tom asked, quickly. The gun he kept in the back of his pants was now pointed at Gary.

Gary held his hands up and took a step back, “W-whoa! H-hold on there-”

“Tommy please, please don’t worry about him, he-he’s just a friend.” You lied, sounding so innocent, tears welled in your eyes.

Tom’s eyes narrowed at the man before he cut them at you. He tsked, “Baby, you know better than to lie to me.”

“Y/N, who is this guy?” Gary asked, the fear in his voice made him sound 12.

“My-my ex,” You answered, making Tom’s hold on you a bit tighter as he tugged you closer to himself.

“Your what?” Tom asked, his tone threatening. “Maybe you should properly introduce me, darlin’. You know I love when you tell people what you are to me. What I’d do to anybody that even looks at you thinking they could love you better than I do.”

You whimpered, shrinking into your shoulders. You glanced over at Gary, you wished you could have laughed. He looked like he was about to piss himself. “Gary this is, Tom Holland… I-I’m sure you’ve heard of him…”

Gary swallowed thickly, knowing exactly who the man in front of him was now.

“Gary you should go. Really, T-Tom’s right. I’m his girl, and it was really a mistake to run off on him… but this isn’t working and I don’t want him doing something to you. It’s better this way.”

Gary could only stare at you. “You don’t possibly expect me to just leave you him with this crazy ass-”

Tom clicked the safety off his gun. “What was that, mate?”

Gary took a shallow breath.

“Gary, go! Leave for good please! I’ll be alright but you won’t be if you don’t leave!” You told him, praying he’d finally get out.

“Yeah Gary,” Tom added. “Get out.”

He scrambled to get his things before he was out the door, not even so much as putting his pants on.

You waited for the sound of the stairwell door at the end of the hall to close before you released a sigh of relief.

Tom finally released you and put the safety back on his gun before replacing it in his pants. “I didn’t hurt you, did I darling?” His hand was so gentle on your chin, a complete 180 from how it was before.

You smiled softly at him, “I’m alright Tom, really. I’m never going to be able to repay you. That was brilliant.” You didn’t even hesitate to hug him, something very rare for the two of you.

“Come on, Y/N,” He responded, arms wrapping around you. “You know I’d do anything for you. You’re my girl.”

You glanced up at him, “Tom, do you really-”

“Yes,” He answered before you could even get the question out. “It’s my turn now. I couldn’t wish for someone better than you to be by my side. I’m tired of not having this with you. You’re the only girl I want, alright? Will you please just be with me already? We’re perfect for each other and you know it as well as I do.”

You sighed. “I know all that… it’s just, sometimes it’s nice to have a break from the mob life. To think about having a normal life, with a husband and kids and being safe…”

Tom brushed a strand of your hair behind your ear. “Sweetheart, there’ll never be a safer place for you than with me. We can have a life together, maybe it won’t fully be conventional, but I’m willing to do what it takes to give you everything you want.”

“And what happens when you don’t want to anymore? What happens when you have to go off to some club and there’s other girls there and they’re way more attractive than me and they’re all over you-”

He laughed, “You’re taking the not in a committed relationship Tom and not getting the I want to be with you and only you Tom. Y/N, I want this with you. That’s it, alright? I’d never commit myself to you and do something to hurt you like that. You just have to trust me. Stop thinking about everything else. Do you want to be with me, yes or no?”

You knew he was right. You were being unfair, and trying to talk yourself out of something you really wanted because you were afraid. But from the determined look in his eyes you knew how much he wanted this. You nodded, “Yes I want to be with you.”

Tom smiled and pulled you in for a kiss.

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I dunno if y’all wanna be tagged in Tom fics it’s been too long but I’m gonna tag y’all anyway

When Tom started working for Marvel as Peter Parker for Civil War you became fast friends. Since his character was under your dad’s wing, in real life and the film life since you were his daughter in both, you two got a few scenes together. But while you weren’t filming you became fast friends.

From lunch breaks, to hanging out off set, to days off it was like the two of you had been best friends since childhood. Almost exactly like Tom and Harrison. Except it wasn’t like Tom and Harrison’s relationship because you really liked Tom. Really wanted to be with Tom. But you also knew how difficult it could make things, you still had a few more movies to go and you being not only apart of the movies your dad was in, your part in Homecoming and the movie to follow would be a lot more than just in passing. So, you couldn’t risk making things weird if it didn’t work out.

Even if Tom flirted back with you.

So, you shoved all your feelings aside. If you still had a crush on him when you were done filming Homecoming, well maybe then you would say something. At least then you’d be halfway done the number of movies he would be in.

When filming for Homecoming started, everything was normal. All until the rest of the Homecoming cast became a gang. So now Zendaya, Laura, Tony, and Jacob were hanging out with you, Tom and Harrison a lot. Too much for your preference.

But you accepted it, you weren’t going to not hang out because everyone else was there.

After Homecoming, you still felt the same for him, and you tried to shake it. You really did. But you couldn’t. Especially once Infinity War started filming. That was just more time with Tom alone this time. Only you noticed that Zendaya had started to hang out with the two of you as well. Jealousy was not something you wanted to be feeling, so deciding it best, you started to close yourself off from him.

Tom really didn’t understand what was going on, but with you not really talking to him as much he found more of his time was being spent with Zendaya. So, he accepted that maybe you just didn’t want to be friends with him. It hurt, like hell, especially once he got the news that no M.J. would not be Peter’s love interest in Far From Home, it was your character that would be.

You tried to talk to Jon, to get him to change it, or something so you didn’t have to act like you and Tom were crushing ridiculously hard on each other on set. Nor did you want any mishaps of a kiss scene. However, your director was unable to change things.

Your biggest problem with this situation though? Tom and Zendaya had just started to exclusively see each other. Something you did not want to be in the middle of like this. You wanted to get over Tom, not be more jealous and at the same time probably make his girlfriend even more so!

You left Jon’s office that afternoon, successfully crashing into Tom on your way out.

“Hey, Y/N,” He greeted, having heard your conversation with Jon he couldn’t get himself to smile. He was confused as to why you’d want to have them drastically change the movie. Did you really not like him that much now? He wondered what it was he did that he pushed you away, pushed you to try and convince the director that you didn’t want to pretend on screen to be with him.

“Hey,” You said, unable to meet his eyes, you rubbed the back of your neck. “Gotta go.” Stepping past him, you started towards your trailer.

Tom didn’t hesitate to catch up to you. “Wait up.”

You didn’t stop but he did keep following you. “What, Tom?”

“I just… did I do something?” He asked.

You shook your head. “Not at all, why do you ask?”

He shrugged. “Well, you just sort of seem… mad at me I guess… I heard you with Jon, why were you trying to get him to change stuff so we aren’t together?”

You reached your trailer and opened the door, Tom went to follow you but you stopped in the doorway.

He stopped in front of you and actually caught your eyes this time. “What did I do? I’ve known you a few years now, Y/N. I know something’s been wrong, so tell me so I can fix it and we can get on with it.”

You shook your head, “No idea what you’re talking about, weren’t you supposed to be getting lunch with Z?” The second the question left your lips his eyes widened. You regretted asking it, it wasn’t meant to throw any hints at him, it was just you wondering why he was here.

He cast a glance over his shoulder. “Told her I had some stuff to do,” He told you. He took a step closer to you. “You’re jealous.”

You glared at him. “Oh really, am I? Because I think that’s a terrible accusation to make against someone that was trying to make it so you could play boyfriend girlfriend on screen with your actual girlfriend.”

He laughed, “Come on, Y/N. We both know that’s a lie.” He was leaning just so he was now face to face with you.

He was so close to you if you even shifted you thought your noses might touch. But you kept your ground, your arms crossed. “What is your problem?”

“My problem is that I don’t want things in the script to change. I want us to be together in this movie because I think it’ll be brilliant.”

You turned your head away finally and stepped back into your trailer. “Well I think all it’s going to do is make you break my heart more than you already have.” You slammed the door in his face.

While he had his inklings, your confession really hit him. He thought about knocking, but then thought it might just make things worse.

Your first actual flirting scene with Tom did not start out smoothly.

Jon pulled both of you aside. “Guys, come on… You’ve gotta sell it. I’ve seen you two flirting before, it comes so natural to you guys. Just do that, alright? Make us feel like you two are actually falling in love with each other, hm?”

You were both pink cheeked when you got back into positions. You could practically feel Daya glaring at you before they started rolling. But, you turned it up 100 percent. So much so that Tom really did fumble over his lines, and not in the acting way he was supposed to.

As soon as the scene was over you hightailed it to your trailer, glad it was your last scene for the day.

Except now you had another problem, with how dialed up you made it, you knew that it was going to be expected of you the rest of shooting. So, you locked everything deep down inside you.

It was finally the day you were really dreading. The day you were going to have to kiss Tom, and he was going to have to kiss you back. And you swore to yourself you were not going to move your lips at all. If the world thought you were bad at kissing, good. Better than if people thought you were in love with him.

The biggest problem with this kiss you found though was that you had to be strapped up to wires and Tom. Which meant that once you were done the scene you couldn’t just leave, you had to wait to be lowered, and unstrapped. It also didn’t help that you pretty much had to wrap your entire self around Tom, or that his hand was going to be specifically placed under your butt to make holding you up more believable.

You went through the scene perfectly. Up until the kiss. Tom hesitated, you didn’t move a muscle, his nose bumped yours before his lips landed upon your own. Only to find that yours refused to move.

“CUT,” Jon yelled, you could see the annoyance on his face from so far away, you knew you were in for the lecture.

God, it didn’t help that Zendaya was on set, waiting for Tom to finish up. Maybe you could push all your thoughts aside and just act if she wasn’t staring you down.

After your lecture from your director, Tom whispered into your ear. “I know you hate me now, but how about we make this a good one huh? Try and show me what you really feel, Y/N.”

You didn’t respond, but if that’s what he wanted, fine. That’s what you’d give him.

You reshot the scene and just as he leaned in to kiss you, his lips fell on yours and it was like you released all the anger and jealousy from your body. You kissed him like it was the last time you’d ever see him again, and frankly that might be true with how you felt about him and the awkwardness you’d now feel everyday. But, as he held you tighter, his tongue slipped out and grazed your lip.

You heard the cut, but apparently Tom didn’t. You broke away from him so fast that his head followed yours like someone tore a bottle of water away from his lips.

You could see Zendaya fuming.

You could see Tom staring at you from the corner of your eye.

But you released yourself from him and waited to be set on the ground. As soon as you were free from your ropes you practically ran off set.

Tom on the other hand stood there dumbfounded. He could feel you put everything into that kiss. He knew how much he’d hurt you. He hated himself. Why did he decide it was okay to date Zendaya, but he couldn’t get himself to ask you?

“What was that?” Zendaya asked her boyfriend as soon as the two of them were alone.

“What?” Tom asked, trying to act as if he wasn’t coming to the conclusion that he really did like you and he didn’t care how things ended but he wanted them to end good, not like this.

“You know what. That kiss was not a screen kiss. Everyone knows she likes you. I’m not going to do this with you, Tom. I like you a lot. I was so happy when we finally got together. But she’s always gotta be in the picture, she’s all you would talk about, and I thought it was just because you guys were friends, but I see it now. And I really hope I’m wrong, I want you to tell me I’m wrong. I want you to choose me over her. And when you do I want you to be done with her. Cut her from your life.”

Tom could only stare at her. She was really making him choose?

“Well Tom? Pick. Me or Y/N.” Zendaya stated.

“Y/N,” Tom said, without hesitation. This fallout was something he knew he’d have to deal with sooner or later. He’d just get through filming and be done with it. But he wasn’t going to lose you because the girl he was seeing didn’t want you in his life, whether he liked you or not.

He ran straight for your trailer once Zendaya was gone. He banged on your door until you finally answered. You looked worse for ware, your makeup had been wiped off, your eyes were red from crying. You sighed seeing him. “Go away, Tom. Don’t you have a girlfriend to make things up to?”

“No, I have a girl that I didn’t want to ruin things with, to make it up to. You, Y/N. I’m sorry, truly.” He stepped into your trailer and shut the door behind himself, making you back away from him. He grabbed your shoulders. “I was so afraid of losing you that I didn’t want to risk asking you out. With Zendaya it was easy because if it got messed up it didn’t matter, but if this got messed up I don’t know what I’d do without you. But I realize I caused exactly what I didn’t want to happen and I’m so sorry. Can you ever forgive me? Because the second Z asked me to choose between you and her, I didn’t hesitate to say you and I want to be able to prove to you how much I want you.”

You stared at him as he manically explained things to you. “You… you chose me?”

He nodded. “And I’d choose you a million times over, because you are the most amazing person I’ve ever met and I’ve liked you since the moment we met. Please please go on a date with me. Let me kiss you every single day as much as I possibly can so I can show you how much you mean to me.”

You reached out and gently took his hand. “Are you sure it’s really what you want and you aren’t just-”

He tugged you closer making you really look up at him. “You’re the girl I want to be with, today, tomorrow, and as many days as you’ll let me have you for.”

“What if I said no?” You asked.

His face faltered, but the answer he gave was so genuine, “Then I’m going to spend every single day trying to convince you as to why you be with me, besides the obvious that we both like each other. Until you tell me I have to stop. But even if you say yes I’ll still give you reasons everyday as to why we should be together.”

You smiled softly and wrapped your arms around his torso.

He sighed in relief and held you close. “This is a yes right? Please tell me it’s yes.”

You nodded against him. “Even if you hadn’t given me such an extremely lovely answer, the answer still would have been yes.”

Toms smile went wide before he grabbed your face and kissed you. This was a right kiss, with the right girl.

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Ever since you first started off in the industry Tom had been following you. Well not in the literal sense. Every magazine you were in, he bought one, every interview you were in, he watched. He was definitely a huge fan of yours. You were sweet and beautiful, what wasn’t there to like?

But he was still low on the food chain himself, but God his dream was to meet you someday. If just to tell you how beautiful he thought you were.

You on the other hand had been following Tom since you saw him in How I Live Now. He was just so cute and you could tell he was going to go far in his acting career. Then when he was cast as Spider-Man for Marvel, well you knew he’d really start to take off.

And he did, and there were a few times you were at the same events, but you never managed to run into him. You figured it must not be meant to be.

Work was busy, you went from Paris to New York, LA to London. You were on of the top models in the world, finally reaching your dreams. All you ever wanted was to make it big, and now that you had you realized you’d never be out of the spotlight. Not that there was really a problem with that, you wouldn’t have become a model if you didn’t.

Fashion week had just practically ended and you were setting up interviews with the big names of late night t.v. When you found out that you’d be the first person interviewed and that some Marvel actors would be interviewing after you to promote End Game, you were excited. You tried to not to get your hopes up though. But you really wanted Tom to be there. Over the course of the past few years he’d gotten even bigger and way more handsome. He was so funny and you just wanted to meet him.

When it was finally confirmed that he would in fact be there, while not admitting it to anyone, you fangirled for a good few minutes before calming yourself down and coming up with a plan.

The day of the interview both you and Tom were buzzing with nervousness. If you finally got to meet you both wondered how things would go.

Upon your arrival at the studio you found that you were not able to meet the few Marvel actors that were there before the show.

So, there you were sitting beside your host, James Corden. He started the interview off like he would any other. It wasn’t long before he was finally introducing the Marvel cast members.

There was so much applause. Mark Ruffalo, Scarlett Johansson, Robert Downey Jr., and Tom all  came out.

Your heart skipped a beat, he was heading right towards you as you stood with James to greet them all.

Tom was speechless as you offered your hand to him. He didn’t know what to say, everything happened so fast he was suddenly sitting in a seat beside you. His three co-stars sitting behind the two of you.

You cast a quick shy glance Tom’s way, you couldn’t believe this was happening.

Tom nervously wiped his hands on his pants.

“Wow, we seem to have two nervous kids up here, don’t we,” James laughed, making everyone else laugh.

“What do you expect?” Mark asked. “Tom’s got the biggest crush on Miss Y/L/N. Never shuts up about her.”

Tom’s face lit up red, he tried to counter, but stumbled over words as he saw you blush a great deal as well.

“Come on, Mark you’re embarrassing the kids,” Robert said, a sly smile on his face.

“And judging by the look on your face Y/N, you seem to have a bit of a crush on Tom here,” James accused.

“Oh well I-,” You started, then you glanced at Tom and any thoughts left as his face fell. You didn’t mean for that to sound negative, but now with that little hint you found yourself able to take a breath. At least you knew he didn’t not like you. “Of course. What girl my age or younger wouldn’t have a crush on him. He’s funny and handsome and have you seen his dog? Cutest little bean I have ever seen and he loves her so much.”

You realized you probably went a little far, but hey, you’d probably never see him again if you didn’t talk to him after this so who cares if the world knew you had a crush on someone.

This got ooh’s from the audience and the group behind you.

Tom blushed the entire rest of the interview. He found he couldn’t even respond. All he could do was think about how you just admitted you liked him.

God your nervousness grew as you sat there while the three adults behind you promoted their movie. Of course, just before the end they all started to roast you and Tom for having been so quiet.

“I know where Tom will be after this,” Scarlett stated.

“They’ve definitely got a thing for each other. Maybe something will come out of it,” Mark added.

“Or maybe the kid will finally get over his not wanting to date phase and actually do something about the girl he likes,” Robert said, reaching over and putting his hand on Tom’s shoulder.

The show ended, you were finally free to head out and you found things to be rather awkward.

But you received apologies from the other interviewees just in case they embarrassed you too much before they all threw looks at Tom, as if pushing him.

“I’m… I’m really sorry about them… Being the youngest, I sort of catch all the teasing…” He admitted, finally finding words now that you two were alone.

You smiled softly at him. “It’s alright, I get it. I think it’s sweet that they’re like that with you.”

“It can be sometimes,” He told you.

Silence fell between you, he rubbed the back of his neck, you looked down at your feet.

You both went to say something, then told the other to go first, thankfully the little slip made things a bit more comfortable.

“Was what you said true?” Tom asked.

You nodded. “Yeah… And that was before you were brought on as Spider-Man.”

Tom’s eyes widened at your truth. “R-really?”

“Yeah, always thought you were pretty cute, and very talented.”

“I… wow… I never imagined… Funnily enough I um I’ve been following your career for quite some time too. I hope that doesn’t sound weird… I just… you’re so beautiful and sweet.”

You smiled up at him, softly.

“Ask her out already!” Robert said from the side of the stage, sounding exasperated.

You both blushed and found you were being watched by the four that you thought had left you. All of them notioning to Tom the he should do it.

You chuckled lightly as he turned around with an annoyed look.

“Now they’ve gone and ruined things.” Tom stated.

“Why do you say that?” You asked.

“Because now if I ask you out you’ll believe it was because they told me to do it.”

You took a small step forward. “Well then, will you go out with me? Because I really like you Tom, and I think we’d be great together. Whether your friends told you to ask me or not.”

He smiled back at you. “Uh yeah, yeah I’d love to.”

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Falling in love so fast was not supposed to end like this. The second you met Tom you knew, he was your one. The person that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with. It was only a few months before he proposed and you got married.

That day was perfect. Yet, many of the days that followed were far from it. Being married to a movie star had its downfalls. Like hardly getting to see each other, false news, late night or early morning phone calls that disrupted one or the others sleep schedule only for one of you to fall asleep 5 minutes into the call anyway. So many reasons to just give up on it all.

To find something better, something worth it.

Yet, here you were lying in your bed thinking about him lying next to you. Wishing he was, but the other thoughts of the fights and the final one where you both decided that it was time to move on. You both agreed.

You wondered why you didn’t fight harder to keep it, why he didn’t either. Maybe it was just because it was easy. As you sat there you thought, wishing you hadn’t put your rings in your dresser drawer.

You reached for your phone, it was late. You knew you shouldn’t, but it wasn’t the first time. You called the number, it only rang twice before he answered. You knew he was in town, so you knew it’d be easy to convince him to come home. If home was even the word for it now.

It wasn’t long before there was a knock at your door. You padded down and opened it, the dull porch light caught in brown eyes.

A sense of relief washed over both of you as Tom stepped through. The door closed softly behind him, with a flick of the lock his lips were falling on yours, taking you in like he thought you might disappear from his grasp.

Everytime he was in town it’s how it went, and every morning you’d wake up wearing his shirt and he’d still be there.

Yet, everytime he left with the same words on his lips. “Y/N, we can’t keep doing this… we separated for a reason. We need to stop backsliding, we need to stop falling back into the same thing. I don’t want us hurting each other.”

You’d agree, wondering why you didn’t stop him from leaving. Him wondering why he didn’t stay.

It was another year before the two of you started casually seeing other people. It wasn’t the same. You heard about Tom seeing some model through a tabloid you passed at the store. He heard you were dating a nice guy from one of your mutual friends.

So, why was it neither of you could just be happy? Was it because you kept thinking about the past? Was it because even after the two of you knew the other was seeing someone else you still managed to call him, and he always showed up?

There's a million reasons why you should be happy. You just needed one, but that one reason, the millions, weren’t good enough because all that really made you happy was him, and all that made him happy was you.

You finally decided that enough was enough. You were going to call him and tell him, you were done. You were pushing him out of your life for good. You weren’t going to let him back in. But he answered his phone calling you love, and you knew you were sliding back.

He held you so close that night, you’d thought he’d been asleep when the words quietly fell from your lips.

“Why do I need you if we aren’t meant to be together? Why do we keep doing this? I need you, Tom. I can’t even begin to explain how much…” Tears slid down and caught on your pillow. A gasp left you when Tom’s hand came up and brushed your cheek. Your eyes met his in surprise.

“I need you too, sweetheart… I’m sorry. I know things haven’t been perfect, but I do still love you.” He whispered to you, placing soft kisses on your forehead.

“I love you too, Tom.”

“It won’t be easy, but I think we could make it work better now, don’t you?”

You nodded.

He smiled and pulled you in for a kiss.

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‘I got the part!’ The text from Tom read. A wave of jealousy crashed over you as you curled up tighter on your couch. Of course you were proud of him and very happy that he got the part in this new movie he wanted.

But once again you got a rejection call that morning, making it hard to really feel the happiness you wanted to for him. You sent back a short congrats before turning your phone off.

It wasn’t that you wanted to ignore him, but you just couldn’t read his excited messages you knew would follow about the part he got.

Especially when it’s been three months since your last gig and you were beginning to look for a part time job. Yeah that made sense the girl dating Tom Holland getting a retail job. Just perfect right?

He’d really want to stay with you then.

Your thoughts crashed down on you for what felt like forever. You couldn’t even bring yourself to move when there was a knock at your door.

When the door opened you knew it had to be Tom, he was the only other person with a key besides the landlord.

By now the room was dark so he switched the light on. “Y/N,” he called out, unable to see you on your couch. “Are you here, love?”

You wiped at your cheeks but didn’t answer, hoping he would leave you to wallow in your sadness.

However, he was much too worried about you, you stopped answering him a while ago. Something unlike you and he wasn’t going to give up until you answered or he found you.

You could hear him heading towards your bedroom, but you couldn’t see him because you were facing the back of your couch.

He froze spotting you all curled up, a deep frown set on his face. He sat down beside you and gently shook your shoulder. “Sweetheart,” he said it softly, as if you were sleeping and he was trying to wake you.

“Please go, Tom,” You said it so quietly he almost thought he heard you wrong, or rather he hoped.

“Are you sick love?” He asked, reaching over you to feel the part of your forehead that he could see.

“I just really want to be alone,” you told him, swatting at his hand.

The worry in his gut changed from you being missing to wondering what he did that must have hurt you. He pulled his hand back. “Did I do something?”

“Why are you even with me?” You asked, not even meaning to. You really didn’t want to know the answer if it was bad.

He was quiet for a moment, shocked you’d ask such a thing. “Because I love you.” He answered simply. “What’s going on?”

You shook your head. “Nothing. Nothing is going on. Exactly that. I don’t get why you’re with me. I’m nothing but a failure. There’s so many better people out there you could be with, yet you’re wasting your time on someone that can’t even get a part in a dumb commercial. You deserve so much better than me Tom, you should go, really.”

You hid your face deeper into your couch, to hide your tears.

However, Tom was so surprised. He knew you’d been having trouble, but he never thought that you’d think he shouldn’t be with you because of that. He took hold of your arm and pulled you up.

You struggled against him, but his arms wrapped around you tightly.

“I know you’re having a hard time, but please Y/N just listen. Nothing will ever change how I feel about you. I’m not with you for any other reason than I think we were meant to be together. You’re so smart and charming. You’re beautiful and funny, and I just can’t get enough of you. I want you by my side through everything. I love you. I don’t want either of our successes or failures to dictate this love we share. We’re in this together. You will find something great I know it. But please don’t ever ask me to go, because we’re in this together.”

Tom stroked your hair as you sobbed into him. He kissed your head a thousand times it seemed.

“I love you,” he whispered once he got you to calm down some.

You sniffled, “I love you too, Tom.”

“I’ll ask around. We’ll find something for you, alright? I promise.”

You didn’t want to get your hopes up, but your boyfriend always came through for you.

He found you the perfect part in a new show and you were beyond thankful for him.

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