Jun 19
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How do you cry
When your heart feels broken for the thousand time
How do you breath and stop the tears from coming by
How do you glue it so that you will still feel
And hope everyday for something real
Will it come
Is it worth the wait
All the dreams you keep on hold, all the bad memories you try to cold
How'd you stop
How'd do you tell your heart it will be ok
When even your brain doesn't stop to breathe and ease the pain
It fucking hurts every time it breaks
Just make it stop and go away
Just stop the pain.
Cry all the way.
Clean up your soul and seal the wounds with the happy feelings in your mind.
It'll be alright.
4/6/19
Feelings of devastation. Sad. Numb. Alone. Guilt. Grieving. Not wanting to accept it. Having to accept it.
I am not alone in this.
Wondering. Was there anything I could have done to make you stay.
I did everything right.
My biggest dream. My blessing from above taken to stay above not on this earth.
Crying. Bleeding. Hurting. Heartbroken.
Am I broken.
Trying to move forward. Scared it will happen again. Everything was fine. Was. Nothing is fine now.
Dreams of losing it all over again.
Not sleeping.
Reminded by blood flow. Crumbling devastation.
What comes next.
Grieving.
Resting.
Healing.
Some emotions are meant to be felt,
The deeper you sink,
The closer you’re to healing.
NK
she pees at four am. in your apartment. wearing your shirt. your big blue shirt. blue bed. blue blanket. blue eyes. she has a way with comfortable without saying it she leaves a headband. she leaves an earring. she leaves both gloves. both socks. a shirt. a library book. you find and find. and you wonder what verdict. when it hurts will you say when big bed. big blanket. big eyes. she creaks the door open. you think you will hear it. you will feel less warm when she goes. but when she comes back. you don’t say it. you open the big blue blanket. you open your big blue eyes. you open 4 am and see the memory of her moving.
where do we go now
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I want to share something that has been on my mind for a while. It's getting heavy on me and I just wanted a space to just let it out. So I recently met a guy online and apparently we both like each other. We talk to each other a lot but I already have a boyfriend and I told this guy about my boyfriend on Day 1. But we are still good friends and we love talking to each other.
The more I talk to him the more I feel like I'm really attracted to this guy and just love his presence, his attention, his voice, his giggles, his humour, his intelligence and his overthinking too.
I am not really happy in my relationship but I just can't bring myself to break my boyfriend's heart just because someone else interests me. Because I don't know whether these feelings are temporary or permanent and idk much about this new guy either. Yet, I just love talking to him, the way he loves my voice, my singing, my voice acting, and the way he treats me like a baby and finds me adorable.
Though there are some things that I don't like when it comes to him. Of course no one is perfect and that's what makes us human. But still I don't want him to just disappear without telling me anything for the whole day, I want him to feel safe with me and want him to talk to me about the things he's right now hesitant about. I really find him interesting maybe because I don't know much about him yet. Whatever it is, I just feel like I love him and I also feel like he loves me too but we both are unsure about turning it into a relationship. Because we don't know much about each other and we don't know whether we will be compatible with each other in the long term or not. Also it may be a temporary thing and there is a chance that these magical feelings might vanish after a while.
But as things are right now, I really want to talk to him all the time and I think I will be really jealous if he talks to other girls.
We talked for many hours yesterday but at midnight, he said I should give time to my boyfriend and that he is not my boyfriend. I really despised this reality. But yes, it's true and I replied that, yes I will now just talk to him... And hence I did not text or call this guy today but I checked his DM like 10 times. He has a little ego and doesn't really want to text first. Still he texted asking if I ghosted him. I replied with "wdyt? (what do you think)". He still hasn't read my reply.
I have kind of made up my mind that I will not talk to this guy too much again because no matter what I feel about him I don't know whether he can live up to all my day dreams. And in no world I want to pressurize someone for my selfish desires.
I will pay more attention to my boyfriend and try to make things good and even if they don't turn out to be good... I still don't want him to feel like he was cheated. He was not. Just talking friendly and singing with a friend can't be cheating.
A veces, el cuerpo guarda secretos que el alma no está lista para perdonar. Este diagnóstico no es solo una enfermedad, es el eco de decisiones que ya no puedo deshacer. 📷 Photo: Anna Shvets