#raugh

a while ago, told my primary care doc i wanted to get 1000mg tabs of my muscle relaxer (my prev dose was 750) so that i could have more control over my dose, and be able to break em into 500s and start petering down when i felt able. reasons being: partly because my physical therapy is going really well and i was hopeful; i have suspicions that the muscle relaxers may be interfering with my digestion based on what happens to izzys guts when they take a higher dose of muscle relaxer; and partly out of compulsion bc i have been on them so long.

well so he wrote me that script. i didnt start going down on them for a while, but i have gone down to 500mg in the morning and im at 1000mg at night.

until one of my recent appointments, i was scrambled and not doing well verbally and he hit me with the "i dunno its a high dose and youve been on it for a long time...but ill refill it" and only filled. 500mg am & pm.

so like a few days ago idk i was like. fuck. okay. im about to break into that bottle let me try 500 at night for a couple nights.

jaw immediately flares so bad. which, duh, i should have seen THAT coming. its the only thing we CANT work on in pt and that we have to keep under control with drugs until i can see a dentist & get my tmj evaluated. bc my trigeminal nerve activation is tied up in my shoulder muscles too so my pt cant do too much there without pissing off my jaw.

um so we're in a bad jaw flare. yesterday morning i took 750mg muscle relaxer and naproxen and that helped for most of the day. last night i took 1000mg muscle relaxer plus advil at 6pm plus aleve at bedtime (around 8) plus weed. and that knocked out most of the pain and allowed me to actually get restful sleep.