#rant??

can we srs TALK about this loser???

the fact that he keeps on MANIPULATING himself about that he doesn't care about anyone in the circus (maybe it's true, but he was close with ragatha + he **WAS** getting closer to pomni, which we can see when he indirectly asks questions about herself, and puts her into certain situations to see what she could do, and then, the moment he sees ribbits door he notices that he was getting offtracks, maybe, just maybe. And realized that he shouldn't get closer to her.)

this is just so crazy to me. At first, i think we all thought that he was doing it out of pity. Maybe just to spite Ragatha, hell. Or as he said, "for fun".

Maybe i'm stating the obvious, but it was definitely not for fun. At all. You can tell he was enjoying himself in a genuine way.

My point here is: Jax is only ruining himself. No one else. Yes, maybe he is "broken", or just a sad thing in general. They all are, in a way, but i don't think this excuses him too greatly. Maybe it's adding depth to his character, and, honestly? I'm eating it up. But man. I wish we got to see more of himself. But i really doubt it.

Their moments are the most great ones in the show IMO, (after Kinger and Ragatha, maybe i'll rant about it later . . .) and the fact that they lasted so little is kinda dissapointing, i also wish we get to see more of this side of Pomni, she was genuinely so cool in this ep.

Well, back to Jax, i just think he's neat. I hate him. But i love him. I don't know how to explain it but gosh he makes me so mad but at the same time he makes me so happy. I want to believe that he's not only an asshole. AND HE ISN'T!!!! but he's just trying too hard. i KNOW maybe it is a coping mechanism. And that maybe, just maybe, he's scared that if he gets too close to someone again, he'll lose them. And, he will.

I'm so sure he will abstract. And it will suck. Because i think he's one of the cast that i like the most besides Kinger. I just KNOW it's gonna be depressing.

also THIS SCENE?????? his visual confusion kills me.

i NEED to talk about Ragatha's obssesion with Pomni too, if i may call it that. It's so insane.

Well, conclusion of this random rant: Like i said before, he's slowly losing it. Entirely. I think that the way he is it's because he was trying to keep himself in check just so he doesn't go insane. But he did anyway. It's so sad to see. I know people like this (except the sociopath and the most probably sadistic part) IRL and they try so hard to mantain a certain role of themselves that they keep pushing so they don't lose themselves in the process. And they still do. And when someone tries to help; they just push them away. Brush it off. Make a pun. Say some jokes.. but it's never gonna work. And in their minds, it does.

i don't know what you call this, but. It definitely has a name. But i don't want to put a label to it. Maybe Jax is Jax. But i don't think that's necessarily good.. nor bad, maybe.

Jax is a bad person and that's it to it. And it's so upsetting to see. I wish he was more vulnerable.

also why is his tail back LOL