#ramapani

72 hours later: I’ve finished updating the Ramapani site. Take a minute to look around and, if you like, press the poll: it’s a tiny way to be seen and to help shape what comes next.

In two weeks, I’ll be leaving my job. After twenty years of steady effort and quietly pretending I wasn't exhausted, I’m taking a year‑long sabbatical. Think of it as a cross between a Buddhist retreat and a metaphysical side‑quest. I'm going with no instruction manual, but plenty of plans.

The year is for writing: the book that’s been growing in the background, and for something else that has been forming itself just as quietly. A parallel current. A contemplative project called Ramapani.

Ramapani is a practice. A way of seeing. A kind of symbolic, non‑dual, mystic divination that reveals the subtle patterns beneath experience.

It’s emerging slowly, like a pattern in still water, and I’m following it with equal parts curiosity and devotion. If you want to wander through it as it unfolds, you can find it at ramapani.com.

To mark this transition, I sat with the question of direction, through the contemplative method I’ve been developing. What surfaced was simple:

Whatever my direction, I must move with intention. Trust the path even when it dissolves into fog. Keep going.

Very Zen. Very “wandering practitioner carrying a quiet purpose.” Very on‑brand for someone stepping into a year of deliberate work, symbolic inquiry, deep meditation, and the kind of insights that tend to arrive at inconvenient times.

So here I go: into the unknown, into the work, into whatever Ramapani wants to become. Thanks for being here while I follow the thread with the confidence of someone who absolutely did not check whether the thread is attached to anything.

As it grows, Ramapani will step beyond my notebook and into the world, offered as a practice others can experience as this new, non‑dual form of divination takes shape.

I was wondering if you know what my higher self meant when they sent me a clairaudient message ~ Find Maya Find Kaya. The voice woke me from a slumber and continued speaking to me saying the same words over and over again, Find Maya Find Kaya. Several times. Do you think it has to do with the illusion of everything/ the veil? And do you think the Kaya reference has something to do with the 3 Kayas? Any help would be much appreciated. I do not know much about the 3 Kayas, but I feel like Maya might be my devine feminine side and Kaya might be my Devine masculine side and that’s why the voice sounded like two people talking at once as ONE simultaneously. Any thoughts? This was years ago~ but I’ve NEVER been able to forget about it. I’m just like?!?!?!? It seemed like the voice meant to get to it and really try and figure out where Maya and Kaya are. I think I’m figuring it out~ just thought you might have some insight?!

Thank you, Elle Anonymous