#rain scenes

I like to imagine that Vincent tries to make friends with her as they both grow to be lovers, And learns to accept some things about her that she’s not as social as he is.

Oh Sure! I hope I hit the mark quite accurately and aimed for an intermediate level.

The Shape of Quiet I Vincent x mild autism! Reader

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I — Noise

The studio smells of coffee, printer paper, and the light dust that always settles in prop rooms. I know this smell better than my own home by now—and that means more to me than it should. Smells are reliable. They don’t change just because you’re not looking.

I’ve been here for three weeks now. As a set assistant—that sounds like more than it actually is. Because it means: call sheets, production schedules, change memos, and the quiet hope that no one will forget to send me the revised script pages on time today.

I prefer to work in the corner next to the second camera exit. It’s quiet there. There’s predictable lighting, a steady noise level, and no one asks me questions that aren’t on my checklist. In three weeks, I’ve learned which paths through the studio are least traveled, at what time the cafeteria gets too loud, and that after a long day of meetings, I need at least two hours of silence before my mind clears up again.

These aren’t quirks. This is how my brain works. At least that’s what a doctor says, but to most people, they’re quirks. Sometimes I take it too much to heart.

I first notice Vincent Whittman when he laughs too loudly.

Not loud in an unpleasant way. It’s—precise. Calculated. I look up because my brain automatically reacts to unexpected sounds, registering and processing them. There he stands at the other end of the studio, surrounded by actresses and assistants. He laughs, and everyone in the room turns toward him like sunflowers toward the light.

I briefly analyze why. Voice: pleasant, deep, without harshness. Posture: open, inviting, controlled and relaxed. Eye contact: distributed, excluding no one. I recognize the pattern. He’s doing this on purpose. He knows exactly what he’s doing.

Shaking my head, I turn back to my spreadsheets.

Whittman comes over anyway. Of course he does. He’s an actor.

“Are you new here?” Whittman asks, leaning down slightly toward me. The closeness is uncomfortable—not because of him specifically, but because unannounced closeness is always uncomfortable. My body registers it immediately: half a step too close.

I look up. Heterochromia—the right eye a pale blue, the left a vivid green behind his glasses. He’s taller than I expected and smells like the sea.

Instantly, I’m seven years old, sitting on a rock above the water on vacation. Warm light. No people. No one who wants anything from me.

I blink. “Three weeks,” I reply.

Whittman waits. I’m silent. There’s nothing more to say—he asked, I answered.

A slight twitch at the corner of his mouth. “I’m Vincent.”

“I know.” I hold out the stack of forms to him. “One of these is yours.”

He takes the sheet. But he looks at me—with an expression I can’t quite decipher right away. Surprised? No. More like something has just thrown him slightly off balance, and he finds it interesting rather than annoying.

“I’m bothering you,” Whittman says finally. No apology. A statement. I notice that he doesn’t ask, “Am I bothering you?”—he states it. That’s more honest.

“No,” I lie, because that’s the answer you give. That’s what I’ve learned. If you say yes, people think you’re rude. So you say no, even if you mean: Please go away. My brain is currently processing your scent, your voice, the air conditioning, the wrong lighting, and the fact that my spreadsheet isn’t finished yet—all at the same time.

Whittman smiles. Sharp at the edges, warm in the middle. As if he were two different people at once.

“See you tomorrow,” he says, and leaves.

I sit there for another second. Watch his shoulders disappear into the crowd.

Then I keep typing.

Try not to think about him anymore.

It works only so-so.

II — Synchronization

Vincent comes every day. With him comes that smell every time—the sea, salt, something warm beneath it—and every time that brief, uncontrollable image: rocks. Water. Silence.

I don’t like that.

Sometimes he just stops by briefly, on his way to rehearsal. Sometimes longer. He always brings two coffees—one for himself, the other he places silently next to my laptop. Doesn’t take it back if I don’t say thank you. Doesn’t expect a thank you. I’d thought that if I didn’t say anything, he’d stop. But I’m wrong.

Every time, I drink it.

(That’s not a weakness. I like coffee. That’s all.)

On the fifth day, I ask, “Why do you do that?”

Whittman blinks. “What?”

“Come here. Bring the coffee.” I emphasize the question by pointing to both cups.

He’s silent for a moment—on purpose, I realize now. Whittman doesn’t fill the silence. He lets it stand until he knows what he wants to say. I know that pattern from myself, from the inside. It’s the first time I’ve seen it in someone else.

“It’s quieter here,” he finally says. As he does, he looks at me so calmly that I don’t know where to look.

I quickly look around. Stacks of paper. My humming laptop. The printer that coughs every twenty minutes. “Relatively,” I say and roll my eyes, because that’s a reaction I know and it fits.

Whittman laughs. This time it sounds more genuine than in the studio. Less polished. Less calculated.

I notice the difference. I commit it to memory.

I do that too often with him. Memorizing things without knowing why.

“I like the way you say things,” he said, resting one arm on the desk. His face is closer now, and I instinctively shift an inch to the side—not far, not noticeably, just a little more space.

“How do I say them?”

“Just like that. Straight to the point.” He brushes a strand of hair from his face.

I wonder if that’s a compliment. Most of the time, it isn’t. Most of the time, what’s behind it is: you’re weird, just wrapped in nicer packaging. Like finding cookies at Grandma’s and then finding the sewing kit inside.

“I expend energy on social codes,” I say. “When I’m direct, I save mental bandwidth.”

Whittman raises both eyebrows. Looks at me—really, not just a glance. As if he’s reading something he doesn’t quite understand yet, but wants to keep reading.

“That’s honest,” he says quietly and steps back—giving me my space without my asking.

I take note of that. Save it again.

“You asked.” Relieved, I roll back to my desk.

He nods. Drinks his coffee. Leaves eventually, without making a fuss about it.

I stare at my screen and realize I’ve read the last line three times without taking it in.

That’s not normal for me. I always get it the first time.

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In the evening on the subway, sitting by the window with headphones on. That’s my moment. No talking. No expectations. No faces I have to read. Just movement and the city passing by, and my mind finally stopping to process everything twice.

Today I keep the music playing without really listening.

I think about his face as he listened. How he didn’t answer right away. How he didn’t try to correct me or finish my sentences.

I try to analyze it—because analyzing is reliable, because then I feel like I understand something. But this time I don’t get any further than: He looked at me as if what I was saying was interesting. Not despite the way I say it. Because of it.

That’s new.

I don’t know what to do with it. So I leave it there, like you leave a stone on the ground that you don’t want to pick up because you don’t know what’s underneath.

III — Warmth

It’s the little things I’m starting to notice, without even realizing it.

Like how Vincent knocks before he comes in—always, even when the door is open. How he waits until I look up before he speaks. How Whittman has stopped asking me questions when I’m engrossed in a spreadsheet, and instead just sits there with his coffee. Sometimes he looks out the window. Sometimes at me.

I pretend not to notice. I always notice.

Inside, I kept a sort of list without meaning to. The list is called Patterns I Observe in Vincent. Not Reasons to Like Vincent. That’s an important distinction. That’s what I tell myself.

Entry twenty-seven: He doesn’t touch my things.

Entry twenty-eight: He never explains anything to me that I haven’t asked about.

When my stack of papers slid off the table during a chaotic day of filming, he caught it—without a word, set it down straight, and carried on as if nothing had happened.

I looked at him afterward. He glanced back briefly. Then we both quickly looked away.

My cheeks were warm.

I don’t keep a list of warm cheeks.

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One Thursday evening—the studio almost empty, it getting dark early outside, rain pattering against the window—he asks, “What are you listening to right now?”

I have one earbud half in. Vincent points to it.

I look up shyly. Whittman caught me not listening, yet he didn’t look as if that were strange.

“Nothing,” I say. “Sometimes I wear them so no one will talk to me.”

Vincent processes that. I see him sorting it out—not judging, just sorting. Then he nods. “Clever disguise.”

“It usually works.”

“Not on me,” Vincent grins, and his tone isn’t smug. He sounds almost apologetic. Almost.

“No,” I admit. “Not on you.”

He smiles—very quietly, very slightly. Not the studio smile. The other one.

I keep typing and notice that I’m smiling myself. At my screen, where he can’t see it.

Maybe.

(I’m worried that “maybe” is the wrong assessment.)

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One evening, after everyone else has left, he brings me my coffee and pauses. He holds it out until I look up.

“May I sit down for a moment?” Whittman asks, tilting his head slightly to one side. A strand of hair slips out of his hairstyle, and he blows it out of his line of sight.

That’s unexpectedly genuine. I’ve always seen him as flawless.

Somehow, that’s nice.

“Please,” I say, gesturing to the chair across from me.

He sits down. He places his hands flat on the table—a strangely open gesture for someone who usually makes such a point of his posture. “How are you?”

“That’s a very vague question,” I look up.

“I mean it specifically. Today was loud,” Vincent smiles at me warmly.

I think about the day. The unplanned rehearsal that went an hour over. The cameraman who asked three times what I meant by “left column”—I’d said it the second time in different words and shown it the third time because my brain couldn’t come up with a fourth way to put it. The light in the afternoon, which was set too bright and burned my eyes.

“Yes,” I agree. “Today was loud.”

Vincent nods. Says nothing. Just waits—and the waiting doesn’t feel like pressure. It feels like space.

I don’t know why—maybe because it’s late and I’m too tired to sort through it all—but I explain: “It’s like a radio you can’t turn off. Everything comes in. Always. Every voice, every light, every unexpected touch. You learn to sort through it, but it takes its toll. All day long. And by evening, the battery’s dead.”

I hear myself talking and think: too much. That was too much.

But I don’t take it back.

Vincent looks at me for a very long time. And then, very quietly, with an expression that barely pulls his lips downward: “That sounds lonely.”

My heart does something I can’t name. It’s not pain. It’s not fear. It’s something that feels like opening a door and finding warm light behind it, even though you didn’t know the door was there.

“Sometimes,” I murmur. More honestly than I intended.

He reaches out his hand—slowly, across half the table—and places it next to mine. Not on top of it. Next to it. Just close enough that I feel the warmth without being touched. As if he knew exactly how much is just right.

How does he know that?

“I’m not a particularly easy person,” he says, and there’s something in his voice that feels like a confession. As if he, too, were opening a door right now.

“Neither am I,” I say, looking at our hands. How they lie side by side. How close they are without touching.

Vincent looks at it too. Then at me. His gaze is so open, so unusually genuine, that I don’t know what to make of it.

“Then maybe we’re a good match,” he smiles. Almost too quietly. As if he were thinking it rather than saying it.

I don’t answer.

I don’t pull my hand away either.

My heart is pounding in my throat, and I think: I’m keeping a list of his patterns, I’m collecting his little smiles, I think of him on the subway, and I don’t want him to get up and leave now—

Oh.

Oh no.

IV — Signal

It happened on a Wednesday, and it was bound to happen. I should have noted it in my spreadsheet: Wednesday: too many unplanned variables. Risk of overload: high.

The shoot was too loud, too fast, too full of things that didn’t go according to plan. I was interrupted twice in the middle of a task. Three times someone called my name before I was ready to answer. The open-plan office on the second floor, where I had to type up the error reports for an hour, smelled of cheap food and too many people at once.

At 4:30, the studio is finally empty.

I’m sitting on the floor behind my desk, back against the wall, eyes closed. This isn’t drama. This is biology. My nervous system is empty. Completely, clinically dead, biologically empty. I breathe and try to sort through, one by one, the things that came in all at once all day long.

I hear footsteps.

Slowly. Someone reading the room before entering it. Vincent.

“I’ll sit over there,” Vincent’s voice says. “You don’t have to say anything.”

The sound of the chair. He pulls it to the other end of the room. Not too close. Not too far.

He says nothing. He does nothing. He’s just there, so calm that the silence doesn’t feel oppressive.

Eventually, I lift my head.

Vincent is sitting with his back against the wall, his jacket off, looking at me. No pity. No unease. No expression that says: Should I do something? Should I say something? Just—being there. Watching. Not himself. Me.

I’m not used to being looked at like this.

It doesn’t feel wrong.

“How did you know I was here?” I ask. My voice sounds flatter than usual, drained by the day.

“I saw you at lunch. The way you were listening to the intern.” Pause. “You had that look.”

“What kind?”

“As if you were working very hard not to have a certain expression.” Vincent calmly wipes his glasses, glancing briefly at the lenses.

I stare at him.

That’s masking. He’s describing masking—holding one’s face together, consciously regulating every emotion so that no one sees how much is too much right now. He describes it, without knowing the word, with a precision that almost startles me.

“Usually no one notices that,” I say.

He puts his glasses back on and looks at me. “I know.” No bragging. Just a fact. I know I saw something you didn’t want to show. I do nothing with it except: be there.

We sit like that for a long time.

“Thank you,” I finally say, as the first footsteps can be heard outside again.

Vincent shakes his head. “No need.”

“Yes.” I look at him. “Most people ask right away what’s wrong. Or tell me it’ll be okay. Or do something.” I fidget with my fingers without realizing it, until I do realize it, and then I keep doing it on purpose because it helps.

He thinks for a moment. “Doing something sometimes feels like an intrusion.”

I stare at him.

Vincent looks slightly to the side. A faint blush, barely visible, just above his collar. He’s said more than he intended, I can tell. And he’s embarrassed by it.

Vincent Whittman is embarrassed.

This realization is so unexpected and so unexpectedly tender that I take it and tuck it away deep inside. Into the list that isn’t a list.

“Yes,” I say quietly. “Exactly that.”

We look at each other and neither of us says anything else. That’s exactly how it should be.

V — Flame

The rain starts on a Friday evening, and we both only notice it when we’re standing at the exit.

Everyone else is already gone. I’m waiting for my train, bag over my shoulder, my thoughts already halfway on their way home. Vincent stands next to me, hands in his pockets, and holds his hand out briefly into the rain—appraisingly, matter-of-factly, as if he were documenting the weather conditions.

“We could wait,” he says.

“The train’s coming in twelve minutes.”

“Fine.” He leans against the wall next to the door. “Then we’ll wait.”

We wait.

The rain makes its sounds—steady, predictable, soothing. The studio behind us is cooling down. Somewhere, something is dripping in an irregular rhythm that I start to count until I realize I’m counting, and then I keep going anyway.

I notice him looking at me.

Not furtively. Not briefly. Just—openly. The way Vincent sometimes looks when he thinks I’m too busy to notice. But I always notice. I’ve always noticed.

Today, I hold his gaze.

Something in his face softens. Barely visible. But I’m good at seeing things that are barely visible.

“Can I ask you something?” he says.

“You always ask anyway.” I shrug.

That small, genuine smile. “True.” He looks briefly at the rain, then back at me. “What do you like? Besides silence and spreadsheets.”

The question surprises me because it’s not the one most people ask. Most people ask about activities, about hobbies, about things you can list. His question asks for something real. For something inside.

I take my time.

“When something is exactly as it should be,” I say finally. “A number that adds up. A plan that works. An evening when I don’t have to explain why I’m exhausted.”

Vincent nods slowly. “What else?”

“Why?” I look at him.

He turns toward me. In the light of the entrance, his face looks different—the sharp edges softer, the green of his left eye deeper. More open than I’ve ever seen him. “Because I want to know. Everything.”

Everything.

Warmth—uncontrolled, sudden, right in the middle of my chest. I know that feeling by now. It comes every time he talks like this. But this time it’s bigger than usual. This time it spreads all the way to my fingertips.

I let it be. I don’t analyze it away.

“Rain,” I say finally, a little quieter than I intended. “From the inside. If I don’t have to go out.”

Vincent looks at the rain, then at me. At me for a very long time. And then he laughs—softly, warmly, so genuine that it tugs at my chest.

The rain gets heavier. I look at my phone—train in eight minutes—and then at the wet street, and I think of the crowded Friday train car. The voices. The bodies too close together. The twenty minutes of standing in the smell of wet fabric and long days.

“I could give you a ride.”

I lift my head.

Vincent is looking straight ahead into the rain, not at me, as if that makes it easier for him. A slight tension in his jawline, barely visible. He’s not sure if the offer is welcome. He waits, and the waiting costs him something—I can see that.

“I have the car with me again today,” he adds, too matter-of-factly, too casually. “It’s not out of my way.”

“You don’t know where I live,” I say, irritated.

“No.”

I look at him. “That was some very half-baked planning.”

Now Vincent turns his head, and there it is—that unplanned smile. The unguarded one he only shows when he’s forgotten to hide it. The one I’ve been collecting all this time, without knowing why.

My heart tightens. Gently.

“From the park at the end of Lindenstraße to the second cross street on the left,” I say.

He blinks. “What?”

“Where I live.”

He takes a moment. Then, very quietly, almost to himself: “Okay.”

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His car smells of warm leather and the sea.

I sit down, and he closes the door behind me before walking to the driver’s side. I look through the fogged-up window at the rain and take a deep breath. My nervous system signals: safe. calm. no noise. no crowds. It rarely signals that when I’m around people.

Vincent sits down. He looks at me briefly before starting the engine—a brief, almost tender check, as if he wants to make sure I’m still here and that everything is still okay.

I’m still here. Everything is okay.

He puts his hand on the ignition key, but he doesn’t turn it right away. Instead, he looks straight ahead, and the silence between us is so thick I could almost touch it.

“I have to tell you something,” he says finally.

“Then say it.”

He turns his head toward me. His right eye is blue, his left green, and in between them is that look—open, a little helpless, sincere. “I don’t know when it happened,” he says. “I just know that every morning when I come into the studio, the first thing I do is check to see if you’re already there.”

I stare at him.

“And when you’re there,” he continues, calmly, but with a care in his voice as if he were holding something very fragile, “then the day is different. Better.” A brief pause. “That’s what I wanted to say.”

Raindrops run down the windowpane.

“I keep a list about you,” I confessed instead.

He blinks. “What kind of list?”

“Patterns. Things I observe.” I look at my hands in my lap. “How you knock before you come in. How you stay silent without it feeling heavy. How you set the coffee down without saying a word.” A brief pause. “I called it ‘analysis’ so it wouldn’t feel like the other one.”

“Like the other one.” He repeats it quietly.

“Yes,” I whisper to myself.

“And is it any different?”

The streetlights outside shimmer through the rain. One. Two. Three.

“Yes,” I say. Simply. Without beating around the bush. Just like the way he talks to me.

Vincent swallows. I see it. Then—very slowly, so slowly that I can see every moment and could say no at any time—he reaches out and places his hand on mine.

I look at his hand. At mine.

He turns his head toward me. His right eye is blue, his left green, and in between them is that look—open, a little helpless, sincere. “I don’t know when it happened,” he says. “I just know that every morning when I come into the studio, the first thing I do is check to see if you’re already there.”

I stare at him.

“And when you’re there,” he continues, calmly, but with a care in his voice as if he were

Vincent wraps his fingers around mine so gently, as if he were trying to hold onto something he mustn’t crush. And I think: so this is what it feels like. Not overwhelming. Not too loud. Just warm, and right, and so unhurried that my nervous system doesn’t want to run away.

We sit like that for a while. The rain drums on the roof. No one says anything, and no one has to.

Then he lets go—not abruptly, but deliberately—and starts the engine.

“Lindenstraße,” he repeated.

“Second street on the left,” I say.

“Second street on the left,” he repeats quietly, as if he wants to commit it to memory. As if it were important.

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Vincent is driving slowly. Deliberately slowly, I think, but I don’t say anything.

The city rolls by, wet and gleaming. Streetlights reflecting off the asphalt. Red light streaming across the windshield in long streaks. I lean my head a little against the windowpane—my moment, movement and window and no expectations—only this time someone is there, and it’s still quiet. Maybe even more so.

“Can I ask you something?” I say at some point.

“You never ask,” he says, sounding surprised.

“I’ll start.”

Vincent glances at me briefly, and there’s a small smile on his profile. “Then ask.”

“What have you been collecting?” I look straight ahead. “About me. You’re watching, too. I know that.”

A long pause. The windshield wipers push the rain steadily to the side.

“How you wear your headphones without music,” he says finally. “How you always take the same route through the studio. How relaxed you get when everyone else has left.” He pauses briefly. “How you sometimes smile at your screen when you think no one is watching.”

I turn my head toward him. “You saw that?”

“Yeah,” he grins faintly.

“Since when?”

“Since the second week.”

I stare at him. He’s looking straight ahead, but his ears are a tiny bit red, up there, just below his hair. I can see it in the glow of the streetlights.

He’s embarrassed. Again.

I turn my head away before he notices I’m smiling. This time, I look at the windshield. This time, I know he can’t see it.

This time, though, I’m fine with it.

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Vincent turns onto Lindenstraße—slowly, as if he’s in no hurry. As if he’s deliberately stretching out time without saying so. I could tell him. I don’t, because I’m in no hurry either.

He stops. Second street on the left. The engine is still running.

Neither of us moves.

I look at my hands. Then out the window. Then—because I’ve learned by now that it doesn’t feel wrong—at him.

He’s already looking back.

And there it is again, that expression—open, unpracticed, and so far removed from the man who laughs in the studio and turns all the sunflowers. This is the other one. The one I’ve been gathering all this time.

“Thank you,” I say. And I don’t just mean for the ride.

“You’re welcome,” he smiles. And he means more than that, too.

A silence. The rain. The ticking of the engine.

Then Vincent says, very quietly, with a hesitation in his voice that I don’t recognize in him: “May I pick you up tomorrow morning?”

I look at him.

“The studio doesn’t have a shoot tomorrow,” I say.

“I know.”

“There’s nowhere we have to go.”

“I know,” he admitted to himself.

I look at his hands on the steering wheel. At the way they grip it just a little too tightly—not relaxed, but waiting. At the right blue eye, the left green one, both looking so calm and yet not calm at all.

Then—slowly, without planning it, without knowing the right way to do it—I lean forward just a little and rest my cheek very briefly, very lightly, against his shoulder.

He holds his breath.

I sit up straight again.

“Second street on the left,” I say quietly. “At nine.”

Vincent takes a moment. Then, in a voice that’s a touch less steady than usual: “At nine.”

I get out. The rain is immediately cold, and I walk to the front door, hearing that he isn’t driving away. He waits until I’m inside.

I turn around in the doorway.

Vincent is still sitting there, in the car, looking at me. When he sees me—he raises his hand briefly, almost imperceptibly, as a greeting or a promise or both.

I raise my hand too.

Then I’m inside, and the door closes behind me. I lean my back against it and close my eyes.

My heart is beating so loudly that I can feel it in my fingertips.

I think of his hand holding mine. Of his ears turning red. Of his voice when he asked if he could pick me up—with that hesitation in it that he never has otherwise, that he reserves only for me.

A tiny flame.

I watch my breathing.

But tomorrow morning, at nine, in front of my front door—he’ll be standing there.

And I’ll get in.

That’s enough. That’s more than enough.

That’s all.

Or is it?

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