Summary: after he was begging you for months to hit it raw you finally let him. But he gets too excited to last long
Warnings:( Smut (MDNI), Unprotected sex, Praise & degradation, Rafe being obsessed with you, Slight power struggle, Bitchy attitude (from you), Begging (from him), Possessiveness, Probably some light choking/gripping, A lot of dirty talk
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"Come on, baby. Just once. Just let me feel you."
It had been Rafe's favorite thing to beg for since the start of your relationship. His obsession. His mission.
Every time he had you underneath him, his body pressing yours into the mattress, his hands gripping at your waist or your wrists or your throatâhe'd ask. He'd plead. He'd run his lips over your ear, whispering filthy promises about how good it would feel, how much better it would be, how youâd never want to go back.
And every time, you told him no.
You liked making him work for it. You liked the way his jaw clenched, the way his grip got tighter, the way his frustration seeped into every rough thrust. Because Rafe Cameron didnât lose, and telling him no? That made him desperate to win.
But tonight?
Tonight, you felt mean.
Maybe it was the way heâd been looking at you all night, the way his hands had barely left your body, like he was starving. Maybe it was the way he pulled you onto his lap the second you got to his house, hands palming your ass, lips dragging along your jaw. Maybe it was the way you wanted to ruin him.
So, when he kissed you breathless and muttered against your lips, "Please, baby, just once," you smirked.
"Fine."
Rafe froze. His pupils dilated so fast you thought he might pass out. His lips parted, brows pulling together like he was trying to process what he just heard.
You leaned in, lips brushing his ear. "You heard me."
And then?
He lost his fucking mind.
The second his cock pressed inside, with nothing in between, he let out a sound youâd never heard before. Like an actual, feral groan, deep in his chest, his body shuddering against yours as he bottomed out.
"Fuck," he gasped, dropping his head to your shoulder. His hands gripped your thighs like he wanted to bruise them, like he needed to ground himself. "Fuck. You feelâJesus."
His breath was hot against your neck, his whole body shaking with restraint. Like he wanted to ruin you, but he was tryingâfailingâto keep himself together.
"You good?" you teased, a smirk playing on your lips.
Rafe let out a low, humorless laugh before he pulled back to look at you. His blue eyes were dark, wild, possessive.
"Oh, baby," he rasped, voice dripping with something dangerous. His hand slid up your body, fingers wrapping around your throat, tilting your chin up. "You just fucked up."
Rafe didnât move for a second. He just stayed there, buried inside you to the hilt, like he was trying to memorize the way you felt around him. Like he was already dreading the moment he had to pull out.
âHoly shit,â he rasped, voice all shaky and breathless.
You smirked, just a little, running your hands up his arms. âWhat? Youâre not gonna punk out on me, are you?â
That snapped something in him.
Rafe let out a choked laugh, but there was nothing funny about the way he gripped your waist. âYou think Iâm gonna tap out? Oh, baby.â His fingers dug into your skin, holding you down. âIâm just trying not to bust the second I move.â
You laughed, but the sound cut off when he rolled his hipsâjust once, slow, deep.
His whole body shuddered. His head dropped forward, forehead pressing into yours, his jaw clenching like he was physically fighting his own body.
âOh, fuck,â he groaned, voice wrecked. His breath came out in short, sharp bursts, and his grip on you only got tighter. âOh my God, this isâthis is so much betterââ
You wrapped your arms around his shoulders, dragging your nails up his back. âCâmon, baby,â you whispered, lips brushing his. âI thought you were dying for this. Donât tell me you canât handle it.â
That did it.
Rafeâs hands jerked your hips up, making you gasp, making you feel just how hard he was struggling to keep it together.
âYou love running that mouth, donât you?â he gritted out, glaring down at you. âThink youâre so fucking funny.â
You smirked up at him, dragging your fingers through his hair. âYou begged for this, Cameron. If you canât handle it, just say so.â
That was the final straw.
Rafe let out a sharp breath, shaking his head like he couldnât believe you were still talking, still teasing him when he was this close to fucking losing it.
âOkay,â he muttered, half to himself, like he was officially done playing nice. His hand wrapped around your throat, pressing you into the mattress, tilting your chin up so he could look you in the eyes when he saidâ
âDonât fucking move.â
Then, he pulled outâall the wayâbefore slamming back in, forcing a gasp from your lips as he stretched you again.
Rafe let out a broken groan, his body shuddering as he triedâtriedânot to let it get the best of him. But you were so tight, so fucking warm, and there was nothing, nothing, in between.
âOh, fuck, fuck, fuck,â he gasped, his forehead dropping to your shoulder. âBaby, I swear to God, I canâtââ
You laughed, breathless. âAlready?â
His grip tightened around your throat in warning. âShut up,â he muttered, voice shaking.
You did, but only because you were too distracted by the way he was trembling above you, holding himself back, gritting his teeth so hard his jaw popped.
You could feel how desperate he was. You could see the way his abs tensed, his muscles flexing as he fought for every ounce of self-control he had.
He wanted to ruin you. He needed to.
But he was so close, and it was killing him.
Rafe let out a shaky breath, glaring down at you. âI hate you,â he muttered, his voice all breathless and wrecked.
You smirked. âNo, you donât.â
And then, you moved. Just a little. Just enough to make him jerk inside you, to make his whole body seize up.
âOh, you bitch,â he groaned, his grip tightening as he thrust forward, his restraint finally snapping.
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Summary: inspired by this scene in ep 4 but with my own twist and itâs dad!rafe x reader w/ Mabel đ
Warnings: nothing rlly!
Word count: 1,075
A/n: hey so um I caved in couldn't resist writing at least one fic w the new season during my break...
MASTERLIST (dad!Rafe au masterlist)
divider by @h-aewo
You walk into the ensuite bathroom as you adjust Mabel on your hip. Her little hands curl around your shoulder, her head nestling against your neck. The soft scent of baby powder clings to her skin, and despite the busyness of the morning, thereâs always something calming about her presence. Rafe stands by the counter, packing the beach bag with towels, sunscreen, and toys, his movements relaxed yet purposeful.
He looks up as you approach, his sharp blue eyes softening. âYouâre just in time,â he says, zipping the bag with a quick motion and setting it aside. You smile back, setting Mabel in her bouncer next to him. "Thought Iâd let you handle the sunscreen part," you tease, brushing your fingers gently over Mabel's soft curls. Rafe chuckles and kneels beside her, his large hands dwarfing the bottle of sunscreen as he carefully squirts a bit onto his fingers.
"Alright, princess, we donât want you burning up, do we?â he murmurs, gently applying the cream to her chubby cheeks. His touch is so soft, filled with care, as Mabel giggles, her tiny hands reaching for his face. You smile, pressing a kiss to the top of Mabelâs head. She gurgles happily, her tiny feet kicking as she looks around, wide-eyed and curious. You turn away, heading toward the closet where your bikini is draped over a chair. The fabric feels cool in your hands as you slip it on, the rich colour contrasting with your skin.
âSo,â you begin, your voice casual but carrying a note of seriousness, âI was thinking⌠about that business opportunity that came up last week.â You glance over your shoulder as Rafeâs eyes flick up from Mabel, curiosity piqued. âThe investment thing?â âYeah,â you say, fumbling a little as you try to tie the back of your bikini. âI really think you should go for it." He stands, moving closer, his eyes shifting between your face and your chest as you adjust it.
"Turn around," he mutters, his hands brushing against your back as he pulls the strings into a neat knot. His fingers linger for a moment longer than necessary, and when you glance at the mirror, you catch the way his eyes roam over youâan intensity in his gaze that sends a slight shiver through you. "You really think itâs that good of a deal?" he asks, his voice low, his hands hovering at your waist. You meet his gaze through the mirror, feeling the heat of his hands lingering at the small of your back.
"Yeah, don't you?" You adjust the bikini strap on your shoulder. His hands drop to rest lightly on your hips, and for a second, he doesn't' respond. Lightly biting your lip as you wait for a response, he meets your gaze in the mirror, a slight smirk playing on his lips. His eyes stay locked on you, a mix of thoughtfulness and something more. "I think you should go for it." Rafeâs eyes darken with thought, but his smirk doesnât fade. He pulls you a little closer, his grip firm but gentle, his chest pressing against your back.
âGod, this is just landing right in my lap, isnât it?â His tone is a mixture of amusement and consideration. You give him a playful look over your shoulder. âThatâs what Iâve been saying. Youâd be stupid not to take it.â He chuckles, his breath warm against the side of your neck as his lips brush against your skin, slowly at first. âYou always know how to push me in the right direction,â he murmurs, the teasing lilt in his voice sending a warmth down your spine.
His hands glide up from your hips to your waist, pulling you just a little closer. You let out a soft breath, your heart quickening as his kisses trail lower. "You could make so much freakinâ money, Rafe,â you say, your voice a little breathless. Rafe grins against your skin, âCould I, now?â His voice is a teasing drawl as his lips move along your skin, causing a ripple of warmth to spread through you. You laugh softly, leaning back against him. âIâm serious!"
âSo am I,â he whispers, his kisses slow and deliberate. His hands tighten slightly on your waist, his touch firm but tender. But just as you start to sink into the moment, Mabel lets out a whine, breaking through the intimate bubble. You both pause, exchanging a look before bursting into quiet laughter. Rafe pulls away first, shaking his head as he glances at Mabel. âPerfect timing, huh?â he says, his smirk playful but affectionate.
You walk over to Mabel, scooping her into your arms as she quiets down instantly, snuggling into your chest. âGuess weâre not the only ones who need attention,â you joke, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. Rafe grins, his eyes following you. âSheâs just jealous,â he says, tossing a towel into the beach bag. Rafe smirks, watching the two of you, his earlier intensity replaced with something softer. You laugh, bouncing Mabel lightly in your arms as she grabs onto your bikini strap with her tiny hand.
âCan you blame her? You spoil me,â you tease, glancing up at him. Rafe leans against the counter, his eyes never leaving you. âIâll think about that deal,â he says, his voice a little more serious now. âSounds like it could be good⌠for all of us.â You nod, bouncing Mabel lightly in your arms. âYouâll figure it out. You always do.â You say, brushing Mabel's hair. Rafe steps closer, wrapping one arm around your waist, pulling both you and Mabel into his chest as he presses a soft kiss to your head.
âYeah,â he says quietly, his eyes meeting yours with a knowing look. âWeâll see.â You can tell, though, from the determined glint in his eyes that he already knows what heâs going to do.
ahh pls do rafe fingering reader whoâs trying to tell him abt her day and every time she tries to speak he just curls inside of her bc he thinks itâs funny to watch her struggle to speak
you're curled up on rafeâs lap, tucked against his chest, trying your hardest to tell him about your day. you can feel the warmth of his palm resting on your thigh, fingers idly tracing circles against your skin, but itâs nothing out of the ordinary, heâs always touching you.
âso then i wasââ your breath catches in your throat when his fingers dip between your legs, pushing past your panties without warning.
you shoot him a glare, shifting slightly in his lap, but he just smirks. âdonât stop, baby. you were saying?â
you huff, trying to focus, ignoring the way his fingers tease at your entrance. âi was sayingâi was saying thatââ your words falter as he pushes two fingers inside, slow and deliberate.
âyeah?â rafe murmurs, lips ghosting over your temple as he curls his fingers, pressing against that spot that makes your toes curl. âwhat about it?â
you whimper, gripping his wrist in a weak attempt to stop him, but he just chuckles, thrusting his fingers deeper, fucking into you with a lazy rhythm.
âcâmon, sweetheart,â he coos, âfinish your story.â
you try. really, you do. but every time you open your mouth, he twists his fingers just right, sending another wave of pleasure crashing over you.
âwhatâs wrong?â rafe taunts, voice dripping with amusement. âyou were talkinâ so much a second ago.â
your head drops against his shoulder, breathy whimpers slipping past your lips as his pace quickens. heâs enjoying thisâwatching you struggle, watching your body betray you.
âgod, youâre cute,â he murmurs, voice laced with something almost affectionate. âso fuckinâ cute when you try to act like youâre not falling apart for me.â
you donât even try to fight it anymore, letting your hips rock against his hand, chasing that high you know heâs more than happy to give you.
summary: Rafe Cameron is the perfect boyfriend⌠but not yours, but Sofiaâs. However, fate plays against you when you become the only person capable of understanding him in his darkest moments. What begins as a dangerous friendship soon becomes an attraction impossible to deny.
warnings: nothing for now
word counter: 9203
authorâs note: english is not my first language
In the eyes of the Kooks, you were always a Pogue. You could have perfectly coiffed hair, impeccable clothes, and an air of confidence that many of them envied, but no matter how hard you tried, you were still one of âthe others.â After all, you were born and raised on the other side of the island, where the houses were small, the streets dusty, and the rules of etiquette didnât exist.Â
But that never stopped you. You always wanted more, you wanted to stand out, to shine as if the invisible line that divided the island didnât exist for you. You liked being the center of attention, being the girl who walked into a party and made everyone turn to look at you. It was part of who you were. It entertained you, it filled you with energy. And maybe, deep down, you enjoyed a little bit of the scandal that a Pogue caused trying to be more than that.Â
The first time you met Sofia was at one of those parties that the Kooks organized on the beach. You arrived late, as usual, but perfect. The tight black dress you had chosen highlighted every curve. You made sure every hair was in place and that your makeup highlighted your eyes impeccably.
You saw her alone, sitting in a corner, with a half-finished drink in her hand. She didn't seem comfortable in that place, as if she was out of place. Maybe that was what caught your attention. Unlike other girls, Sofia didn't seem to desperately want to fit in. There was something authentic about her, something that intrigued you.
"What are you doing here alone?" you asked her as you sat down next to her. Your tone was casual, as if you had known her all your life.
Sofia looked up and smiled at you, shy but warm.
"I don't know... I think this isn't my place."
"Well, sometimes, what we think isn't our place ends up being the best place of all," you answered, and without waiting for an invitation, you stayed there.
From that night on, you and Sofia became inseparable. She was quieter, more reserved, but that worked. Your explosive energy was complemented by her calm, and soon you were doing everything together: from afternoons on the beach to nighttime escapades to places where the Kooks didnât dare to go.
It was inevitable that Sofia began to integrate more into your world. But she also began to enter theirs. Maybe too much.
The first time she told you she was dating Rafe Cameron, you felt like the world stopped for a moment.
âRafe Cameron?â you repeated in disbelief as you looked in the mirror, touching up your eyeliner.
You were in your room, getting ready for another party. The air smelled of perfume and freshly opened makeup. Sofia was sitting on your bed, nervously playing with the hem of her dress.
âYeah⌠I know heâs not exactly the kind of guy you like.â
He wasnât. He never was. Rafe Cameron was the perfect definition of everything you despised about the Kooks. Arrogant, controlling, with that air of superiority that drove you crazy. And although you didn't say it openly, you knew he looked at you with disdain every time you coincided somewhere. As if you were usurping a space that didn't belong to you.
You took a deep breath, adjusting the necklace that adorned your neck, and decided not to say what you really thought.
âIf it makes you happy⌠then fine.â
Sofia looked at you with a mix of relief and gratitude. You knew how much your opinion mattered to her, and you werenât going to be the one to take that happiness away from her, even though something inside you told you it wasnât going to end well.
Later that night the party was at its highest point. Music was booming from the speakers, laughter and conversations mixed with the sound of the sea gently lapping against the shore. The dim lights and strategically placed torches gave an almost magical air to the private beach where the Kooks were celebrating once again. Everything was perfect, at least in appearance.
You were there, as always, impeccable. Every accessory was in its place, every strand of your hair perfectly arranged, and your smile was as dazzling as ever.
But from the moment you walked through the door, Sofia was glued to Rafe Cameron.
He was leaning against one of the makeshift bars, a bottle of beer in his hand and that cocky grin he never seemed to be able to erase. Sofia, beside him, looked different. More radiant, perhaps, but also more⌠restrained. As if he somehow controlled her every move.
It bothered you. You couldnât help it. You had arrived expecting to spend the night together, like you used to before Rafe came into the equation. But there she was, practically glued to him, laughing at his comments, looking at him as if the rest of the party didnât exist.
You sipped a glass of white wine and forced yourself to smile when a couple of acquaintances came over to say hello. You chatted, laughed, and pretended you didnât care. Because at the end of the day, you understood. He was her boyfriend. If you had one, youâd probably do the same. If you had a Rafe Cameron who looked at you like you were the only important thing in the world, you wouldnât leave him alone either.
Still, you couldnât help the pang of discomfort that settled in your chest every time you saw them together. It was like Sofia was slowly disappearing into Rafeâs shadow.
Someone offered you a drink, and you accepted with a flirtatious smile, because that was what you did. You always knew how to have fun, how to attract glances, how to make sure no one noticed that something was bothering you.
But as the night progressed, you realized that your eyes kept returning to them. To Rafe, who had his arm around her as if to make it clear that she belonged to him. To Sofia, who didnât seem to notice anyone else.
âAre you going to stay there all night, or are you going to dance?â a boyâs voice snapped you out of your thoughts. You turned around and recognized him by sight. A Kook, of course, one of those who always tried to get close to you when you were alone.
You smiled at him, playful.
âWhat if I tell you that I prefer to stay here?â
He laughed, but insisted.
âCome on, I promise you'll have fun.â
You hesitated for a second, your eyes looking back at Sofia. She was still glued to Rafe, oblivious to everything else.
âOkayâ you finally agreed, putting your drink aside. âLet's see if it's true.â
You went out onto the dance floor and let yourself go. Because if there was one thing you knew how to do, it was enjoy the moment, at least in appearance. You danced, you laughed, you let the music envelop you. But every time you turned, every time you moved to the rhythm of the music, you could feel Rafe's gaze on you. It was a strange, uncomfortable feeling.
For an instant, your eyes met his. His gaze was intense, cold, as if he were evaluating you. It wasn't the first time he did it. He always seemed to observe you that way, as if he wanted to remind you that you didn't belong in his world, that you were nothing more than an intruder.
But you didn't give him the pleasure of looking away. You held his gaze, defiant, with a smile on your lips, as if you didn't care in the least what he thought. Because at the end of the day, if you had learned anything, it was not to show weakness.
The music continued, the lights continued to flicker, and the night continued.
When the music began to slow down and tiredness settled in your body, you decided that it was enough for that night. You had danced, drank, and smiled enough to keep up appearances. You looked once more to where Sofia and Rafe were, still together, as if the rest of the party didn't exist.
You sighed, resigned. It wasn't your place to interrupt that moment. You knew that if you came closer, Sofia would want you to stay, but honestly, you had no energy left to keep pretending that everything was fine.
"See you tomorrow," you murmured to a couple of acquaintances as you left. No one stopped you, because they knew that when you decided to leave, there was nothing that would make you change your mind.
You took the path to your house, enjoying the fresh air that calmed the heat accumulated on your skin. The silence of the night welcomed you with open arms, and it didn't take long for you to slip under the sheets, leaving behind the noise, the lights, and the discomfort that had followed you throughout the evening.
The next morning, your phone rang earlier than expected. Sofia.
"Good morning," you said hoarsely, still half asleep.
"Good morning," she answered, with an energy that made you frown. "Are you awake?"
âNow yes. What's up?â
âI'm at Rafe's house. I thought you could come. There's a pool, some food... We could spend the day here.â
You bit your lower lip, hesitating for a second. The idea of ââspending the day at Rafe's house wasn't exactly your ideal plan. The Cameron house had always seemed more like a display of power than a home. Every corner was designed to impress, to make it clear that they were the pinnacle of the Kooks. And although you knew how to move in that environment, it wasn't your favorite place.
âSure, give me some time to get ready and I'll go.â
âPerfect. I'll wait for you.â
You hung up the phone and stood up slowly, stretching your arms over your head as you thought about what to wear.
You opted for a long, light white dress, which highlighted your tan and fell perfectly. You chose a white bikini as well, simple but elegant. You made sure your hair was styled to perfection, letting some soft waves fall to frame your face.
A touch of natural makeup, just enough to highlight your eyes and lips, but not over the top. You chose a small bag, where you kept the essentials: sunscreen, sunglasses, and your phone.
You looked at yourself one last time in the mirror, adjusting the dress and the necklace that discreetly glistened on your collarbone.
You grabbed your keys, placed your sunglasses on your head, and left the house.
When you arrived, Sofia ran out to greet you before you could knock on the door, her radiant smile lighting up her face.
âYouâre here!â she said excitedly, extending her arms towards you.
âOf course I do!â you replied with an equally wide smile as you walked over to hug her.
The hug was warm and genuine. Sofia had always had that energy that made you feel welcome, like everything else disappeared when you were together. She pulled away slightly to look at you.
âYou look amazing.â
âYou do too,â you said sincerely, noticing how her face glowed despite the simplicity of her outfit. âYou always look good when youâre happy, though.â
Sofia blushed a little and laughed softly. You knew exactly why she was so happy. You didnât have to be an expert at reading gestures to figure it out: Rafe.
âCome on, weâre in the back,â she said, taking you by the arm and leading you to the pool.
They walked through the house until they reached the spacious backyard. The pool sparkled in the sun, surrounded by lounge chairs, umbrellas, and luxurious furniture. Everything was perfectly arranged, as if they had taken the scene from a magazine.
And there he was.
He was sitting by the pool, a beer in his hand, sunglasses covering his eyes. He looked carefree, like the whole world revolved around him. His hair perfectly combed, body relaxed but always in control.
Your eyes met his for a brief second as you crossed the garden. His gaze was cold, distant, as always.
âHi, Rafe,â you said in a polite tone, keeping the smile light.
He barely raised his hand in a vague greeting, not even bothering to take off his glasses.
âHey.â
Nothing more. A short, dry greeting, as if you were there out of mere courtesy. Then, he turned his attention back to the conversation he was having with one of his friends, as if your presence was insignificant.
You expected it. Rafe had never treated you with more than minimal courtesy, and that was when he felt like it.
You took a deep breath and turned to Sofia, who didnât seem to notice her boyfriendâs coldness.
âCome on, Iâll show you where to put your stuff,â Sofia said excitedly, leading you to one of the lounge chairs.Â
After you put all your stuff down, Sofia spoke to you again.Â
âCome on, letâs go to the pool,â Sofia said, pulling you by the hand. âItâs hot, and the water is perfect.â
You nodded and took off your white dress, revealing the bikini you had chosen so carefully.Â
The afternoon passed more peacefully than you had anticipated. The sun bathed the pool in a golden glow, and the soft music coming from the strategically placed speakers made everything seem like something out of a postcard. You and Sofia spent hours laughing, swimming, and enjoying the cold drinks you had brought. At times, the awkwardness that had accompanied you upon arrival seemed to fade away.Â
Rafe and his friends were nearby, but they kept their distance, busy in their own bubble of conversations.Â
At some point, Sofia stood up.Â
âIâm going inside to get something to eat.â Do you want me to get you something?
âNo, Iâm fine,â you replied with a smile. You didnât want to move. The sun, the water, and the atmosphere had relaxed you more than you expected. Sofia gave you a quick smile before disappearing through the sliding door into the house.
You were left alone, enjoying the moment. The cold glass in your hand, the soft murmur of the water in the pool, and the warmth of the sun on your skin. You closed your eyes for a moment, letting the tranquility envelop you.
However, that calm was interrupted when you felt a slight tug on your hair. You frowned, opening your eyes. You had leaned against one of the umbrellas, and without realizing it, one of the fringes at the edge of the fabric had become entangled in your hair. You pulled gently, trying to free it, but it didnât work. The lock of hair was still firmly caught.
You sighed, frustrated. Normally, Sofia would be there to help you in a second, but now she wasn't. You tried once more, this time with a little more force, but you only managed to get it more tangled.
"Perfect..." you murmured sarcastically, resigned to waiting for Sofia to return.
"Trouble?"
The male voice, low and slightly amused, startled you. Rafe.
He was a few steps away from you, with his hands in his pockets and that expression on his face that seemed to mix boredom with curiosity. He was watching you with those cold blue eyes that had always made you nervous, as if he was entertained by your little fight with the umbrella.
"Nothing I can't handle," you said quickly, trying to keep control. You didn't want to give him the pleasure of thinking you needed help. You gently tugged on the lock of hair again, but it still wouldn't come loose.
"Yeah, sure. You're handling it perfectly," he replied in a sarcastic tone, as he moved a little closer.
You looked at him, trying to keep your composure.
âSofia will be here in a minute, donât worry.â
Rafe raised an eyebrow, stopping right in front of you. The proximity made your skin crawl slightly.
âOr I can help you.â
For a moment, you were tempted to turn him down again. The idea of ââaccepting Rafe Cameronâs help was⌠strange. He wasnât exactly the kind of person to selflessly offer help. But the reality was that Sofia would probably take a little longer, and you didnât want to be stuck there anymore, humiliating yourself in front of him.
You sighed, reluctantly giving in.
âOkay⌠but donât make it worse.â
âTrust me. I know what Iâm doing.â
Thatâs exactly what worries me, you thought. But you didnât say anything.
Rafe moved behind you, and you felt his hands move closer to your hair. His fingers were surprisingly deft and precise, touching just enough to untangle the trapped lock of hair. You were surprised by how gently he worked, without tugging or causing pain. His closeness was undeniable, and for an instant, you were aware of the warmth of his body, the faint scent of mint, and something else you couldnât quite place.
âAlmostâŚâ he murmured as his fingers slid through the last knot. Finally, the lock of hair came free.
You pulled away slightly, turning to face him.
âThank you.â
He simply nodded, wearing that neutral expression he always seemed to carry with him. Before he could say anything else, you pointed towards one of the lounge chairs.
âCan you pass me the brooch I left there?â
Rafe calmly walked over to the lounge chair, picked up the small white brooch, and handed it to you. There were no snide comments or haughty looks this time. It was strange.
âThanks again,â you said as you pinned your hair back, trying to ignore the slight nervousness the interaction had left you with.
âYouâre welcome.â
And that was it. No more words, no lingering stares. Rafe returned to his spot by the pool, as if nothing had happened. You stood there for a moment, trying to process what had just happened. There was something about his expression that didnât fit with the image you had of him.
But you decided not to think about it too much.
Then the night came faster than you had expected. The party at the Cameronsâ continued, but the atmosphere was much more relaxed. The pool lights created a soft glow over the water, reflecting the stars that were beginning to peek out in the night sky. You and Sofia retreated from the hustle and bustle of the party, looking for a respite.
âThat was great, wasnât it?â Sofia said, her voice filled with an energy that couldnât be hidden.
You nodded as you walked over to one of the chairs near the pool, sitting down to enjoy the cool night air.
âYeah, it was fun. Although, you know, always a little awkward with⌠some of the Kooks,â you replied, glancing sideways at Rafe, who was still talking to his friends in the distance.
Sofia laughed softly, as if those social tensions didnât affect her as much as they did you. For her, being with Rafe was the most natural thing in the world.
âYouâre staying, right?â Sofia asked, with an eager look, as if she needed to hear the affirmative answer.
You didnât know what Sofia had in mind for the next day, but her excitement was contagious. You looked at Rafe from a distance, and although you didnât say it out loud, you knew that if Sofia asked you for something, you would do it.
âSure, why not?â âI want you to come with us tomorrow,â you replied, though a small spark of doubt lit up inside you. What exactly were they going to do the next day?
âPerfect,â Sofia said with a satisfied smile, as if she had achieved what she wanted. She then leaned slightly towards you, lowering her voice. âI want you to come with us tomorrow. Rafe is going to go racing on his motorcycle. He said he has no problem with you staying the night, if thatâs okay with you. Would you like to join us tomorrow?â
You sat there thoughtfully for a moment. The idea of ââspending another day with Rafe, back in his world of privilege, seemed strange to you. But it was also hard for you to say no to Sofia, especially when you saw how excited she was.
âOkay. What does it matter?â you replied, resigned to the idea of ââspending the day with them.
The next morning came quickly, and the sun was already rising high when you woke up. The Cameron house was quiet at that hour, with most people still sleeping after the party the night before. When you checked your bag, you realized you didn't have anything suitable for what Sofia had proposed. The shorts and the t-shirt with the embroidery seemed like a comfortable option, but nothing too dressed up.
Sofia walked into the room you had stayed in, seeing that you were still getting organized.
"Are you ready?" she asked with her usual enthusiasm.
"Almost. I just... don't have anything to wear," you mentioned, looking at the clothes you had brought, a little out of place for a motorcycle ride.
"Don't worry!" Sofia said with a mischievous smile. "I'll lend you something. Those shorts are fine, you just need a comfortable t-shirt, right?"
Before you could answer, Sofia turned around and pulled a white t-shirt out of her closet. It wasn't anything over the top, but the edge of the t-shirt was adorned with small floral embroidery. Which might look plain, but it looked incredibly nice.
"Here, this should fit you well," she said as she handed you the t-shirt.
You looked at her, grateful, as you put it on. The fabric was soft and cool, something you needed for the morning heat. Then, you pulled on your shorts, arranged your hair the best way you could, and looked at yourself in the mirror.
When you left the room, Sofia was already ready, her hair perfectly coiffed and her energy bubbling.
âLetâs go!â she said, running towards the door. There was no way you could cope with her enthusiasm.
The two of you headed to the beach, where Rafe was already there, next to his bike. It was a sight in itself. Rafeâs bike, shiny and almost imposing looking, contrasted with his relaxed stance, as if the bike was an extension of him.
Rafe glanced at you briefly when you arrived, his expression somewhat unreadable.
The race began with a roar, and the feeling of speed on Rafeâs bike was electrifying. The wind whipped through your face as the sound of the engine mixed with the adrenaline in the air. Rafe was incredibly focused, and Sofia was smiling non-stop.Â
As you continued down the road, you realized how skilled Rafe was. Every turn was taken with astonishing precision, and his ability to maneuver the bike quickly was evident. You and Sofia shared excited glances, both shouting words of encouragement, though you knew the real show was watching him.Â
Finally, when the finish line was in sight, Rafe hit the gas. The bike roared as it took the final turn, and it wasn't long before he crossed the finish line with an undisputed victory.Â
You and Sofia burst into cheers, though it was clear that Rafe's victory was what really mattered to her. She looked proud, and with good reason. Rafe had won in impeccable fashion, and the feeling of excitement was palpable.
Sofia stepped forward to hug him, while you stayed a step behind, observing the moment. Rafe's face reflected satisfaction. He didn't seem surprised by the victory, as if it was something expected.
You stared at Rafe for a moment, observing his relaxed face as he talked to Sofia about the race, but you quickly decided to leave those thoughts behind. There was something in his attitude that didn't quite fit, and you knew it wasn't worth wasting time on things that didn't make sense. The excitement of the day had already reached its peak, and you preferred to enjoy the moment.
You turned around, looking at Sofia, who had already begun to plan what they would do next.
"Let's celebrate!" Sofia said enthusiastically, interrupting your brief moment of introspection.
It wasn't an invitation, but an affirmation, and before you could respond, she had already taken you by the hand, gently pulling you towards where the others were. The celebratory atmosphere was in full swing: loud music, laughter, and an air of satisfaction permeating everything around them. When they arrived, everyone was there, enjoying Rafe's triumph, and even though you weren't part of that inner circle, you couldn't help but be swept up in the energy emanating from them.Â
You sat next to Sofia on one of the lounge chairs by the pool, watching as people gathered around Rafe to congratulate him. The way he accepted the congratulations, calm and almost distant, seemed so natural to you, as if he was already used to being the center of attention. But something in you told you it wasn't that simple. There was an invisible barrier between you and him, as if the distance wasn't just physical, but emotional as well.Â
But that night, you decided to let it be. You sat there, enjoying Sofia's company, and without thinking too much about it, you began to soak in the atmosphere.Â
People started moving towards the dance floor, the music was getting livelier, and everyone seemed to be in a good mood. Sofia, still full of energy, looked at you with a knowing smile.
âShall we dance?â she asked, without waiting for an answer, already getting up from the lounger.
You stood up after her, feeling that, at least for that night, you should enjoy yourself without thinking too much about anything else. Somehow, by surrounding yourself with the happiness of Sofia and the others, the feeling of awkwardness began to fade.
The day continued with a festive atmosphere, the music vibrating in the air. You and Sofia had completely let loose, laughing and dancing without a care, until suddenly Rafe approached her. On his face was a subtle smile, one of those smiles that you only see when someone has a deep connection with another person.
âDance?â he said to Sofia, and she was quick to smile, her eyes shining.
You watched them as they glided to the center of the dance floor, their bodies moving to the beat of the music as if they were one. Something inside you, a mix of admiration and envy, stirred. There was something about the way Rafe looked after Sofia that made you think you might have misjudged him. After all, not everyone was willing to show that kind of tenderness in public. Maybe Rafe wasn't as cold as you had initially thought.Â
You stared for a moment, but you didn't let yourself get caught up in those emotions. You decided not to think about it too much. Instead of just standing there watching, you let yourself go with the energy of the party and joined one of Rafe's friends who was nearby. He was outgoing and not afraid to chat, so the conversation flowed naturally.Â
You laughed, you enjoyed yourself, and everything kept moving forward without your mind stopping on the images of Sofia and Rafe. But when you looked at yourself, you noticed something that worried you: the way that, with each encounter, you began to see more clearly how attentive Rafe and Sofia could be to each other. It wasnât just a physical attraction, but something deeper, a connection you hadnât anticipated. There was an understanding between them, something that seemed to flow effortlessly. And that, somehow, bothered you more than you wanted to admit.
Days passed, and as time went on, you started to see yourself closer and closer to them. Outings became common, and although at first you were a kind of guest in their circle, little by little you began to feel like you were part of it. You saw yourself walking along the beach with them, sharing laughs while watching Rafe throw out a sarcastic joke that made you laugh like never before. The atmosphere between the group was relaxed, fun, and you seemed to fit in perfectly. Almost as well as if you were one of the Kooks, as if you had always been part of that life.Â
But something kept nagging at your head, a small knot in your stomach that kept growing. You realized that every time Rafe and Sofia looked at each other or subtly touched each other, a pang of jealousy ran through your body. How had you not noticed that before? How had you not seen how happy it made Sofia just to have him by her side? It was like a spark always surrounded them, and you wanted to be a part of that, of that security and affection that was evident on the surface.
You thought to yourself that maybe, just maybe, you had misjudged him. Rafe wasn't just the arrogant boy you had met at the beginning. There was something about his attitude towards Sofia that made you question everything you thought about him. You could see how he cared for her, how he took his time to make sure she was comfortable, how his eyes always looked for her in the middle of the crowd.
One afternoon, when everyone was on a terrace, and Rafe had approached to offer you a drink, you realized how much your perception of him had changed. There was a softness in his gaze, one you hadn't noticed before, and although it was something that confused you, you also admired it. You felt foolish for having kept yourself distant all this time, and a little jealous too, because deep down you knew you wanted something like that for yourself.
However, you just smiled and thanked him for the drink, not saying anything about what you were really thinking. It was easy to look at everything from the outside, but much harder to deal with what you felt on the inside. You were surrounded by friends, but the small discomfort you felt in your chest never completely went away. You wondered if you could ever be as lucky as Sofia, if you would ever find something that made you feel as alive and safe.Â
That same day at night, after several hours of laughter, music, and drinks, the atmosphere at Rafeâs house was still lively. Sofia, as always, was in her element, enjoying the company of the two of you, but you already felt the energy starting to drain away. You had drunk more than you thought, and although it wasnât enough to lose control, you did start to feel fatigue building up in your body.Â
âIâm going to sleep,â you said to Sofia, who looked at you with a cheerful smile.Â
âSure, honey. The room is ready for you. Get some restâ he answered, still smiling.
You walked towards the stairs as you entered the halls of the house. It was a large and luxurious space, and the room you used when you stayed there was decorated with sophisticated details.
But before you reached the room, suddenly, you ran into Rafe. He was coming down the stairs, with a glass in his hand, apparently in a good mood, without the arrogant air he used to have. He stopped when he saw you and, as if he hadn't seen you coming, both of you collided a little. It was a strange moment: your body brushed against his, almost as if you were going to trip, but you managed to keep your balance with difficulty. However, what really made you feel uncomfortable was the look you exchanged. The air between the two of you became heavy for a moment, as if something had happened unintentionally.
Rafe, with a knowing smile on his face, was quick to let out a small laugh, as if he found the situation funny, and that only increased your discomfort. Your face instantly flushed, and for a second you thought you had gotten yourself into one of those awkward situations you always try to avoid.
âWow, I didnât see you coming,â he said, still with that carefree smile. His tone wasnât mocking, but somehow his laugh felt like mockery.
Your mind raced and you didnât know how to react, you just muttered something that didnât make much sense, like an âIâm sorryâ or an âexcuse me,â and without thinking much, you rushed to the bedroom. The door closed behind you, and you instantly felt the awkwardness take over you. You lay down on the bed, covering your face with your hands and thinking about how you had handled the situation.
For a moment, you stood there, trying to calm your breathing, but Rafe's laughter still echoed in your head. You knew it hadn't been anything serious, but still, something about his attitude made you feel like you'd made a mistake by being so close to him. Why did it have that effect on you? The thought of being so close, in such a strange situation, didn't leave you calm.
In the end, you just sank into the comfort of the bed, trying to drown out the uncomfortable thoughts.
The next morning you woke up at dawn, although the sun hadn't yet reached its highest point. You felt a little disoriented at first, the echo of the laughter from the night before still echoing in your head, mixed with the feeling of discomfort that the encounter with Rafe had left you with. But, in the end, you got up the courage to get up and made yourself comfortable a little. You changed into something more comfortable but decent: a simple t-shirt and some shorts. You wanted to dress casually, but you also knew that it wasn't the time to be disheveled.
You walked down the stairs and headed towards the kitchen. The house was quiet, as if everyone was still deep in their rest after the night. You decided to sit in one of the chairs, looking at the soft lights that filtered through the window, observing the garden that stretched outside. Everything was so quiet that it brought you peace.
You were waiting for Sofia, you knew that she would soon appear, probably with a dazzling smile and something interesting to tell, but time passed and it wasn't her who appeared. Instead of Sofia, it was Rafe who entered the kitchen. At first you didn't notice him at all, but when you looked up, your eyes met his. He was still wearing the shirt he had worn the night before. Rafe looked at you with a slight smile, as if nothing strange had happened the night before.
"Good morning," he said, his voice low and calm.
You felt a knot in your stomach, and without thinking about it too much, shame washed over you again. You remembered what had happened the night before: the laughter, the unexpected shock, how uncomfortable you had felt. You blushed and, with a sigh, decided to talk about it, as a way to let go of what was weighing you down.
âHey, Rafe... I'm sorry about last night,â you said quickly, not knowing if it was really necessary, but you needed to get those words out. You felt stupid for having created such silly tension, but you couldn't shake the feeling of discomfort anymore.
Rafe raised his eyebrows for a moment, as if he didn't understand why you were apologizing, but his expression quickly softened.
âYou don't have to apologize,â he replied, smiling calmly. His tone was so relaxed that it reassured you, almost as if the situation hadn't been as awkward as you thought. âIt was nothing.â
That, in a way, relieved you, although you still felt a little embarrassed inside. But what really surprised you was how you kept talking to him, as if all of that had never happened. Despite the initial awkwardness, something about his presence made you feel calmer. You realized how easy it was to talk to him. The words flowed naturally, without the nerves you had felt before. They talked about trivial things at first: the house, his life, they had even talked about what you had thought of him when Sofia said they were dating.Â
The conversation slowly relaxed, without tension. You found yourself smiling more than you had planned, enjoying the talk without the awkwardness from before having room to grow. Rafe wasn't pressuring, he didn't make awkward comments, he just spoke with an ease that made you feel at peace, as if there were no expectations.Â
A few minutes passed, or maybe more, and you were surprised by how much you were enjoying talking to him. You had never imagined that you would have such a relaxed conversation with someone like him.
You were about to make one more comment when Sofia finally appeared. She entered the kitchen with a big smile, clearly full of energy, as always.
âGood morning!â she exclaimed, approaching the table and hugging you immediately. âHow was your night? Did you rest well?â
She and Rafe looked at each other for a moment, exchanging a knowing smile that made it obvious how comfortable they were together.
âYes, everything is fine,â you said to Sofia, smiling. âJust resting.â
Sofia looked at you curiously, as if she felt there was something more between you and Rafe, but she didnât say anything. The feeling of being there with them, as part of the group, grew stronger. It was strange how the dynamics of that house absorbed you little by little, even when you werenât completely sure where you fit in.
A few days had passed since that conversation in the kitchen, and although the calm between you and Rafe remained, something in you urged you to step away a little. You didn't have a specific reason, you just felt the need to disconnect from it all. You had your own business to attend to, things you had put aside while enjoying the company of Sofia and the others.
Rafe's house, the parties, all of that was left in the background as you immersed yourself in your own thoughts. The days passed without you going near Rafe's or Sofia's house, without you seeing them or even caring about how they were spending their time. You kept yourself busy, focused on other things: personal tasks, things you had had to put off because you were caught up in the flow of the Kooks' social life. You found yourself returning to your routines.
It had been a while since you disconnected a little from everything. The need to return to your own space had faded, and now, at the end of those days of silence, something was urging you to return. You thought about Sofia and how, even though you had been away, you knew she was still your friend. The idea of ââher now living with Rafe, as quickly as she had, seemed a little strange to you, but in the end, it was her life, her decisions. You decided it was time to go back, to meet them, although you didn't know exactly what to expect.Â
Arriving at Rafe's house, the stillness in the air made you feel that something wasn't right. The door was ajar, and inside, there was an unusual calm. Everything was silent. You assumed that Sofia wouldn't be home; she had probably gone out.Â
But as you moved towards the living room, you came across a scene you hadn't expected. Rafe was there, alone, in the center of the room. His posture tense, his hands shaking slightly. The first hint of something strange was that the phone in his hand was still in the air, dangling in his hand. It looked like he had received a call that had left him shaken. You could clearly see his labored breathing, his eyes scanning the room as if he was looking for something or someone, but at the same time as if he couldn't find it. The atmosphere in the house felt heavy, laden with something dark that you couldn't quite place.
You didn't know what to do. You didn't want to interrupt, but you couldn't just leave either. You assumed the call he'd received had left him in that state, though you weren't sure what it had been. The silence between the two of you was awkward, and as you thought about what to do, you cautiously approached.
You called his name.
"Rafe..." you said softly, trying not to startle him any more than he already was.
He glanced at you quickly, and his gaze, far from the arrogance he usually had, was filled with anxiety and some anger. His face was marked by a concern you hadn't seen before, and for a moment, he didn't seem like the Rafe Cameron you knew.
The tension in the air increased, and when he opened his mouth to speak, his voice sounded raspy, almost desperate.
"Go away!" he shouted, his tone a little higher than expected. The sound of his voice, so full of anxiety, made you take a step back, although, despite the sudden fear, something in you told you that you shouldn't leave.
You stood there, motionless for a moment, feeling your heart beating faster than normal. Rafe's panic was palpable, and the last thing you wanted to do was push him further. But, at the same time, you knew you couldn't just leave him like that.
"Rafe," you said, this time with a calmness that you didn't feel, but that you knew you needed for him to calm down. "I'm not going to leave."
His expression changed for a second, and he stared at you, as if trying to process what you had just said. A couple of seconds of tension filled the space between the two of you, but you didn't let him speak, taking advantage of the moment to move a little closer to him.
"It's okay, I understand that you don't feel well," you added, almost in a protective tone, although you said it without really knowing why. You didnât know him as well as Sofia, but somehow, you cared for him more than you thought.
He took a deep breath, still shaken, and for a moment you thought you wouldnât make it. But then, something in his gaze changed. His body, which was so stiff and tense, relaxed just a little, as if he was letting the words you had said reach him.
You moved a little closer, this time without him asking you to.
âHow can I help you?â you asked softly. You knew that, in those moments, sometimes all you need is someone to be there, without pushing too hard.
Rafe looked at you a little confused, as if he wasnât sure how to handle the situation, and then lowered his head, with a grimace of frustration.
âI donât knowâŚâ he murmured, his voice still deep. âItâs just that⌠I got a callâŚâ
You could see on his face that whatever had happened on that call had really affected him. You didn't say anything else, just waited for him to gather his thoughts, for him to feel ready to talk.
A few minutes passed in which the silence stretched out, and in that time, you were simply there, in the same room, giving him space, but showing him that you weren't willing to abandon him. Finally, he looked up, and in a low voice, he said:
âThank youâŚâ
You looked at him, and for the first time in a long time, you could see Rafe without the layer of arrogance and superiority that he always showed. You realized that, in that moment, he wasn't the self-assured boy that he had always been. He was just a person, vulnerable, dealing with something that he couldn't handle on his own.
You stayed with him as long as he needed, making sure that he wasn't alone in that moment. You didn't know what had happened with the call, or what was going to happen next, but a part of you understood something new about Rafe.
After that moment, something changed between you and Rafe, something that neither of you had anticipated. From that night on, you became the only person capable of understanding him in his darkest moments, without the need for words, without the typical facade of security that he used to have. What happened between you was something silent, almost imperceptible, but enough to leave a mark on both of you.Â
At first, Rafe didn't admit it out loud, he didn't even make it clear in his gestures, but there was something in his behavior that was beginning to change. The days passed, and while Sofia continued to be busy with her things, you began to see a side of Rafe that you had never imagined. He became quieter, more introspective, but instead of the usual practical jokes and air of arrogance, there were now moments when he looked simply lost, as if you were the only one in the world who understood what he was really feeling. And you, somehow, began to understand it too.
There was something about the way he looked at you when his thoughts seemed to be beyond his control, when the shadows of his past or his problems came back to haunt him. There was something that told you not to judge him, something that urged you to stay calm and empathetic, even when the situation seemed out of place. Whenever he seemed on the verge of losing control, you knew what to do, how to approach him without making him feel vulnerable or weak. You knew when to step back and when to offer him your company without needing to talk too much.Â
One afternoon, several days after that first meeting when you calmed him down, Rafe came home late, more undone than usual. He had had a fight with some of Sofiaâs friends, and although no one in the house mentioned anything, you knew. It was as if everything he was trying to hide was crudely on display for you. When you entered the living room, he found you staring at the floor, shoulders slumped, and that expression only he could put on: a mix of repressed rage and deep sadness.
âAre you okay?â you asked softly, without pushing. You knew those words, though simple, could have more impact than you thought.
Rafe looked up, a little surprised by the calmness of your voice. Normally, he would have responded with a wry smile or a scathing comment, but instead, he looked at you and just said,
âIâm not.â
The tone was low, almost inaudible, as if he were revealing something he had never let slip before. You sat next to him without saying anything else, not forcing him to speak, but willing to stay there if he needed to vent. At that moment, you knew something had changed between the two of you.
The silence stretched out, but it wasnât awkward. You knew Rafe didnât need you to tell him what he should do or how he should feel. He just needed time, the space to be vulnerable without feeling judged, and in that space, you were the only one who could understand him. You didnât need words to recognize the small gestures that betrayed him: the way his hand shook slightly or how his breathing quickened when something affected him too much. Those small details were what allowed you to see what others didnât.Â
As time went by, Rafe began to seek you out more often. Although he didnât say it directly, you began to notice that there were times when he would simply approach you without a clear reason, without looking for a conversation, just so you would be close. On more than one occasion, he found you sitting on the couch, lost in your thoughts, and without saying anything, he sat next to you. No explanations were needed, because you both understood that just being together, without the need for words, was enough.Â
There were days when he couldnât hide what he felt, and without warning, the walls he had built around himself began to crumble. One day, after a particularly bad fight with Sofia, he came into the house, late at night. His face was tense, but there was something different about him. He didnât yell, he didnât hurl reproaches, but he just stood in the doorway, staring at you in silence, waiting for you to say something. And you did, you knew that what he needed was something that no one else gave him: reassurance.
âDo you want to talk about what happened?â you asked calmly, as you always did.
Rafe took a deep breath, letting the weight of his thoughts surround him for a moment. Finally, he slumped down on the couch, eyes closed, not wanting to show what he felt. But you knew. You knew that, even if he didnât say it, he was seeking comfort, not in words, but in the way you looked at him, in how your actions offered him respite.
âSometimesâŚâ he said, in a whisper, while looking straight ahead, not really seeing you. âI feel like I'm alone, even when I'm surrounded by people.â
You didn't need to say anything else. You knew that what he had revealed wasn't something he wanted to share with many, but with you, he felt safe. Sometimes, just knowing that someone understood him gave him the comfort he so desperately needed.
That was the dynamic between you: you didn't need to always talk, or understand everything. You just needed to be there, to be the only one who, in his darkest moments, could offer him a soft light, without pressure, just letting time and space do their work. And in that silent understanding, you became the only person capable of understanding Rafe in his entirety, in his most fragile and dark moments, when no one else dared to enter.
Despite everything you shared with Rafe, there was something inside you that you couldn't ignore. A desire, an attraction that, even though you tried to hide it, kept emerging with every gesture, with every word he said to you in those moments when his guard was down. You found yourself watching him more than you should have, noticing the little details that had previously gone unnoticed: how the light played in his hair, the way he laughed, or how his tone of voice changed when he was relaxed, when he felt like he didnât have to be the same old Rafe, the one everyone admired or feared.Â
At first, you tried to ignore it. You said it was just the closeness, the way things had developed between the three of you, and that it was a passing phase. But it wasnât just that. Every time he smiled at you or looked at you in a warmer way, you felt a tug in your chest that you couldnât control. There was something else in you that was building, something that terrified you.Â
You thought about Sofia, how happy she was with him, how much she had supported you in everything, and it tormented you to feel what you felt for Rafe. You felt guilty, like you were betraying a friendship you had cared for for so long. She didnât deserve that, you thought. Sofia had always been loyal, fun, and even though she could be impulsive and a little blind at times, you saw her happy, devoted to Rafe, trusting him in a way you never could.
There were times when, after talking to Rafe, you were left alone, with thoughts running wild in your mind. You couldnât stop thinking about him, about the way he made you feel special, about how his closeness disarmed you, how there was something in his fragility that attracted you, a side that no one else saw, but you did. You felt at a crossroads, trapped between what you felt and what you knew you couldnât do.
It wasnât just a physical attraction, it was something deeper. Something that made you want to hold him longer than a friend should. Something that asked you to be there for him in a way that went beyond friendship. It was the desire to be close to him, to take care of him, to become his refuge, and it terrified you how much you loved him without being able to control it.Â
At first, you tried to suppress it. Every time you felt that need to be closer to him, to share more moments, you tried to convince yourself that it was just a phase, that it was because of the closeness of the last few months. But the more you denied it, the stronger that feeling became inside you, like it was an undercurrent that grew every time he looked at you with those dark, intense eyes. Those eyes that disarmed you, that seemed to see beyond your facade, beyond your friendship.Â
Sometimes, you felt like you were walking on a tightrope. You knew that every moment you spent with Rafe, every conversation, every gesture, brought you closer to something you couldn't allow yourself. But you couldn't help it. The desire, the attraction, everything you felt for him, was growing inside you, and no matter how many times you told yourself it was a betrayal, that you should stay away, you couldn't stop thinking about what happened when he was around.
Every time Sofia left, every time Rafe was left alone with you, that feeling grew stronger, as if the air between the two of you became thick and charged with something neither of you dared to mention. It scared you, it made you uncomfortable, but you couldn't stop it.
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You bolted out of bed, sweat clinging to your skin as fragments of your dream started coming back in your brain, taunting you. Sarah stirred in her sleep from the spot next to yours in your bed.
You closed your eyes for a brief moment, running your hands through your hair, trying to restore your breathing back to normal and compose yourself.
After a moment you made your way to the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror. For the first time in months you noticed your appearance. The person looking back at you didnât look anything like yourself.
Your face looked paler, you seemed thinner, and there were dark circles beneath your eyes. You looked hollow. You felt tired.
After a couple of moments you stepped into the shower and let the warm water embrace you. You grabbed your coconut scented shampoo and started washing your hair. After you rinsed your hair from the lather, you grabbed your shower gel and rubbed it softly on your skin.
When you stepped out steam was fogging up the entire bathroom. You wrapped a towel around yourself and quietly made your way to your dressing. You stepped inside and looked around at the clothing options you owned but settled on a pair of black sweatpants and an oversized t-shirt which had its neckline cutout.
You made your way downstairs and towards the kitchen, not noticing the tv light coming from the living room.
You extended an arm trying to grab your favorite cup which was placed on the top shelf. You stood on your tippy toes and still couldnât reach it. You froze when you felt a person standing right behind you, their chest pressed up against your back.
He reached up and grabbed the cup with ease, placing it on the counter for you but all you could focus on was the familiar cologne invading your senses and the warmth of the body behind you.
You took a deep breath, closed your eyes for a moment and then turned around. You were met with a deep blue pair of eyes staring right at you.
âI didnât realize you were still here.â You whispered.
âYeah, it got pretty late so I figured Iâd crash here.â He responded, never once breaking the eye contact. âWhy arenât you sleeping?â
âI just had a bad dream and couldnât sleep, so I figured Iâd grab a glass of water.â You said looking away.
You turned, grabbed your glass and started toward the fridge. He watched you like a hawk, paying attention to your every move.
âWhat was it about?â He asked suddenly breaking the silence.
âWhat?â
âYour dream. What was it about?â
âOh um- I canât really remember.â You replied. Looking everywhere but his face.
He studied you for a moment, deep silence took over but he didnât push any further.
âSo how is it going? You know with Sofia.â You werenât even sure why you were asking him. Not really ready to hear his response but you just wanted to speak to him a little more than three words because this was the first time you were properly holding a conversation in over two months.
You just wanted to know how he was doing. Make sure he was okay because deep down you still care for him. You still love him.
He stared at you. He didnât know if he should even respond. Knowing you, he knew it would hurt you. Even now he still knew you the best. He knew you were just asking out of politeness.
He wasnât even with Sofia like that. They were just friends. Friends who hung out way too much but it just got his mind off of things. Off of you.
âWeâre not- like that.â He shrugged. âWe just hang out sometimes and thatâs it.â He said casually.
Your head whipped around your eyes meeting his trying to read the truth behind them. âWhat? But I thought- Top said-â You cut yourself off, a furrow of your brows noticeable on your face. âHe said you were together. I thought you moved onâŚI thought you-â
âDonât.â âI could never move on from you. You know that.â He took a few steps closer, his eyes searching yours for some kind of reaction.
âThen why did you let me think you did, Rafe?â You whispered back.
âBecause you made it pretty clear you wanted me toâŚI mean you broke up with me. You avoided me for more than two months after that.â His voice held something raw, unguarded.
âI never wanted that. I broke up with you because I thought-â âI donât know I thought that you had something going on with her and I was standing in your way. I thought you didnât love me anymore.â Your voice came out quieter than intended.
He went silent for a moment. Then he stepped even closer. âI could never.â He responded, brushing a hair behind your ear, a trail of goosebumps made its way on the back of your neck.
âAlways and forever. Remember?â
You stared at him, your heart pounding at the words you had once heard so many times before.
âDonât say that.â
His brows furrowed. âWhy?â
âBecause you donât get to say things like that now.â You took a small step back, putting some distance between you. âNot after everything.â
He looked down for a moment, his jaw tightening. âI know.â
âThen why are you here, Rafe?â
He looked back at you, and for the first time, there was no hesitation in his eyes.
âBecause Iâm tired of pretending I donât want you.â âEvery morning I wake up and youâre not beside me in my arms I feel like my chest is being torn open. Every time I see a thing that reminds me of you I just feel this void in my heart that nothing and nobody can fill. Every time youâre not around it feels like I canât breathe.â
âYou are like a breath of fresh air. You are the reason that I wake up every morning. You are my heart and Iâve been without a pulse for way too long. I need you. And I wonât let you slip away again.â
You felt your breath catch.
âI loved you so much that I convinced myself I had to let you go,â you said. âAnd when you didnât come after me, I thought that meant I had been right.â
His jaw clenched. âI wanted to.â
âBut you didnât.â
âNo.â He looked down, swallowing hard. âI was angry. Hurt. And stupid enough to think giving you space was what you wanted.â
âI didnât want space, Rafe.â The words came out before you could stop them.
His eyes immediately found yours.
âI wanted you to fight for me.â
Silence. He took a shaky breath. âI should have.â
âYou should have.â
âI know.â
For a moment, neither of you moved. Then he reached for your hand, slowly enough that you could pull away if you wanted.
You didnât.
His fingers intertwined with yours. âI canât change those two months,â he whispered. âBut if youâll let me, I can make sure you never have to wonder where I stand again.â
You looked at your joined hands.
âIâm still scared.â
âI know.â
âAnd Iâm still hurt.â
âI know.â
You finally looked up at him. âBut I still love you.â His eyes softened.
âThatâs all I ever wanted to hear.â
okay how are we feeling about this? I donât know if itâs too rushed..I havenât written in like a year about this story I hope it makes sense and I still have to somehow make her tell him that sheâs pregnantâŚbut weâll see how that goes.
Authorâs note: this is like my third blog and I promised myself I wasnât going to write any Rafia stuff here. But⌠Iâm listening to Oliviaâs new album on my cd player and this idea hit me. This is sincerelypetal.. if anyone remembers me lol.
Iâm a sad shell of a woman and Iâve got maggots for brains
But thatâs just what happens when my
Baby goes away
Sofia downs another beer, some of it slushing the sides of her mouth. It burns the back of her throat, but she was hoping for the sting. Needed something to distract her, and the cheap beer was doing somewhat that. Her purse hits her gently on her arm, she ignores it.
This was never her crowd, she was never one to be found here, lounging around with people she hardly spoke to. Drinking disgusting beer and laughing at jokes she didnât actually find funny. But lately, she found sheâd been ripped by the seams.
Old Sofia wouldnât be here. This new her, despite not knowing why she was in the boneyard, was here to find⌠something. She was even dressed like everyone else today. Short shorts with a tight halter top. Her sandals the only thing she kept the same.
âSofia?â
She doesnât turn, just bends down to grab another beer from the cooler. Handing over her last few dollars to the Kook selling it.
âRafe wouldnât like this.â
Her eyes closed, her lips stretching into a thin line. She finally leveled her eyes to Topper, who annoyingly has a worried look on his face. Here he goes, wanting to be some kind of hero to someone who doesnât want him to be. She hugs the beer close to her chest.
âHeâs not here, is he?â She tastes the venom in her voice, her heart tells a different story. One of aching harrowing pain.
She feels the wind tousle her hair, doesnât bother to push it off her face. Glad it obscures Topperâs face, she doesnât want to see him either.
âBut I am. And I know he wouldnât want me to leave you⌠like this.â
Her face scrunches up in annoyance, who the hell did he think he was? She could take care of herself just fine. It was only two beers.
âAnd from the looks of it. It seems you came alone. Which means you drove here alone.â
âSeems like youâre being observant.â This time her voice falls flat on venom.
âLook, I can take you homeââ
âI didnât ask you too.â
âRafeââ
She drops her beer; both. Feels the liquid spill against her sandals.
âRafe isnât here, Topper! I donât need you to babysit me! He doesnât care what the hell happens to me! So why should you?â
The unused resentment spills out of her, she isnât even drunk, sheâs just angry. Topper mouth opens like a fish out of water and she wants to laugh. He must have thought she was going to make it easier for him. That she wouldnât push back. But fuck it, new Sofia does.
âHe wouldnât want you here. Look, I donât know what happened between you. But I know he careââ
Sofia lets out an ugly scoff, she crosses her arms, head shaking.
âHe didnât even like you.â Sofia says, her eyes narrowing at him. âHe thought you were hung up on his sister and it made you pathetic. He thought you were the worst kind of Kook.â
âOkay.â Topper says, blinking rapidly, his brows furrowing into confusion, his hands in front of him like heâs actually trying to process it. Like it hadnât been so obvious.
âYouâre just upset.â
âSure.â
âAnd youâre saying mean things so Iâll leave you alone.â
She doesnât bother refuting, heâs clearly not used to the idea of someone he considers like him, not liking him.
âBut look, this isnât your kind of scene Sofia. And I wouldnât want something bad happening to you. Itâll just kill Rafe.â
Each time his name slips out of Toppers mouth, just feels like another jab to her heart. Itâs all her fault anyway, sheâd ruin it, crushed it beneath her toe. His icy blue eyes flashes in her head and she winces.
âHe cares. So let me just take you home.â
âWhat if it is?â
âHuh?â
She gesticulates around her, at the boneyard, at the people dancing and getting drunk. People giggling at jokes they probably didnât truly find funny around the bonfire, the fire cracking, turning to ash.
âThis. What if this is me now? Who are you to tell me this isnât my kind of scene?â
âSofiaââ
âWhatever, take me home. Doesnât make a real difference.â
She sits in the back seat of Topperâs bmw, staring out the window, tears flowing down her face. The music covering up the little hiccups that escape her lips. The ac is on full blast, if Rafe had been here, he would have known she didnât like it that way. He would have known, she feels the phantom touch of his thumb rubbing circles against her thigh.
Maybe theyâd been some truth to Topperâs words. Maybe Rafe did care.
His words echo in her head again.
âJust because we hook up doesnât mean sheâs my girlfriend, okay.â
She remembers the way his words slurred but he had still said them. No matter what she wanted to believe, Rafe still didnât see her as someone who he could see himself with.
But he had proposed.
It all felt so contradictory, she wiped her eyes, hoping Topper hadnât seen. The last thing she needs is him running to tell Rafe. How he found her at the boneyard, trying to get drunk. âShe looked heartbroken dude.â With his stupid frat boy voice of his. She places her hands in her lap, staring at them, she could only forgive so much. Could only excuse so much. Could only conclude, Rafe didnât really care.
God, she really wished she could change everything. Had stopped herself from hearing what he had said. She wouldnât have lost him and therefore wouldnât have lost a part of herself. The naive part of her who believed they could have worked out.
âUh⌠weâre here.â
Sofia glances up, her rickety old house, the juxtaposition of her sitting in Toppers expensive car. She bursts into a fit of laughter, her shoulders shaking, tears springing out of her eyes. She probably looked crazy from the inside looking in. But the whole thing felt like a weird fever dream she was going to wake up from. How weird was it that Topper was the one who found her. She couldnât help but let out another shriek of laughter.
âI know break ups are hard. Especially with someone like Rafe. Butââ
âThanks Topper for driving me home. But I donât need any advice.â
She opens the car door, slamming it shut, not bothering to say anything more to him. She digs around her purse, retrieving her keys and entering her house. She only hears the engine of his car before he drives away.
Sheâs pathetic, thatâs probably how everyone sees her now. A naive girl fed a dream. So naive that she even quit a âdecentâ job for a man who wasnât reliable. The townâs piranha, but if they really knew Rafe, they would know he really didnât bite.
The most he could do was sting. Deep down, she knew he didnât even know why he did. Everything he did was a reaction from what others did to him. Not because he really felt inclined to it. There was no real danger. Just a scared little boy wanting to throw the first punch so he didnât look like a coward.
But he was.
She slipped back into her room, jumping straight onto her bed, burying her face into the sheets. She wanted this night to be over with already.
Rafe
Rafe
Rafe
Rafe
Thatâs how many times Topper had said Rafeâs name. Too many times. She felt as if he was stitching his name into her brain, so she didnât forget him. So she could see that no matter how much she thought she was finally getting over him. Rafe was still worming his way into her, even if it wasnât for love.
She closed her eyes, praying sleep dragged her under.
is this a safe space to say i despise riara...? there will be NO riara propaganda here. rafe is either alone or with sofia, and honestly, he looks SO good with sofia.