#rabbitheart

Today I called you and told you that I love you. With the kind of heart that only I can have. You laughed through the phone, something defeated maybe, or detached. (I know how you get, I know how you are, I know you. And I still did it anyways.)

Sae, perhaps, securing it behind your neck before slipping a finger into the band of it, clinical as he makes sure there’s just enough space between it and your neck. Is it a subtle collar, one that almost looks like a choker that you can wear out in public, but perhaps has his name embroidered on the inside of it to mark you as his?

Or are you thinking about Bunny? Would he give you a collar that he can attach a leash to? So he can pull you toward him and claim your lips, or keep you from trying to escape when he teases you, overwhelming you with pleasure…

okay zebra you are evil . evil zebra. i have spotted my friend being evil. you must imagine kitty!cora swiping your phone out of your hands because you are sending evil messages on your evil phone!! (teasing)

the subtle collar.. zebra my friend i am adopting this if this is okay HAHA THIS IS SO SMART I LOVE THAT .. the embroidery too waughasldf;lkj yes this exactly and sae is sooooo picky w the collars he wants me to like it he also wants to like it it has to be classy and go-out-able and yet be strong enough to handle a tug like okay goldilocks

now zebra is being extra evil hello . evilinator. THE LEASH ...... if i think about this too much i will explode actually.. I AM ALSO adopting this.. the overstimulation HELLOOOOO ZE YOUR MIND.. thank you for indulging me in my selfshippies ueueue i am like so honored you ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY HELLO .. need him to pull on that when i want to run away waushaflsjdk okay i am a puddle now thank you ze

OR!!!!!! does he actually be a better person and uses your comfortability as a means to understand himself and what about him makes you feel safe! and what can h e do to make you feel even safer

(SORRY for any errors btw im fighting the nyquil A GAIN)

wow alice your mind your brain i am honored for you to have used your brilliance just to talk to me about my selfshippie it means the mostest to me i am saving this and adopting this if that is ok wauh <33333 that being said .. something like both 👀 HAHA not to be greedyyyyy i think the first one first and then the second

yes at some point in our situationship he is soooo boyfriend he is so safe and fun and i talk to him about so many things and open up to him about my life even when i can feel that it is probably a bad idea because i love people with my whole heart and all my vulnerability and honesty.. and then he dips and maybe even flirts w someone else in front of me and it's like oh what did i expect . WHAT DID I EXPECT.. and he even laughs in my face asking whether i really thought we had something? waugh .. he is so terrible my alice friend ..

but i think after our breakup to makeup he does try because he is like okay i do not . want to lose a second time LMFAO i am also trying to make him feel safe and he has to admit to me that he lied about like 371 things before and i am like boy i will strangle you haha jk unless. vulnerability is hard to open up and he is still difficult a lot of the time but at least he is loyal and communicating more clearly i guess ....... he's still possessive as hell and sometimes a liar though. and he still likes to fuck mean HAHA

no more tumblr for miss vee aiku here i am taking all the phone laptops electronics away i think you have a sir oliver to be showing love in the meantime it's best that there are no distractions

(look away. yes i think he purposefully teases me the whole time i try to do his eyeliner and he has this stupid stupid smile on and i am stubborn and continue to do it and my hands are shaking and he tuts and makes me wash it off for him and do it again until i get it right. all whilst he purposefully bounces me in his lap. and it takes like an hour and i don't even know if he fucks me after all that. also i am saving this for me.)