#queer shifter

I WAS IN MY MANS BED.

I shifted to my Academia DR (my s/o's home reality) last night.

"Élie, what did you do?"

AFFIRMED AND ASSUMED. WHAT ELSE. IT'S ALL LOA LOA PERSIST PERSIST. @cowboy-barbiana talked abt this on their blog a lot too (follow him if y'all resonate with my way of shifting).

I robotically affirmed. Assumed so hard. Slipped in and out of consciousness. Then I remembered how a lot of shifters said to not put shifting on a pedestal, and yk what I did? I MENTALLY VISUALIZE MYSELF PUTTING DOWN A GUN FROM MY HEAD. Then I relaxed. Deep breaths deep breaths.

Then I felt this 'click'. In an old comment, I asked @99oscaars how it felt / sounded when she shifted (it was on an auditory method post). She said it felt like a switch. Like. No dramatics no nothing. Just a switch. AND IT HAPPENED TO ME EXACTLY LIKE THAT.

I shifted to this point a lot (hearing sounds from my DR) but like. This one is so? Noticeable? I felt this 'SWOOP' feeling. Like I told the universe "yo I'm shifting alright" and they replied with "sure here ya go" with so much non-chalance.

It's deep winter in my DR. I shifted from a tropical country guys. The temperature change was so contrast.

With my eyes closed, I realize that I have a different body. Different sheets. I AM IN MY MANS HOUSE IN OXFORD. I also felt this peace... that I mentally scripted I would feel in this DR.

We have this huge window behind our bed, and the winter sun shines right onto my face. I could hear people walking by. PEOPLE WERE SPEAKING IN ENGLISH WITH A THICK ENGLISH ACCENT. I usually only heard birds. FOR THE FIRST TIME I COULD HEAR PEOPLE???? It's winter festival season you guys. Like. Oh my goshh it was a special day, a lot of people went out to visit the markets, including me and my man in our plan!

I panicked. I took a deep breath. I had shifted, but idk how to ground myself. I didn't open my eyes because I'm too scared that I'll see my cr wardrobe instead of seeing my shirtless semi-dilf of a bf </3 (HELP) Y'ALL I WAS SO SCARED.

I moved my hand. Didn't feel a body. He was supposed to be in front of me???? erm. Plot hole???? hello?

So I decided to calm tf down. I know damn well that I'm in my dr so no need to convince myself of anything anymore. Then to calm down, I let my mind wander... to Wicked. I thought to myself: "Hey, Shiz University DR would be fun!"

THEN I FELL ASLEEP. WHAT. WHAAAAT. I HAD VIVID DREAMS OF SHIZ. BUT WHAT THE HELL I WOKE UP HERE.

I NEVER FELT THIS DEVASTATED. LAST TIME I FELT THIS DEVASTATED WAS WHEN I WATCHED 'CALL ME BY YOUR NAME' WHEN I WAS A TEEN IN HIGH SCHOOL YEAARS AGO.

I cried. Of course I cried because I miss my bf????? I know I did nothing wrong. But I don't know what to blame either. I zoned out in the showers, realizing I had shifted. 0 doubt. I had shifted.

I don't know how much longing I could take. Pray for Clyde Harlow. Pray for me.

Decided to finally work on this cause why not. Title is slightly click bait but there is mpreg I promise. This ain't gonna be as polished as my other posts cause I'm not a doctor and don't know any of the technical terminology. This is just something I thought of for my parent dr. Note that this works for any gendered couples (and probably poly relationships too)!

happy pride month!!! 🧡🤍🩷

to honour the month of pride, i shall be shifting and lezzing out with my wife <3

so last night i did go to bed with the intention of shifting, but i was having a VERY hard time locking in. ive been so sick recently and my knees were hurting and i couldn’t get comfortable and everything you can imagine was going wrong.

while i was repeating affirmations and stuff i was also just REALLY upset, yesterday was a very tough day. i on and off cried all day and had just cried before bed so i couldn’t breathe through my nose either, i was just a hot mess.

i did have a dream tho, i had a dream that i had to go to solo and ensemble for band and play my solo AGAIN, which the last time i did i had a huge panic attack and it was awful. but i did dream !!!

my plan for today overall is to spend some time outside of my room, begin write my book, and try to eat(stomach bug sad face). maybe before i go to bed try to like meditateor something ?

"How does your s/o shift for you?"

Hiyaa Rin! To be honest, my s/o shifting for me is a sensitive topic to me, because I'm really scared that I would get judged for it or be called delusional. But as you may know, realities are limitless, we are infinite, and anything is possible. Your question made me think clearly of my future in this reality, and I thank you for that.

Just to start, this is what I think about reality shifting:

1.) We're just remembering things when we script our desired realities. The realities we desired had been there before we even desire it.

2.) There is no such thing as our 'original reality' in a literal sense. We died before. We exist before this life. However, I do refer the reality where we discover reality shifting again as our 'original reality' or 'home reality'.

So. This is my original reality. This is where my awareness learned about reality shifting. My s/o? He came from a reality where people are just as ordinary yet more spiritual. His name is Damien Lawrence, from my Academia DR. He dicovered about reality shifting through a secret club during his studies in Oxford University. Fast forward -> he is a young professor now (current timeline when I shift), and he's dating one of the Dphil astrophysicist student, aka me, Clyde Harlow.

We've been dating for three months now. I'm starting my thesis about the multiverse theory, which him and I bond over, and we're also doing a private research about reality shifting together. In that DR, abrahamic religions doesn't exist. You're either pagan, a spiritualist, or an atheist. Reality shifting, although it's community is very hidden and protected, are more accepted as a practice unlike here.

Damien thinks shifting is too good to be true, but he's not totally opposed with the idea; he felt some familiarity with it. He said he shifted realities when he was younger to a reality where he was a young vampire falling in love with his own best friend, another where he was a 'she' music producer during the 2010s, and also another where he works with magical animals instead of studying the universe like he is right now, and so much more. The realities mentioned are all of my DRs.

You see, when we think of our DRs, time is not linear. We would receive memories of them often, some from the past, present (the time as soon as we shifted) and the future.

In one of these memories, I find myself building the courage to tell him that I shifted to him. To my Academia DR. He was surprised at first. Then his eyes got teary. "Where are you from?" he asked. Then I told him that I came from a reality where I was a really sad south east asian girl trying to escape her own life through reality shifting and manifestations. Her life did get better; but romantic love was barely on the table when you're a raging feminist in a patriarchal reality.

He was fascinated, but sad, because all of my realities, including my life with him, are fulfilling, except this one in particular. Then he said that it's his turn. He'll shift for me. He'll find me. "You can't be Damien anymore. Life is very... different there," I said carefully. "You have to have certain looks, certain religion, certain career and stability. You have to appease my parents. And you have to be a man, because even though I am a queer woman there, queerness cannot be in my life if I don't want to lose my loved ones. Like I said before. I am a sad girl there, and life might be hard."

Then he said he'll do it.

And I know he's here. Somewhere. It's not my time for me to see him yet. 

In a way, I find it egoistical for me to also have him here. To already think of him as my husband here. Deep down I want to show my parents that a man is capable of loving me (btw idgaf if no man loves me, I actually prefer girls in this reality). I have always found myself lovable, and I am abundant of love, and I am love. But my parents never perceived me that way. I don't fit their beauty standard, and they think that my feminist values will leave me lonely. Believe me, their concern came from a good place. I guess I just want to show them that... I'm not alone. Someone loves me. Y'all can relax now.

Then my husband and I will shift the fuck away from here after that part of my life in this reality. See how I called him my husband again? SIGH. I'm gonna go play that song by Raye now.

Special mention: Mason (@masoncantthinkofaname). If I never stumbled across his story with his husband Dareon (I hope I spelled his name right) I don't think I'd ever know that for my s/o to shift for me is possible. In this case, I guess I am my s/o's Dareon because I shift to find him... and now he's shifting with me.

Anyways I'm SO SORRY for the long answer. This is a problem of mine. I can't get straight to the point when it comes to tumblr asks. I hope I answered your question clearly. @aeinthe-void