I had such a rough and emotional weekend. It was amazing to come back to so much kindness and love! When I created this blog a few weeks back I never expected so much interaction. You are all super lovely and I'm incredibly grateful to all of my new followers!
For context, my fiancé and I are in our preconception phase. This includes focusing on healthy routines, eating habits, planning our dream home/location, and prepping my body for conception.
I spent some more time looking into things this weekend and waves of anguish, frustration, and jealousy washed over me. For the most part, unless dealing with fertility issues, couples can get pregnant easily. Many could try tonight and be pregnant by the end of the week. With artificial insemination it could take months, possibly years. When all I want, right now, is to be with child. So I spent most of the weekend torn up about it, even thought about throwing away the idea to have children completely.
After sitting with ALL the emotions, I decided....I can't throw my dream away. Since I was little, I always wanted my own children and family. It's one of the reasons I was drawn to a career in education - to teach and nurture the littles, our future of tomorrow; like my parents did for me. It filled my heart with joy but only made me yearn for my own little ones even more nor did the career truly fulfill me like I know being a mother would.
I believe I am truly meant to be a mother and a phenomenal one at that. Today was the first time I felt okay about everything. Still a little disappointed it will take more work, but, I know the Creator will provide me with the dream He has shown me.
If you feel comfortable, I would love to hear from other parents/mothers/couples who did IUI/IVF. The whole process being so medical scares me and would love some resources and/or friends throughout this journey.
