#pureoocd

Hello all, I have been struggling with my mental health lately and as a result, I have not been creating; not that I don’t have a million ideas of things I want to do........ Executive Dysfunction coupled with Severe Depression, has left me very unmotivated; I’ve barely been out supply hunting...... My “Pure O” OCD has taken over my life since Covid started and it’s really been wearing on me now that we’re in allergy season; gotta love seasonal allergies, you’d like my brain would remember this happens every year despite Covid........ Unfortunately because of my OCD, quiet, crafting and walks in nature and painful rather than cathartic...... Usually I’ll listen to music to get me through these phases, but lately music has been very triggering; depending on the song, era, who used to listen to it, etc. I’m struggling to be in my home (not a new issue) but can’t manage to leave my house either; my fucking agoraphobia has also been a bigger issue since Covid....... Seeing my people, socially distanced, sends me into an OCD intrusive thoughts nightmare for days afterwards and holding appointments is almost non existent because anxiety equals coughing fits and trouble breathing...... I laugh because my entire existence is all the Covid symptoms; minus the fever and not being able to taste/smell....... Anyone else check their temp 6-7 times a day?!?! I do......... Walking around intensely smelling things?!?! No, oh ok............ #mentalhealthisnojoke #pureoocd #ocd #severedepression #mentalhealthmatters #takingtimetoheal #autismacceptancemonth #agoraphobia (at Okanagan Landing) https://www.instagram.com/p/CNQI0l3pbG6/?igshid=zconnimfvfkx

Trust no one but the voices. Trust no one but the voices. Trust no one but the. . .wait. Stop. Look around. You are safe. You are not in danger. The world is not against you. The voices are not real. Breathe deeply and slowly. Put a strong hand on your chest where the knot is. Massage your heart until it stops listening to the lies. Until the intrusive thoughts aren’t racing and raging anymore. But sitting quietly next to you, subdued. No longer convincing. Like a movie you were sucked into, they fade into the fiction they are. And you can smile again.   

I gotta admit having 280 followers it's really flattering, but at the same time it makes me sad that there are so many of us suffering from this thoughts. But if you are here know you are not alone On the other hand feel free to reach, to talk to send anons, to share because, you don't need to go through this alone. You are worth so much more than you think OCD is a liar Your life is precious so are you 💜💜💜Lots and lots of love for all of you my followers 💜💜 Remember you can always send a message if you need to talk ~Nina~

One thing about healing from pure o is its bound to come back weeks later. I'm so lost, frustrated and upset. I don't know what to do anymore. Pure o is a silent killer.