#ptsdknowledge

You were not who I thought you were.

You did not look the way I thought you looked.

Nor did you smell the same or act the way I expected you to act. PTSD, I thought that you were only your soldiers problem.

I thought that it could only be contracted when in the battlefield.

I thought that you could only come in the night, or only in small movie like flashbacks.

PTSD I did not expect you to look like me when I first saw you.

PTSD I did not expect you to come in the shape of me. PTSD I did not expect you to act like panic attacks, over the smallest littlest things; or strong aversion to people and things,

I did not expect you to look like this.

PTSD looks like sobbing on the floor of my kitchen

Because my father's voice is so loud in my head

And I can’t move or breath.

Ptsd, you are the most artful shapeshifter

Sometimes you are anger

Or deep deprivatety

Or panic

Or long stretches of insomnia

Sometimes you dress up like sadness

And other days you are nothing

Disappeared

Into thin air like you were never here.

But like darkness growing as the sun goes down

You are always there .

Ptsd, you are not who I thought you are.

I didn’t know I could be hunted by things I can’t remember.

But this is a talent only you can master.

Repressed memories you plant in my head like

Hidden bear traps,

Covered like normal life

Until one wrong step and I’m falling

Falling deeper

Deeper into the darkness

Where you sit,

A reflection of me I do not recall.

Ptsd- when the fuck did you become me?

I suppose I shouldn’t be addressing this poem to you

It’s trauma who is the cause to it all.

But you are the continuous abuser

Even though I am no longer in the battlefield

You keep me on edge.

Even though I am not there you make me feel like I am.

You are salt in the wounds,

You are lemon juice in paper cuts.

Dear ptsd,

When I was diagnosed with you

I cried with relief.

I was just so damn ecstatic have a face and name

To my now constant companion.

I know you're here for the long haul,

At every corner

Waiting to jump out

Remind me that

Just because you should be safe

Doesn’t mean you are

And that just because you think you can

Trust

Female paedophiles more prevalent than conviction rates suggest, leading forensic psychologist says

ABC News  reporter  David Lewis , updated this article just hours ago, fascinating reading in terms of, not necessarily a major culture shift, but rather and acceptance by society that this is a very real issue that we have to deal with.  ——– The number of women sexually abusing children is much higher than conviction rates would suggest, according to a leading forensic psychologist.  Joe Sullivan has spent 26 years counselling child sex offenders in the United Kingdom and is visiting Australia to attend an international police conference at Bond University on the Gold Coast.  While experts agree the majority of paedophiles are men, Dr Sullivan says women are responsible for more offences than previously thought.  “What I can say for certain is that it’s way more prevalent than people fully appreciate or understand,” he told the ABC.  “There’s some research to suggest it could be as high as 25 per cent.  “However, when you look at the representation within the criminal justice system it could be as low as 3 to 4 per cent of overall convictions.”  Dr Sullivan suspects the reluctance of victims to report abuse by women is one possible reason for this discrepancy. “Our experience is that victims of female perpetrators tend to be less likely to come forward,” he said. “They tend to feel as though they’re less likely to be believed.”  “Society does not believe that women really do sexually abuse children,” he said.  “There’s almost a perception that boys should be happy or grateful, or certainly not experiencing sexual contact with females as abusive.”  Experts at the conference warned ill-informed community attitudes could result in female paedophiles being treated differently under the law.  “In categories where you’ve got a young adult woman targeting 13, 14, or 15-year-old males, typically you find their sentences are lighter than the equivalent for a male,” Dr Sullivan said of previous cases in the UK.

Remember Who You Are

Remember who you are. Not where you came from, not where you are going…but who you are. If you loose sight of the who, the what you’re doing and where you’re doing it will loose its context.  Disappointment arises out of unmet expectations. Manage your expectations and you will eliminate most of your disappointments (you can’t control all the idiots out there).  People will not buy what they don’t understand. People will not support something that does not have a solution. People will not fund something that does not have an executable plan attached.  

Former Female California probation counselor accused of sex with two teen inmates

Fox News recently reported that a former county probation counselor in Northern California was arrested on accusations of having sex with two teenage boys who were incarcerated at a juvenile detention center. Tricia Caparra, 36, appeared in court on Friday on 15 felony sexual assault charges, with a boy as young as 16, Santa Clara County prosecutors said. She did not enter a plea.  Over 50% of boys are sexually abused, in other parts of the world it is as high as 85%, close to 45% of traffickers are female. As long as sexual abuse and sex trafficking are seen as issues of gender, then half of the victims and half of the perpetrators will go unnoticed.  If as parents you are not spending as much protecting your sons, as you are your daughters then you are being irresponsible.   NOT    Here is a link to the full story .

Boys As Likely To Be Abused As Girls

Do you see him? He is A Survivor Too.

Do you see him?  The moon is black and the ground is cold She wants to get out of town, he wants to get laid. Do you see him?  He is 2, he is her gorgeous boy. Blonde hair, brown eyes, giggling, standing, falling, never giving in. Do you see him?  He is 4, he is a playful boy. He is playing a game, daddy likes to watch too. They put food in mummies nana and he has to get it with his tongue. Do you see him?  He is 5, he is a naughty boy. They are putting his little green soldiers in and out of his bottom really hard and fast to teach him to put his toys away. Do you see him?  He is 7, he is a lying boy. He is hiding in the bushes next door. “That is just not true, no mother would do something like that to her son”, they tell him as they drag him home. Do you see him?  He is 9, he is a good boy. He crawls under their dresses and makes her friends tingle, ‘Just like you do for mummy’. Sometimes they even take pictures. Do you see him?  He is 11, he is a naked boy. Daddy watches him as the other men laugh at his hairless body. They take turns pulling his dick to make it grow. The pliers hurt the most. Do you see him?  He is 13, he is a lonely boy. The scouts leaders says “let me hold it for you, thats how we become friends”. Do you see him?  He is 45, he is a screaming man. Curled in a ball, sobbing body shudders with memories that are shattering his soul and breaking his mind. Do you see him?  He is 50, a broken man. Nurses a bottle and sucking a barrel. Do you see him?  He is 53, he is a relentless man. His arse will always bleed and his eyes will never dry. Do you see him?  He is a survivor too.     by Dr John A. King  

Domestic Violence Awareness Month – Can Men Be Abused by Women?

It is Domestic Violence Awareness Month, so here is a question for you :  Can Men Be Abused by Women?   You might ask; What does he mean by  ‘abused’  ?    Can a man be emotionally abused by a woman?    Can a man be psychologically abused by a woman?     Can a man be physically abused by a woman?    Can a man be sexually abused or raped by a woman?    Can a man be financially abused by a woman?     Dr Tara J. Palmatier , PsyD believes so, in fact she is so committed helping men over come abuse by women that back in 2009 she started  Shrink4Men  because she recognized that men who are in abusive relationships in which the perpetrator is a woman do not have the same support resources as their female counterparts.    So can men be abused?  I’ll let a women do the talking…  The answer to these questions is a resounding  YES . Women are every bit as capable of being abusive as men. Women, by virtue of their sex, aren’t inherently more noble, peaceful, wise, better able to express their emotions or [insert supposed exclusive female virtue here] than men. To claim otherwise is sexist.  That’s right. SEXIST.   Women Are Just as Physically Abusive as Men   High-conflict, abusive jerks seem to be fairly distributed between the sexes. In fact, women excel  and surpass their male counterparts in psychological aggression (Muñoz-Rivas, et al., 2007). Women’s use of physical aggression is nearly equal to men (Parity, 2010). Aggression between partners is usually engaged in by both partners (Straus & Gelles, 1990; O’Leary & Slep, 2003) and physical aggression is often considered  normal  behavior within the couple (Avery-Leaf, Cascardi, O’Leary, & Cano, 1997; Foshee, Linder, MacDougall, & Bangdiwala, 2001; Hilton, Harris, & Rice, 2000).   Parity , a UK charity group, published the report (2010),   Domestic Violence: The Male Perspective  , which found that 40% of domestic violence victims in England and Wales are men (these findings were replicated in 5 other English-speaking countries including the US). One wonders if it’s not 50% due to under-reporting. Nevertheless, despite overwhelming empirical evidence, the fact that men are just as likely to be the targets of abuse as women is a controversial and disputed subject.  Data supporting the roughly equal rates of abuse perpetrated by women have been discredited by its critics. Criticism isn’t based upon the scientific principles used to gather the data, but on fear-based, unsubstantiated beliefs that all men are  abusers from whom women and children must be protected (Farrell, 1999; Straus, 2006; Straus, 2007).  Women initiate and carry out physical assaults on their partners as often as men do. . . Despite the much lower probability of physical injury resulting from attacks by women, assaults by women are a serious social problem, just as it would be if men ‘only’ slapped their wives or ‘only’ slapped female fellow employees and produced no injury” (Straus, 1997, p. 210).    For the rest of the article click here.   Be it human trafficking, sex trafficking, sexual abuse, domestic violence it is about time the conversation moved from one of  to  don’t you think?…or maybe your just sexist?

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