#proxvir

I looked around and didn't find anything. A distinct term might be very useful though. In fact, I'd love to see proximal terms for all qualities someday.

flag id: two flags with 6 stripes. the left flag's stripes are dark brown, brown, silver, sky blue, light cool green, and very light yellow-green. the right flag's stripes are near-black, dark dull purple, soft brown, warm pink, light red-orange, and pale peach. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

outhoxvir | outhuxera

outhoxvir: being proxvir in an outherine way; an outherine gender relative to male, but is something separate and entirely its own

outhuxera: being juxera in an outherine way; an outherine gender relative to female, but is something separate and entirely its own

[pt: outhoxvir: being proxvir in an outherine way; an outherine gender relative to male, but is something separate and entirely its own

outhuxera: being juxera in an outherine way; an outherine gender relative to female, but is something separate and entirely its own. end pt]

for @gumesblog! the flags combine the proxvir and juxera flags with stripes of brown and silver for outherinity. the terms are 'outh' from 'outherine' + 'oxvir' from 'proxvir'/'uxera' from 'juxera'!

tags: @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @macchiane, @genderstarbucks

tags cont: @maggore, @dragonpride17

shoutout to proxvir

[ID: a flag with 6 equal-sized stripes. In order, the colors are medium blue, sky blue, cool green, light lime green, light pink, and pink. /end ID]

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Distorted versions of Adam and Eve

[pt: Distorted versions of Adam and Eve; end pt]

"Woman" and "Man" have always been categories that suffocated me too much. Especially my gender assigned at birth, with which I’ve always had conflicts and resentments. The constraints of cisnormativity have always been something that prevented me from feeling comfortable being a woman (or theoretically being a woman). Even though I still feel connected to womanhood, identifying as a binary woman feels the same as denying my right to breathe.

My relationship with the gender "man" is more about a lack of connection than resentment itself, but it’s not as if I feel comfortable being a binary man either. This is something I realized recently. In fact, identifying with either of the binary genders feels uncertain and false, and every time I think about the possibility of being at least partially a woman or a man, I spiral into an existential crisis.

I don’t want to be seen as a woman or a man.

But ironically, my genders mirror the ones I reject so much.

[pt: But Ironically, my genders mirror the ones I reject so much; end pt]

So… at the moment, I identify with the genders juxera and proxvir. Which isn’t really contradictory. Even though they are related, juxera and proxvir are separate genders from woman and man. I am absolutely certain (at least considering my current experience) that I don’t identify as a woman or a man. But it turns out that my genders… are similar. To illustrate, I’ll repeat the title of this text: My genders are the distorted versions of woman and man.

Which might sound negative, but honestly, for me, it’s the opposite. This is what I’ve felt about the gender "woman" throughout my life (and about the gender "man" during adolescence). So I decided to embrace this feeling of distortion. My gender experiences play with the binary genders. They transform and transcend their limitations. Imagine me in a house of mirrors, trivializing the binary genders. Or in an alternate plane (okay, maybe I also identify as altewoman/alteman).

Genders that would be doppelgängers, if they weren’t so extremely distinct.