Just went to pride! Wearing a dress outside for the first time! So many new exciting experiences!
Bought a cute little bird for my desk that's holding a trans flag (yeah yeah consumerism bad I won't buy anything else ok?). I also got a free genderfluid flag from the flag booth!!!
Met an awesome tgirl who was awesome
Saw a drag show. It was not for me but I see why they're popular. Also learned that I can "wooo" like women do at concerts and it'll sound like a woman doing it (I do this by inhaling rather than exhaling while vibrating my vocal cords), so that gave me a bit of gender euphoria
Got SO MANY COMPLIEMNTS ON MY DRESS!!!
The D&D people who I bought my bird from were also selling packs of dice for $30. Like jfc what whyy would you do that
My (genderfluid) gender changed back and forth a bunch. I feel like it happens whenever I do something feminine in public, where I feel like I have to reclaim my masculinity, so the reactionary side of my brain instinctively reverts to maleness. It's fucking annoying, especially since then I'm then doing a feminine thing while male and it feels super dysphoric.
Whenever I locked eyes with someone I gave them the male head nod. Which felt super dysphoric. It seemed to happen more when I was male, though. Interesting.
On my way back home I drew some stares from men! I also walked behind a woman without feeling creepy. It was great! (The stares from men thing will probably come to feel less great as time goes on. Each time I defused the tension by giving them a friendly wave which I feel like is not a good idea for a woman to be doing to men that are staring at her. Hopefully I find some better way to defuse the tension. Oh what's that? One doesn't exist and women just have to deal with that forever and ever? Fuck.)
