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Today’s a really good day to practice trusting your intuition. You’re much more authoritative than you think, and you are the world’s top authority on you. Be stubborn in your own defense and in defense of that which is emerging for you and from you. Protect that which is most precious, and maybe take today to go within and rest so that you can better hear your still, small inner voice. It’s ok. If necessary, remind yourself it’s good for you. It’s a healing thing. This is good news — and there’s more good news coming. Even as everything else outside seems to be collapsing, there is good news coming. It will just come from within first, so get to a quiet place where you can hear it. It will help you know what’s best for you (because that still, small voice *is* you). #tarot #oracle #runes #charms #vitki #volva #disir #ancestress #tarotreadersofinstagram #tarotreadings #dailytarot #tarotadvice #divination #divinersofinstagram #charmcasting #tarotofthemoors #themusesdarling #witchesofinstagram #seer #pregnantpause #gowithinandlisten https://www.instagram.com/p/CDT0-pqnDtC/?igshid=7kvl4trz0ngd

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A well deserved Sunday. #rest #pregnantpause #rurallife #saskatchewan (at Meacham, Saskatchewan)

Does anyone have a copy or a link or a download of the fanfic Awkward Beat and Pregnant Pause. I read it a long time ago and want to read it again but it’s been taken down :( :( 

7/20/16 I'm trying to keep up with this whole journal thing, because for some reason I think it will serve me some day. Like something I could reference if I ever need to. Like that time in college where I played a pregnant woman and I tried to “do research” by sitting in on a Lamaze class. God, that was embarrassing. "Hi, I'm Essie. I'm obviously not pregnant. But I'm doing this play at school where I have to give birth on stage, so I was hoping I could observe a birth, but the hospital staff said people don't really allow for random visitors in their birthing rooms, so, uh, thanks for letting me sit in on this class." I was so young! I had no business playing that role. I had no idea. Not that young women can't have babies - not that they don't. Obviously, I would have had one at 21 if things had been different. But now I feel so much older. Not like I feel much more ready to be a parent, especially since Walter is so steady. But today I just feel... tired. I'm going to take a nap.

7/5/16 Finally had an appointment with my OB-GYN, and it's pretty official to the tune of a February 10th due date. Little winter baby. Couldn't see much on that early ultra sound, but there is definitely something cooking in there. I think the news is still sinking in. I mean, it's almost absurd, isn't it? That we try for 6 years and then the minute we accept that it's not happening, I get knocked up. Makes me wonder if we should have made our peace with it sooner. But then I might have missed out on so much, getting involved with Sal's show, etc. Crazy how things work out. Crazy how overnight I go from barren woman to expecting a child. What am I going to do with a little baby? The idea is actually overwhelming me now that it's in motion. And I was kind of excited about the idea of not having to deal with pregnancy weight gain and loss, but now that's a thing. Brooke will love this. Is it just in my head that french fries seem like the best invention ever, or am I actually already experiencing pregnancy cravings? Maybe I'm always just looking for an excuse to eat fried foods.... Maybe I'll book a great pregnant woman role and make some money off this thing. Then I'll save any residuals I get and hire a trainer to lose the weight after. HA! Always thinking.

6/27/16 The moment I never really expected has ARRIVED and in full force. Holy S*%&. I’m pregnant! This is my FIRST entry and it’s already week 5... Those five weeks were stressful as-- heck! I feel like I shouldn't be swearing in front of the baby, so I'm editing myself. WTF?! How did this happen? No, I mean, I know. But please, 6 years of unprotected sex with Walter actually trying to have this outcome and nothing. And as soon as we finish all of the paperwork to start the adoption, whoops! Hello! I'm just baffled. Walter is ecstatic. He's like a crazy person. I had to beg him not to tell his mother yet. PLEASE just let us keep it between us two before Regina gets a hold of it and starts knitting things. I just need to live with it for a bit first. The best part, the thing holding me together, is Walter. It’s like he won the lottery. Really, Walter is going to be an amazing father. I'm not sure I'd want to do this with anyone but him.