Sometimes you come across a song that just hits that very core of you with each word grabbing you one line at a time. And even though not every line is relevant to your situation, the idea and story behind the line is still very relevant to your own story... this was one of those songs for me this morning...
I don't know how to start this off,
Truth is I'm a little pissed off
I'm just being myself
Try to let my walls fall
Try to let you all in, you don't wanna see my raw skin,
I lost my soul when I let the demons in to bargain
Grew up believing in god,
I went to church and I did my job,
There for my sisters and my mom,
I was a brother a friend and a son, I did it right
Yeah, and late in the night
I would picture a mic
And me on a stage getting you hyped, right?
Yeah they screaming my name,
Oh they feeling my pain
Maybe someday, maybe some way they could take it away
Please take it away, my shoulders carrying weight,
Don't know how much I can take,
Slipping and falling I hope I don't break,
Maybe I'm broken, in need of fixing
What do you do when it's your pain that becomes your addiction
Guess it's time to start confessing the reason I'm stressing
Disrespecting my body, never learning my lesson… damn
[Lucidious & Katie Munoz: HOOK]
I don't know what I been doing
Feel like I’ve been losing everything that I have had in my life,
I'm sorry for the pain I cause
I been living in the dark wanna find my light
I promise I can change
Lookin’ up to the heavens can anybody tell me what is right,
Been angry for too long, it's time to move on
My song I’m singing it all night
[Lucidious: Verse 2]
Ruined the one thing close to me
Should of wooed her with poetry,
Told her I loved her before anger grabbed hold of me
Nobody saw it coming
Nobody could have predicted this,
I'm sick of this predicament
That I wish I could be finished with
Tough when you love somebody
More than you love yourself
To the point where your well being
And all of your pleasure is up on a shelf
When I look at her she’s beautiful
I wish timing was more suitable,
I love her, but she hates me,
And I wish feelings were mutual
Wish that we could just rewind
I don't think that’s doable
Our relationship is unhealthy
Feels like were turning delusional
Feels like I'm up in a comatose
So close that I might just overdose
On the hate that I got inside of me
But I need you on the side of me damn
Love is confusing
I think I'm addicted to it,
The pain and the bruising
Don't think I would ever undo it
Think that I gotta let you go,
Take your picture I hold it close
Grip it tight when alone at night
And think about us if we did it right
[Lucidious & Katie Munoz: HOOK]
I don't know what I been doing
Feel like I’ve been losing everything that I have had in my life,
I'm sorry for the pain I cause
I been living in the dark wanna find my light
I promise I can change
Lookin’ up to the heavens can anybody tell me what is right,
Been angry for too long, it's time to move on
My song I’m singing it all night
[Lucidious: Verse 3]
Yeah
So tell me now
Can I let this go
Can I break down can I be proud even if I let true colors show
Truth is man I don't know
Think that I might of been gone too long
Lucid... it's been a while since you dropped a song
Don’t have a mixtape or an album and you're acting like a bum,
Please... bite your tongue
That ain't your damn concern,
This is my music if you wanna rap then take your turn
Go ahead, get a pen pad and put your headphones on,
Do it to a beat, try to make it rhyme
Same time don't lose your mind,
You'd be surprised at what you would find if you look on the inside,
When alone in your room
In the dark close your eyes
Between you and god
And you can believe it or not
Judge me, hate me, love me like or dislike my music
Pay attention to what you say
Some of that shit is abusive
Your gossip is annoying
Oftenly it is intrusive,
Grab your balls do it yourself
Sincerely yours
Lucid
