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WHY IS THERE FURRY ART ON MY DASH?????

I became friends with Jack through my partner sometime last year. We weren’t really friends when we went to visit them irl, but we did become better friends afterward. For a good minute there I did consider Jack my best friend. This did not shield me from the cycle every person who comes into contact with him goes through.

Before I get into this, I want to make one thing extremely clear- if you have ever spoken to Jack, he has talked bad to someone else about you and he has spun the story to every single person he tells so that he is the victim and not at all at fault. He has even lied directly to your face about it. I am so extremely sorry to Halo, Moth, Mink, Nick, Grrem, and anyone else that Jack falsified information to me about and made me draw any kind of conclusion about your character for the duration of my friendship with him and time in faunids. I should have done my own research and not just trusted my friend blindly at face value.

I want to start with why I left faunids. I had intended on playing by myself and just being removed from the server, but quickly found out this would not be possible. Here Is where I state that you will have to trust what I say, because I do not at this time feel comfortable providing screenshots, nor do I have most of them left as I am not in servers they happened in anymore. However, if necessary, I can attempt to source them.

I decided I would leave faunids after a conversation I had with Jack. He came to me in my DMs to show me art my partner (mal) had submitted for a re-reference. He said there weren’t any big issues and not a lot would have to be fixed, and then sent redlines that would involve redrawing the entire torso and arms - on a finished art piece. He told me he was worried to upset Mal because everybody had been “so sensitive” about criticism in their references. I said that he was telling me this wasn’t a big chance and yet it seemed they were having us redo the whole thing, and he proceeded to tell me that “everybody just wants to to whatever the hell they want” and that the community was becoming exhausting because all they wanted to do was take and take. He had not shared this sentiment months prior when he was a part of said community and not the sole admin, and had chastised Deertush multiple times for feeling that way.

I told him I did not appreciate mal being spoke about in my DMs the way he was doing, and that I felt his anti-community sentiment was coming from Necro. This is due to multiple private conversations I had with him where he admitted that necro:

1. Does not want users to create their own references. He feels this directly impacts his income and anyone who creates references for themselves is stealing from official artists.

2. Does not like my partner, Hearteater, because my partner worked faster than he did and he felt he was stealing his clientele.

3. Was harsher on Mal during critiques because they wanted him to “improve” - but as we found out, their overly harsh criticism during re references was actually to push Mal away from drawing faunids entirely. If Mal stopped drawing faunids, that would open up revenue for official artists to make money again.

I explained to Jack that since he had taken leadership, faunids had gone from being a fun thing to do with friends to being extremely anti-community and, as I felt, hostile to my partner specifically due to necro’s feelings on him. I told him that the only reason I was still in faunids was because I cared about him, and that If I did not care about him I would not still be there. I also mentioned that they should not be so hard on mal, because he was quite literally generating hundreds if not thousands of dollars of free money for them in reref fees. I did the math that between Mal and I, since he joined faunids he had been involved in over half of the total submissions since that point. I don’t have the number off the top of my head, but it was quite a bit.

I was told that I was never ever allowed to speak to Jack about necro ever again, that he should not have told me necro’s private feelings since they weren’t true (by the way- if you saw the screenshot from artist chat, they had an entire staff meeting to talk about Mal “stealing” their clients - so, again, lied to my face!) and that I was attempting to manipulate him. I was not. I laid my feelings out in a way I felt was healthy and necessary and he could not handle that so he used therapy words to try and sound smarter and righter than me. Anyway.

I didn’t say anything to him after that. He made his position clear, mal and I were not welcome, and I decided I would play by myself. I’d remove myself from the discord and just not have communication with Jack or his other friends, and instead play through the website.

I was then informed by Ronan, one of my friends remaining on staff, that he was becoming increasingly uncomfortable because I was literally being gangstalked. I do not use this lightly. I had begun selling faunids to downsize since - in all honesty- I had planned to forget my important faunids after fauning and wanted people to be able to use the ones I didn’t really care about. Jack started telling people that I was having a BPD episode and I was attempting to hurt him because I was not answering his DMs (I did not want to, I did not want to speak to him after how he spoke to me) and I was selling all of my faunids in order to “hurt him like how Halo did.”

Jack told his staff chat that they had to “keep an open mind” about punishing me, that I was breaking the rules because I had refused contact with him, and that he was monitoring the sales of my faunids to try and “get me on housing my faunids in a sock account,” whatever that’s supposed to mean. Like he doesn’t have Michael hold his faunids to bypass the limit himself? Anyway. They were actively watching me, my movements, my sales, and anything that happened on my account for weeks to try and catch me on something so they could ban me. I hadn’t done anything wrong and they knew that.

He began telling people that Sam and I, the coders, had left him overnight without any help before a big event. I want to make this exceptionally clear - Jack did not pay me for my work. I was given a handful of applicators for the CSS on the website, and I was supposed to be paid in customs for porting over Atalav.com to Faunids.com. He passed me over multiple times and gave me multiple excuses but never started the work, even though I was expected to stay up to date and get everything ported in a timely manner alongside doing HTML for new events. Any and all HTML you see on the website, including the Springtide and Winter Gala pages (anything that looks nice!) was not paid for, and they are using it without it being paid. This is whatever. I’ve taken the L for this. There’s no way for me to get them to stop using my code, I’m not contacting them or opening a line of contact and subjecting myself to anything else. I’m just letting you, the userbase, know they are using unpaid work. Kind of like how he would use Mal’s art for everything, not credit him, and then lie to everyone and say Mal’s sketches were his.

I do not have anything to hide. I have done nothing wrong in this situation and I am open to speaking about it. Jack relentlessly puts anyone down he dislikes, disagrees with, and he does not care who he’s saying it to. He will try to turn you against partners you have loved your whole life. He did it to me. He did it to others, though I won’t out them by name. He will do it to you about your friends. He will do it in front of you, in staff chats, and then be surprised when you’re upset. The world is his oyster, and everybody loves that dog on tv!

I can remember a time where Darth, someone I know and have loved as a great friend and very easy commissioner for many years, did something Jack did not like. Jack went into our friend server, posted a picture he drew of his “Darth meter”, which was low because Darth, the kindest person I’ve ever met, had somehow wronged him by asking for changes on art - which would only “go up” if Darth gave him more money.

He is two faced. It is all about money and clout. If you are not jerking him off and talking about how great he is, you are put in the bad corner of his mind and he will actively spite you.

He told me for months that Grrem had bullied him about Cashback and kept dangling her above his head. I saw those screenshots - how could you talk to someone like that? The lack of empathy to someone going through something? And then to lie to people about it who don’t know the situation?

He told me for months that Halo was consistently BPD splitting on him. He told me he was glad “I wasn’t like that” and that “people should just act like how I do” about my disorder. I’ve seen some of those screenshots too, Jack. You’re a fucking liar. You use people’s mental illnesses as a weapon when you don’t get what you want. You back them into a corner they can do nothing but apologize to you for and if they don’t, they get ostracized and bullied out of entire communities. Or better yet, you’ll assign them mental illnesses so you have a weapon to point at them. Telling people Athena has been splitting and fashioning some kind of hate crusade against you is fucking stupid. She doesn’t have an illness where she splits. Anything Athena or anybody else says has been the truth. You just need an excuse to sling around to make people less credible and to make it seem like you aren’t just a shitty fucking person.

As a side note, never do any kind of work with Jack where you give him a character or payment upfront. He just doesn’t deliver. I gave him a Minodae of mine in exchange for a custom, which he never did even 6+ months later, and when Mal asked for it back for me he said it was insane that I’d ask for a character back when he’s had 6+ months to develop her. Dear reader, which is more insane; writing lore for a character that isn’t paid for and never delivering the work, or asking for a character back after 6 months of no delivery?

I also want it to be known that every single person he was friends with, including both coders, begged them to put off that stupid fucking comic they were working on so they could fix the species. Every single time something comes up it’s “well we are working on this! We are just picking up the mess Deertush left!” when they are key parts of the species that should have been immediately fixed, and instead he chose to spend months on a comic nobody gave a fuck about and then talk about how stressed all the questions were making him. You know what matters? Reref rules. Merfaun updates. Minodae outlines. Not another fucking way to shoehorn Satisfaction and Curiosity into people’s lives. Nobody cares about your characters. You have turned faunids, a community species, into Jack’s playhouse where everyone gets to watch Jack play but never play themselves. You should be ashamed of yourself.

I am asking everyone to please look at your own relationship with these people and assess if you are also being manipulated. Are they coming to you privately to vent their frustrations? Are they consistently making themselves the victim, and saying it’s everyone else who is bad? If so, please be mindful. Take care of yourself. You do not owe anyone anything.

I am also aware that faunids staff is telling people all kinds of things about me. I am sure things are being said that I haven’t heard yet, and I have heard quite a bit. If you have any questions, please feel free to come and ask me. I am an open book. You can add me on discord. I will talk to you, and provide screenshots where I can. I’ve done nothing vengeful, nothing evil, nothing but completely remove myself from the situation and that has made me the enemy.

If you are being told something by Jack, as a side note, please be sure you ask for proof even if it is not related to me. I have had two major things Jack told me when we were friends proven completely false through screenshots recently, which proved to me that Jack has had a manipulation cycle for a long time and he will tell you anything to get you to believe him and feel bad for him. Ask for the screenshots. I’m not kidding. Two situations where he has told me there were hate campaigns against him, people abusing him, manipulating him, literally proved entirely false and showing me he was the aggressor the whole time. He conveniently does not share screenshots. Keep it in mind.

I also want to point out some context for screenshots that have been posted on this account in the past from friends of mine. The screenshot of Michael saying that the items were not removed from my account out of spite, and Jack stating in staff chat that he was deleting my things out of spite, are about the same situation. Michael will do his best to PR situations for Jack but Jack makes his true feelings known extremely loud privately. Everything that has happened recently - forgottens being hidden, updates to the user code of conduct, etc - have been made just to spite us.

Keep in mind the dialogues being used to describe us. “Those people” is one I see often. “Those people” involves anybody who Jack has ever at any point upset to where they don’t talk to him or involve themselves in his species anymore. One day, it will be you! You will become useless to him and be one of those people.

Again, I am an open book. Banriion on discord.

PS, I didn’t steal those faunids out from under Kardinal. Mal did. You and your staff stop telling people I did shit when you have no proof it was me or that I was involved. I have not wanted anything to do with faunids, you, or anybody else. I know it’s really hard to fathom, but I literally do not think about you. You are a lesson I have learned from and literally nothing else to me. Neither does Athena. For some reason nobody will tell you, so I will: you need help. Like real help. Everything you’ve ever said about Athena, or me, or Halo, or Grrem, or Mink, or Darth, or anybody else, the call is coming from inside the fucking house. Every single internet meme where it’s like “guy who you become friends with that isn’t sure why all of his friend groups keep kicking him out” - dude, that’s you. Call a fucking therapist like you told me you made Halo do before he was allowed to grace his presence in front of you again. Fuck you.

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That required moving up in rank. And that required making allies. Jesse was no stranger to hard work and mental exercise. But learning how to socialize, especially with vod that already held a poor opinion of him had been difficult.

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