im gonna be real vulnerable with you internet strangers.
Today took a turn I never expected..
After being at the ER after work with my husband for three hours, I come home and am texting my boyfriend how it went and what Drs said. Casual life updates ya know?
And in the middle of it, I get these three huge copy and pasted messages from him, letting me know him and his wife had been talking for a few days and decided, after 5 years, to step away from the poly life for the moment, and he hopes I can forgive him, and he's sorry to be a coward and do it over text instead of a call or in person, and he still loves me and hopes in the future to revisit our relationship and pick it back up.
I am like.... Numb. Gutted. Shocked. I mean good for him for wanting to focus on his family, I told him at the very beginning his wife and kids need to take priority, I Just feel like I probably should have been a part of the conversation regarding our relationship. ?? Right? No?
Anyway.. I don't know if I'll be around or not. Maybe endless scrolling will help. Maybe disappearing for a while will help. I'm not sure. I'll be in and out.
Thanks for understanding, peace and love 🤟🏻
