Hey we are both polyfragmented and a very small system at the same time! We have two "operating systems", which basically means:
1. The traumagenic side - super complex polyfragmented system with levels/ layers/sidesystems and hundreds of fragment type alters to deal with very severe trauma from infancy. Vivid inner world. We can call this operating system "Windows". It's very difficult to interact with, full of PTSD symptoms (software malfunctions) and major struggles with life.
2. The endogenic side - Very small! Less than ten people! Very well-rounded headmates, very spiritual in nature, very connected to our spiritual beliefs and cultural ties. A white void for an inner world with a bean bag. We can call this one "Linux" for this analogy.
Both operating systems do different tasks, have different ways of living, and never are able to interact seriously with each other mentally. We are Hoping to change this, but so far, this has been tough. I have never seen another system describe this. Does anyone else's system work like this? Especially if you are a mixed origin traumaendo?
We don't go through this since our headmates are all blends of origins in one way or another even if they weren't formed with it (+ we aren't polyfragmented), but we asked for input from @enberneutral and Daimon told us this:
" I may not have it as complex on our traumagenic side of our system, but I related heavily to how you organize your system either way. There's a distinct difference between the "veterans" (traumas) and just our typical endo sysmates.
It's mostly relatable, but then we have veterans such as Klaus in charge of a sidesystem which is mostly composed of non-traumagenics. Zachary, on the otherhand, is the only median subsystem which we could label as fully traumagenic.
Aside from that, I feel like we've met some people on Tumblr with similar experiences, and if anyone who sees this can relate, then please let us know!! "
hopefully he helped :)
