please read this if you follow me, @/wadesworldd, @/ggutspunch, or are mutuals with me and don't know about the controversy on my name going around as of recent. if you have any questions, leave it in my inbox or better yet, dm me and our conversation will remain private!
tw: mentions of SA & simply tumblr drama
the name change & reason:
Hi, some of you may have known me as Hannah or Nicole, and perhaps have a lot of misimpressions about me. But here is the great explanation of why I went through those two aliases.
So with Hannah, I had over three thousand followers, and I really enjoyed writing as Hannah, except I got a lot of hate because I was a mainly drabble writer, and I got a lot of fame for writing drabbles, and a lot of people disliked me because I was getting famous too fast, which I understand. It might be very frustrating when you are writing long, detailed fanfics, and someone who's writing something very much smaller is easily getting fame.
I understand, but I can't control that I write to quote, and I enjoyed posting my writing online. Up until that, things were fine.
But an ex of mine started targeting me and posted personal information about me because I wouldn't date her, and things went down very fast. I got very scared, and I told my boyfriend at the time, AJ, that I am done being Hannah. I'm scared of being doxxed and getting my personal information out there on the internet, and it's just a very difficult topic for me, so I am done being Hannah. I need to protect myself, so I need to get into this other alliance to be safe as an author.
That is how the Nicole identity started. I couldn't tell everyone who I was once before, but some of my friends knew I was Hannah, and they swore secrecy to keep me safe from her.
Later, when I'd gotten together with AJ after our breakup, I've gone through with some other aliases which all have been deleted and are unused right now. All the names we have gone through as PRIMARIES are here:
So, I was surrounded by a lot of people who liked censorship fanfics when I was Nicole. I had never written anything of that sort before in my life I believe, but when all those people started telling me and discussing things like that, I thought maybe I should write it.
While I wrote it, I felt a sense of discomfort, but I told myself that it's fine, I am probably just overreacting. It didn't help that my boyfriend at the time, AJ, himself urged me to write non-consensual fanfics with heavier themes that I wish I had screenshotted before but I'm unsure if I have anything to prove it, that account is probably already deleted.
And given I had explored that subject before with some traumas (sa) I've had before, I thought that maybe this is how some people like to cope.
So, before I could make any public statement about it, I stopped writing those kind of fanfics for a while. And during that time, I had a controversy start in my server, where this one user, namely Ethan (ggutpunch), started sexualizing pedophilia. Now, I knew that they have trauma of being targeted and groomed, so I defended them to AJ, that "they're just traumatized, it happens. They just need therapy". AJ, on the other hand, told me that that user needed to be "put down like a dog".
My mixed feelings resulted in me going behind both of their backs and shit-talking both of them. And I realized that that's probably the worst thing I've ever done in my entire seven years of writing. And I've hurt a lot of people through my words behind their back, and I do very much acknowledge that, yes, I did hurt them. And I've already apologized to that user and AJ and tried to put everything behind me and move on and just be a better person, because there's only so much I can do.
I am getting better. I don't lie anymore. I don't talk shit about someone and pretend to be their friend in the next second.
I just want everyone to acknowledge that I did not write all the fanfic completely on my own accord, and I had support, which made me think that this was probably normal. But I still have mixed emotions regarding it all because I'm not sure how I feel about it. I still have nightmares from my own sa trauma, and I don't know if I should write about it or just avoid it or just do whatever.
So I stay away from similar fanfiction materials now, like I had once done when I was Hannah, until I met that group of people and that messed me up.
I don't blame them for the things I've written, but I do blame them for pretending like they never supported the things I wrote.
the double standards:
After everything fell to hell, I was disloyal to AJ and I lied about a lot of things. And AJ then proceeded to ask me to try again in this relationship, and we did. We tried again, except this time he was disloyal and dishonest, which resulted in the falling out again on 10th June.
This time I told him that I am truly done, and I do not want to see him talking about me anywhere else, because he told his dearest friends that he moved on from me and all that, except that was another lie. And given that when me and him tried again, he told his friends that we weren't together, and he told me that he wasnt friends with those people— he lied to both sides.
I provided evidence of those lies to ggutpunch (the person that took it in their hands to expose the liars in this entire case), and I had asked them if they would take the same initiative as they did when I lied to them. They said they would confront, except they never did the same things to AJ.
It was completely biased, and they still have never put out screenshots of AJ the way they had for me. And that hurt me a lot because it was so clear that they were biased with each other when they made big mistakes and lied to the public, and they didn't actually care that both of us hurt each other, and both of us deserved the same kind of consequences for our lies.
Moreover, when he exposed screenshots of mine, it was called raising awareness. But when I showed people that I got lied to by him as well and we are both just teens who made mistakes growing up— he called it childish and immature... So yeah, that's a lot of hypocrisy and discrimination.
the lies from AJ didn't stop there:
We tried AGAIN. Yeah, again.
Because he lied to ggutpunch about not talking of me anywhere except he was still actively talking about me on an alt blog that I won't name. I knew so I exposed that lie too, in hopes that maybe I'd get the justice of being lied to (like AJ had gotten), except, I never got that. They're still happy-go-lucky friends with each other while knowing fully well he's a liar. And has lied way more after promising her wouldn't.
After I blocked ggutpunch because of the double standards they showed me, AJ and I talked again after around 3 days of no contact.
We agreed to try for a talking stage, except there was way too much disrespect there, and while I had reassured him for the lies I'd told him, I barely got that same treatment back because I'm also freshly hurt by his lies. And considering he's friends with people who're still unfairly dragging only me down, and he's aware of that injustice— I told him that the talking stage itself cannot work out because it's plain disrespectful how he sits back and watches me get discriminated against him.
I told him not to contact me unless he was ready to give me the same reassurance I'd given him, but he tried to add me back on discord and act like nothing happened because "he wants to move on" but doesn't want to deal with the damage he's caused in me.
Adding on, he lied to me about guaranteeing that ggutpunch would stop posting about me, but he lied about it. And I'm really tired of any more lies at all.
It's 15th June today when I called it off just a bit ago, and because I've promised him 60 days after the breakup I won't move on, his 60 days had started four days ago, that leaves 56 days. I have screenshots to verify 95% of the things I've said here.
conclusion:
But I'm not ggutpunch neither AJ so I would much rather not post them out here. You can choose to believe me if you wish to, and if not that's fine too but if my memory serves me right, this is all there is to the drama that's gone down recently.
I just want the raw truth to be out. And it is now. That's all the peace I need. I will answer asks regarding the situation, but I do encourage zero hate directed towards ggutpunch or AJ, or anyone else who discriminated against me or was included in the situation in general.
I do firmly believe everyone will get karma accordingly.
Any hate in my inbox will be deleted and blocked. I'm done lying to people to protect others or myself. I'm done lying in general. I just wanna heal myself and get better, and I hope they all do as well.
I haven't moved on from AJ, and I don't know for sure why he told me he loved me only to say he liked my company later on, maybe because he wanted me to stay quiet about his lies? I don't know.
I wish everyone stops biasing, stops discriminating, and learns of all the raw truth. Thank you for reading!!
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what does kase write for?
right now i’ll just be writing for boku no hero academia. for right now, i will only be writing heterosexual dynamics, as that is what i have experience with and i do not want to misrepresent wlw or mlm dynamics! additionally, most if not all of my works will be afab reader. i do my best to keep physical descriptors aside from genitals out of my work!
what doesn’t kase write for?
as mentioned above, i do not (currently) write wlw or mlm dynamics. i also will not write anything including the following: scat/piss/vomit, age play/DDLG, pedophilia, fauxcest or stepcest, hybrid or bestiality, or gore. i may write fics that include blood, but only for specific dynamics, such as a vampire au or anything along those lines!
asks, requests, suggestions!
my inbox is always open! feel free to drop in and say hi or ask questions. i love receiving requests and suggestions! if i take a while to respond to a request, pleaseee know i have seen it, sometimes it just takes me a bit to get them out! i'm not ignoring you i swearrrr
You are now in my main account where I post majority of my art here from different media. (mostly OTGW and Gravity Falls, esp regarding the Pinescone crackship)
This is also the same handle I use for my Twitter and Instagram. These sites are the only sites I use, and I do not allow reposting unless given credit. Please do not feed my art with AI.
Other alternate accounts:
@aives-used-to-eat-cheeseburgers - inactive main account
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Hello! Your guidelines clearly say that reposting your translations isn't allowed, and that your dms are for commission requests only, so I wanted to ask here if I would be allowed to use excerpts of your work in an analysis post, with credit? Despite not being a newer event even on ENG I haven't found the full Elbert & Alfons Past Records event elsewhere. If you say no my plan is to not directly quote but still refer to what happens in the event along with linking your posts, but either way tell me if other guidelines come to mind as to how I should go about it/not go about it. You're free to answer my ask privately or publicly. Thank you for your time 🙇🙇
hi hii! sorry for my late reply, and ty for reaching out abt this!
i can answer this publicly as its good to clarify this in general if its ok -- using my tls is fine, but the credit does need to be visible! if you (or anyone else) ever do use my tls, i would appreciate tagging me as well, but nw if you don't want to. what is strictly not allowed is copy and pasting my entire tls or portions of it and posting it without giving credit (i.e., "claiming it as yours").
